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MoonBlog 28.1 preparation

I’m about to throw in the towel, leave all these FB HD groups. Again 😉

The influx of newbies who are drawn in by people like Jenna Zoe selling people ‘Reflector muffins’ and ‘dieting by Type’, combined with the groups admin/moderators too uninterested in keeping the contents about HD.

I really enjoy sharing experience and knowledge with others about HD, in individual sessions, classes and in those groups.

But it seems it is just not my network anymore, when other Certified or semi Professionals also use such groups for shooting from the hip and just blabber from their minds.

I don’t care about the newbie doing so, it is what we are here for, to help guide the way, shine the light, give proper info.

But when the trained, or even certified start doing so, I know it is no longer ‘safe’ for me anymore. When some caretakers take a break themselves, and the groups instantly become much much worse.

Now I know it is in part the Transits cause every single year around this time, this notion happens. I know it is the 4th line overwhelm and sense of abdication.
Is it my Kiron Return of last May? Is it the caving in of the structure of the Cross of Planning too?

I just don’t feel available anymore to the masses, the lurkers, the silent readers, and the network seems depleted, or at least shrinking.

Anyways, maybe see you again elsewhere
(For now, I left a couple of badly moderated groups, and blocked a few more idiots, maybe it helps)
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MoonBlog 60.5 leadership

Relevant to several FB HD groups: The convo about being bullied or not is a side issue but taking it away from the real issue, the cause for most of these arguments/discussions, where we no longer speak about HD but about how we speak about HD, and how we speak to each other:

Can you be in a group, where people have different ways of talking?

Do you seek to impose ways of communication on others? Like safe spaces and whatnot. Are you easily offended?

Do you argue the tone, and how it (supposedly) -feels- to you (which is thinking btw) what the other has said, but never intended.

Do you seek to manipulate your experiences of life and of conversations with others?

Are your decisions and opinions run by your arrogant mind in a group that seeks to support in moving away from that same mind?

Etc etc.
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MoonBlog 33.2 surrender

When your deeper cravings, wishes and desires, drive your actions, become your motives. To not be aware of these deeper wants, hunger, longing. Not sit with them but resolve them, trying to, filling countless round holes with square pegs (pun intended).

As opposed to be aware of them, honoring them, allowing them to be. To be a lone human on a barren planet, looking for love, looking, looking. Where your conditioned conditions meet the other’s conditioned conditions. Where you find, but not just quite, or seems not, is not, as we knee-jerk onwards. Uh and ah !

A great hunger and appetite for intimacy

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MoonBlog 33.4 dignity

Supposedly the Buddha has said:
“My teaching is a raft whereon men may reach the far shore The sad fact is that so many mistake the raft for the shore”

But what I see often with people dabbling with Human Design and in the HD FaceBook groups is people bitching about that raft, thinking they can take a bus instead, or get a canoe. Get a ride with someone else instead.

And then others ask if there are accommodations on the raft, with sheets and bedding, what time is lunch actually? Wanting the day to day program, stating ahead that they’re not going to do the 2 o-clock meditations ever, ow and probably skip that other class too cause someone else did it and they did not like it.

Then there are those that seek discounts for the crossing without ever knowing the initial price.

Others complain about not being able to swim, or only seek to go when the weather is fine and they have a few free holi-days.

And thus they never reach that far shore, never get to experience what life is going to be like after. Seeing the raft, or teaching as a means to not go, to not ‘get their feet wet’ as a hurdle, when the raft is only just a means to get somewhere else.

It is not about the raft at all. It is not about all these Outer Circumstances.
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MoonBlog 54.6 Selectivity

MoonBlog 54.6

As someone who is in the experiment well over 11 years, and providing my own Transit/Lunar Cycle service, I find the Transit Tool provided by myBodyGraph very advanced, very elaborate too. Maybe even too advanced for beginners.

However, there is so much functionality in it, some obvious by just clicking here and there, some perhaps not so obvious.

So is it for beginners? Yes and no, for some it will be an online honey pot and resource of incredible information, for others it might be a nerd fest of overwhelm.

At the same time, the information that is provided, like all Retrograde Planets, and when they start or end doing so, and other statistics, the live view is fascinating.

