4/6 Reflector PLL-DLR

November 2009

MoonBlog 19.2 Interdependence

Tobacco III

5 whole weeks have passed since I’ve finally taken myself up on actually making work of stopping to smoke.

It has been in the making for several years now, in that sense I’m not stupid, I know I shouldn’t. But the thing that prevented me from doing it, was lack of joy in quitting. I mean, need for/to, and logic alone is not good enough. For me. And I quite enjoy smoking, actually, and still do.

I enjoy it because I’m rewarding myself in that sense, every so often, I give myself a cigarette, it is a cheap, small and easy gift, poisonous none the less, but still. You can give yourself lots of them daily, relatively cheap, even now when governments have enormously increased the prices.
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MoonBlog 39.1 Disengagement

So now, let’s take it another way

There is some mention of black marketeers (more and more actually), which unfortunately is -not- open for discussion.

I have several feelings about that, where some have manifested as thoughts which I will share here.

To me, a black marketeer is someone who does not give what you are supposed to get. So someone who skips a few steps and presents it as being the real deal. Since I cannot point fingers at individuals on this forum, I’ll just quote this:
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MoonBlog 45.5 Leadership

Kick my butt

Hm, so, no more HDS bashing, and no more honouring IHD for now through closing/pausing the IHD group… damn… 😉

Through HDS, sidestepping to MHDS (multi dimensional), dancing with Zeno’s flowing HD, and a short but intense fling with IHD, I come to the GeneKeys.

Surrendering to it actually.
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MoonBlog 42.3 Trial and error

Self-devotion

I feel and realise now, that I wanted human design, then integral human design, and now the deep dive to be a permanent change in my life.

From conditioned, mundaine, sheeplike, shadow patterned and patented monotony and stupidity, left-brain dictations to a freed life, of eternal bliss, profound love, monetairy indifference, fullfilling dreams and wishes, and loads of joy.

But I also realise now that it is all wishfull -thinking-

And yes, my body does feel different, I feel my body differently. My mind operates the same but is not so much in control anymore as it has taken a more observing stance.
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