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“My personal method of deconditioning”

In some “not so easy to follow” steps. Perhaps in the right order.

“Try to fit in the Mold of Life by becoming Superslave. Neglect to realize when enough is enough and have a complete breakdown physically, mentally, financially and generally.

Find Rock Bottom and sit there for a while.

Realize that Life is Pain – start to Heal.

Be fortunate enough to be introduced to HumanDesign by someone deep in the experiment, with a Channel of Struggle for the tenacity to seek Purpose. Curse Channel of Struggle. Love Channel of Struggle.

Have first conscious experience of a Spleen-hit while watching your first Ra-video, where he speaks of your 5/2 Profile. Melt inside.

Absorb everything you come across of Information. Know everything. Know nothing. Start Seeing.

Go away. Hide Self from other Selves in Cabin by the Sea. Be alone for a month. Find personal rhythm and true feeling in the body. Remember.

Experiment using the Body as a Barometer for the states of being in Others. Have “HolyShit!” moment of sudden understanding of implications of having a projector-aura.

Become convinced – go RAdical. Initiate Waiting-game. Nothing happens. Re-examine parameters of Waiting-game. Facepalm.

Experience the right Invitation. See yourself transform in the Situation, now that the Recognition has made the Energy avaliable. File under “HolyShit!”. Folder is getting thick.

Streamline friendships, let go of trying to fix things with your Mind and try to settle in the Backseat. Observe your Self quietly freak out, but also do nothing. Create new folder titled “Hm.”

Have noticeable physical improvements as Vehicle starts to become more aligned to its Trajectory.

Move into house where HD is a language and treated somewhat according to Type. Have happy days.

Have bad days. But notice that most of the badness is now filed under “Hm.” and not “F!!” as per earlier routine.

Everything becomes the Experiment. Thank Ra. Curse Ra. Fight it. Loose. Give up. Have confidence. Embrace doubt. Enjoy the Ride. Throw up.

Have “Hm, HolyShit!” moment of realization about the correct use and purpose of Fear and the true implications of Trust in your Splenic Authority. Laugh at the Past.

Write some jumbled brainfarts on deconditioning, in an effort to make some sense of past experiences and perhaps contribute to something or other, thru the outlet of Outer Authority (which you deep down know knows nothing).

Wait. Drink some Tea.

Have nap.”- Lars Haugeland
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The Drama of Profile

“…the design side. You have no conscious access to it, which means there is no way your mind can either interfere with it or truly grasp it. It has nothing to do with your mind.

And in terms of the not-self, the not-self does everything in its power to ignore it, even if that unconscious is the sole thing driving its definitions, because it has no access to it, none. When somebody enters into the experiment of Human Design, that experiment is cutting off the mind from trying to run the life and allowing the mind to become mind, to be involved in what it’s here for, which we’ll get to in a moment. But the moment you’re operating according to Strategy and Authority you’re automatically aligning your vehicle to its cognition and you’re automatically aligning your vehicle to a geometry, a trajectory, a direction, whatever language you want to use, that is absolutely correct for you…

…We have a dilemma with mind in Human Design because as not-self it really destroys our possibility to be able to perfect our process. But once you’ve entered into a process where your Strategy and Authority is making the rules for your life there are all kinds of possibilities then for the mind. It is its freedom. And this freedom is to be an outer authority, what you get from me. That is, my mind has value for you. It does not have the same value for me. That is, my mind does not tell me what to do so it is no longer my inner authority.” – Ra Uru Hu – Rave Cosmology VI – Profile, Purpose and Function

It’s perfectly pointless

Maya (the dog)

‘Awakening to your true nature is like dying; it’s a certainty, inevitable. You’re going to get there no matter what you do, so why rush? Enjoy your life, it’s free. Cosmic Consciousness and Altered States and Universal Mind are the names of rides in this vast and fascinating dualistic amusement park. So are Poverty and Disease and Despair. Enlightenment, though, is not another ride. Enlightenment means leaving the park altogether, but why leave the park? In the park you can be a saint or a yogi or a billionaire or a world leader or a warlord. Be good, be evil. Happiness, misery, bliss, agony, victory, defeat, it’s all here. What’s the big rush? When the time comes to leave the park, you’ll know and you’ll go, but there’s certainly nothing to be gained by it.’ – Jed McKenna SPIRITUAL ENLIGHTENMENT: THE DAMNEDEST THING

MoonBlog 28.1 preparation

I’m about to throw in the towel, leave all these FB HD groups. Again 😉

The influx of newbies who are drawn in by people like Jenna Zoe selling people ‘Reflector muffins’ and ‘dieting by Type’, combined with the groups admin/moderators too uninterested in keeping the contents about HD.