Over time one will use a few key functions I presume, you may gravitate towards some different ones than I would, and because it is so elaborate and vast this is all possible.

When having access to Steps 2 and 3 on just one chart, but then not having that same access in the Transit Tool is unfortunate and only overcome by buying the unlimited access.

And sometimes I end up in another information layer I need to remind myself to click the exit cross on the right and come back to the big overview of menus again, where I can then play again with which information to show:
Themes, keynotes and Lines under Planetary Activations
Keynotes, Not-Self Keynotes, Not-Self Questions under Centers
Keynotes under Channels
Elaborate Ordering options under Gates
The many, many ‘hover mouse over’ information baloons

And once activating some of the many options in the ‘show’ menu under the Moon Cycle, another vast bank of info opens up to play with, which I enjoy very much, which I can imagine any beginner struggling with, but starting out with selecting and deselecting which options to show, may help there indeed.

The Ephemeris part did not phase me that much, but can imagine other people have a field day looking forwards or back to certain events, although limited to the years 1900 – 2060. Ok I tried actually and got from December 31st 1899 until May 30st of 2061 😉

Add on: What is odd to me and may confuse others, is the use of the blue and green color. In the MMI, when making a Transit Chart, what is Resonant or you, becomes Green and what forms a Channel (Harmonic) is Blue. In this tool it is the other way around.

Do check out the descriptions and screenshots here: https://www.mybodygraph.com/shop/product/transit-tool before buying, to see if it tickles you funny, or perhaps not.

A big thanks to Pontus Erik Karlsson (5/1 Reflector) from https://www.thekeytoyourself.com for being paramount in the idea, development and implementation of this online resource.
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MoonBlog 35.1 Humility

Choice is the expression of a speculation

Either you have choice, and then always have (a) choice and thus makes you a God, cause you can then manipulate it all and everything.

Or you have none whatsoever. (Who once said, try holding your pee in for xx hours?)

There are quite a few things in my life, that sometimes people comment on, positive or negative, but I know, I could not, not do them.

Helpless and incompetent indeed.

Including studying HD the way I have. And now I can’t anymore. I’m done, at least for now, and there is plenty to study more, but I’m good.
Plenty of non HD books to read also; nope, no more, I’m done searching, no more life questions, no more seeking any answers.

Being a passenger requires no doing, and thus it requires no consideration of a concept like choice, or no choice. This too then simply becomes irrelevant.

The question itself, to understand, know, grok, find out the truth about it, is just another distraction by mind to see if there is still just one other thing to control, like really pretty please, how about this one then, no? This one then, ow…

Which if you can not not do that, great

“All the knowledge burns down in the face of Strategy & Authority” -Dirk Nellens (4/6 Reflector)

All knowing becomes irrelevant. All information gets their proper value; which is none. Only mind valuates and files/stores info into categories.

When you no longer need information to make decisions, or even opinions on/about, when mind is no longer the go-to (re)solver of issues caused and considered by the very same mind.

Something is either correct for you, or not correct for you. The Magnetic Monopole already knows, (re)cognizes it, if the frequency is stabilized between Design Crystal and it. Our identified Personalities Mind is the ignorant one. And we may become aware of this correctness too, or ‘we’ may not. More irrelevance.

I see this Trajectory as Tarzan swinging from liana to liana, as the Program provides situations, energies, swinging, dancing, fluid, agile, and hop and hop. Through all the supposed ‘choices’ of life, through the maze, this one, that one, this one is for me, that one is correct, on and on and on.

And some of us crash into trees, sometimes, a lot, all the time, hard.

Does this answer whether we have a choice, to stabilize this frequency? No it does not.
But who/what is demanding it should do so in the first place, aggressively?

But also: Human Design Unleashed – The Choice
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MoonBlog 61.5 Influence

So I noticed quite a few of the questions and experiences of some Reflectors here (Human Design Reflectors FaceBook group), stem from feeling/perceiving to be off kilter, unhinged even, unbalanced mostly.

I’d like to give my view on how and why that is, and yes there is a how to this 😉

So, when we, as Reflectors, follow our Strategy & Authority, meaning when we -apply- it, when we use it for our decision making, the results are something else. When I first met Human Design 11 years ago (last Monday), I simply could never have imagined such a way of going about things. I’m someone who needs to be told, and then I can play with it, and can dive quite deep in experimenting. But before I’m told/explained, I have no clue and wonder around like an idiot, lost, deeply lost.