I really enjoy sharing experience and knowledge with others about HD, in individual sessions, classes and in those groups.

But it seems it is just not my network anymore, when other Certified or semi Professionals also use such groups for shooting from the hip and just blabber from their minds.

I don’t care about the newbie doing so, it is what we are here for, to help guide the way, shine the light, give proper info.

But when the trained, or even certified start doing so, I know it is no longer ‘safe’ for me anymore. When some caretakers take a break themselves, and the groups instantly become much much worse.

Now I know it is in part the Transits cause every single year around this time, this notion happens. I know it is the 4th line overwhelm and sense of abdication.
Is it my Kiron Return of last May? Is it the caving in of the structure of the Cross of Planning too?

I just don’t feel available anymore to the masses, the lurkers, the silent readers, and the network seems depleted, or at least shrinking.

Anyways, maybe see you again elsewhere
(For now, I left a couple of badly moderated groups, and blocked a few more idiots, maybe it helps)
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On Transits

“Hello everyone, I’d like to make an important clarification about following transits that is long overdue: This group is for those who are sincerely living their strategy and authority and understand that following astrological transits is very different from a nine centered point of view than it has been historically for many of those interested in astrology. Astrology originated in a seven centered era, when we were strategic beings focused on survival. Within that context there was rightly a strategic intent to following transits.

For nine centered humanity today, it’s clear to me that transits are not opportunities to do something. Even if you recognize a transit like mercury retrograde as an opportunity to re-evaluate things, it’s not an opportunity for your mind. Your mind will want to play out scenarios with that transit, all of which are not self strategies. You don’t know what things you’ll be re-evaluating, and how that will play out. You’re not going to get what your mind wants. It’s just something to be aware of as it’s happening to you and to others around you. It’s not wise to pencil into your calendar “time to re-evaluate my contracts” just because mercury is in retrograde. You don’t know that that is where your energy wants to go. I bet you will re-evaluate something, but you don’t know what, when, and how. You’re not in control of that. That’s mental intervention that inhibits the natural flow of your life.

We are conditioned by neutrinos, not in control of them. They will color your life according to roughly predictable themes, in the context of your design…pushing you in directions…but there is no way to utilize them for our own ends…attempting to do so is the definition of acting from the not self. There is merely identification with that transit energy or not, and even in that we have no choice. We can only see what we can see at any given time. We don’t get to choose to have the awareness to not succumb to transit conditioning. Just because you know a transit is happening doesn’t mean you’re beyond being pushed by it. But maybe you’ll notice the impersonality of it later, and that will be of value to you. One way or another, we are always going to be conditioned. If you have the energy to be aware of how and to what extent, lucky you.

Do you want to be a part of a group that is created for witnessing the transits as they activate lines, gates, and channels in our lives, recognizing these energies that are conditioning us, so as not to identify with them, not to make decisions because of them, and not to take their themes personally? That’s what this group is. And fortunately I have a volunteer to continue to post the sun gate and line transits daily. Understanding this astro context can help put the mind at ease, allowing us to truly see more as a witness, without grasping and identifying, and to ultimately help us clarify the difference between our nature that we can rely on and the transiting energies that are just weather.

Please feel free to comment if you need clarification on this important difference. The old orientation insidiously reinforces the not self mental control game, the new orientation liberates the passenger to see more clearly and relax into the form.”- James Alexander in the Human Design Line, Gate, and Channel Study

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MoonBlog 60.5 leadership

Relevant to several FB HD groups: The convo about being bullied or not is a side issue but taking it away from the real issue, the cause for most of these arguments/discussions, where we no longer speak about HD but about how we speak about HD, and how we speak to each other:

Can you be in a group, where people have different ways of talking?

Do you seek to impose ways of communication on others? Like safe spaces and whatnot. Are you easily offended?

Do you argue the tone, and how it (supposedly) -feels- to you (which is thinking btw) what the other has said, but never intended.

Do you seek to manipulate your experiences of life and of conversations with others?

Are your decisions and opinions run by your arrogant mind in a group that seeks to support in moving away from that same mind?

Etc etc.
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