I met Human Design roughly 18 months before I ever saw my chart, and so it did not make sense, I could not ‘use’ it, I didn’t even know there were charts, so it was just another blabla story to me. And this guy with the funny hat did not appeal either. But when I was given my chart, at age 38, now I had some kind of framework to jump off from, explore with, I kinda had a baseline.

So, apply, apply, apply, rinse and repeat. Making a stink of it, doing really bad, not following it, telling myself all kinds of stories about what HD was and wasn’t and of course my overgrown identifications with what/who I thought I was and had become and my abilities.

But that was just the first part of it, and something I realized again last night as I contemplated some of this groups topics and comments.

But first, another part of becoming more self, and truly whatever this self is, whether it is a this kind or that kind, more like this or more like so, becoming and being you depends on understanding and having experimented, experienced your individual Lunar Cycle and thus how you sample life, differently. Which can be a bit of a leap to get into, but after a while it is like a fish swimming in water, since it is all about the observation. Not the interpretation, not even the (limits of our) perception, it’s observation, and we get better and better at it once we start, go there, get experienced with it. And we already are quite perceptive as Reflectors, so, focusing on that, really helps to get a better sense of this illusive, non consistent self.

And through it, again, more relaxation, in ourselves, and in life. And maybe even feeling empowered (a word I hardly ever use). Not in control mind you.

But, and this is, to me at least, a mix of mechanics and its results of using them correctly, the frequency between the Design Crystal in us, and our Magnetic Monopole is unstable, most of the time. And this is where PHS and Environment come in. Because through the application of correct Digestion, and physically being in the right frequency of my correct Environment, we stabilize that frequency.

We can not stabilize the frequency between the Personality Crystal and the Magnetic Monopole and so we’ll always see-saw between our Motivation and our Transference, between our View and our Distraction, but we can stabilize the frequency of the Design, of the body. And through that stable frequency, the Magnetic Monopole can then hook us up to our correct Trajectory through life.

In about a week, I’m at the mid point of my Kiron Return, coming off the Roof as a 4/6, and so stuff is noticeably changing, except what the change itself is, but I do notice a change of frequency field, for me, to me, with me. I slowly begin to perceive to be called, called out, outside, to the floor, off the roof, and so yesterday I had a lovely chat with someone about many things Human Design and when I came home it dawned on me, I needed to apply my PHS, it is my baseline, it is my go to. Not for the atoms of the food that I eat, not for the actual taste or aroma of those atoms that I digest. But for stabilizing that frequency !! It was after my lovely dinner (which is quite fixed to what I can and can not eat) but also my late night snack, which also is repetitive, according to my PHS, it came to me:

My stability in this life as I perceive and you can too, is because of the stability of that frequency between my Design Crystal and my Magnetic Monopole. And it’s like a game of dominoes. If one is off, all could be off. I become unbalanced, unhinged even, insecure, a mess, emotionally, mentally, spiritually, physically.

To realize how subtle yet profound the implications are, and how relatively easy it is to simply go there, and do, apply.

And this is without any Transits consideration even. Those can really add to my experience, for good or bad. And so my perception of life becomes distorted when I don’t, my ‘vulnerability’ for lack of a better word, to life becomes greater when I don’t Digest correctly, when I’m in the wrong Environment, in the wrong frequencies, digesting the wrong people, the wrong words, food, energies.

So I felt like sharing that with this group, because it is simple yet profound. Live your Design, step by step, slowly slowly. Becoming stable in our openness.

Add-on: One of the things I did yesterday, was I went quite the length to get one of my fav foods. Even though I was a bit tired and I had to go to the other side of the city center (I live on the North East side of it) and then 1 other neighborhood, which is quite the journey with all the one way streets and traffic lights and rush hour too. But in that doing, it became more than simple atomic sustenance for the body, it became spirit food.

MoonBlog 61.5
Gate 61 Mystery, inner truth. The awareness of universal underlying principles
Gate 61 Line 5 Influence
Exalted: The enlightened Father figure whose recognized wisdom and powerful assertion can mold a generation by its influence. The pressure to know that may result in influence and wisdom.
Detriment: A tendency in power to want to enforce compliance to ensure lasting influence. The pressure in knowing to resent challenges and demand acceptance.
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MoonBlog 49.1 the law of necessity

Birgitte,

in order to consider your request of removing all content regarding you, I will accept the following:

-unblock me on FaceBook first, by all your FB accounts/aliases.
-post an apology for smearing me, my name and my HD work falsely, be just as elaborate as you were smearing me, make this post public. A video message is acceptable too.
-Edit that specific smearing topic on your FB wall (do not delete it) to first make the post public, then to include the apology.
-write to all people you’ve written before complaining about me, like FB group admins and so on, with this public apology.
-Show me proof of all these.

The same applies for all others involved in that topic.

Then, I will take a full Lunar Cycle to consider your request.

Soap sequence here: http://www.mcha.nl/tag/soap/
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MoonBlog 2.5 Intelligent application

The Reflector Lunar Cycle is not a ritual to obey and follow, that when you don’t, someting bad happens.

It is not about ticking off all the boxes of pre-requisites, and then live happily ever after either.

It’s about becoming such a calm silent observer, for the incredible subtleties of what is already going on, outside (transits, people) and inside (perceptions, experiences) self and not-self, that you can live in awareness of where life takes you, what your Trajectory is, and to relax into how choice-less we all are.

To surrender to that, and see, observe and witness, what that is like.

While dancing the jitterbug, riding your bicycle, making out, cooking dinner or anything else.

MoonBlog 2.5
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MoonBlog 23.3 Individuality

On the purity of Human Design or mixing it with other frameworks/modalities:

It has nothing to do with following one persons words (Ra Uru Hu) by the letter, or even the Human Design framework ‘to a fault’.

It is about seeing that “all knowledge burns down in the face of Strategy & Authority” and having seen that, experienced it.

By tinkering with it, to add or subtract, we’re tinkering with knowledge alone.

For instance I’ve been in several GeneKeys DeepDives, was live in London with Richard and others just before the book got out, did GK Host and Guide training, was asked to become a GK Guide, and had a great time exploring my emotional world through it. It was incredibly valuable to me and everyone else I know or came in contact with.

But as I also deepened my experience with HD I came to see, that not HD, not Ra, not GK, not any of it, not PHS, not this economic framework or that political philosophy, not Advaita Vedanta was key, but S&A was, my S&A for me, by me.

It truly holds everything, to make those decisions by yourself, which is often times not even decision -making- but realization of what is correct. The dawning awareness of that reality.

And that there is nothing wrong with someone telling me this.

The funny thing is, people claim and clamor that they are free to mix it (which they are), how open and progressive that is, but as soon as someone is telling them (why) not to mix it, all the openness and progressiveness is out the window and they become fundamentalist mixers all of a sudden, just like what they accuse others of doing ! 🙂

While more and more HD people shake their heads and become more and more silent in FB HD groups because of the enormous influx of people indeed wanting to mix, or as they fear the no choice dilemma, to at least have the option as they then cling to it and defend it ferociously, but not creating their own mix groups, but instead just take over the conversations, loud, arrogant, obnoxious, as they promote their mix, and then another mix, and yet another other with another mix.

Mixing it, is not experimenting with it. Hiding behind others and become false group thugs is not you living it.

Writing their own books, giving more, giving less, changing this, changing that, while standing on the basics of HD, while trampling it all the same. Ignoring the pearls from within it as changing one word or syllable has more importance, than -living- it or learning to, as their ego’s are boasted by the people that buy stuff from them, thinking both parties are on the right track, of manipulating life, of creating shortcuts to salvation and the end of their suffering.

That is not duality at all, “ignoring the yin (dark), only seeking yang (light), living only half of a dualistic life, for moral superiority”

I’ve had access to tons and tons and tons of HD and mixed or altered information, and to see, not just for me, but for so many others too, that even pure HD info is not the key, the information is just a drug (gateway drug?) is just for the mind to think it can outsmart life, pretend to change the mind with more/better information. And Ra was the pusher of it, by popular demand.

And then mind make all these and those connections, and thus indeed combine structures, insights, frameworks.

Until *plop* hey, wait a minute, more info is not supporting actually, it is aggravating, it is steering me in an ever more mental direction of thinking to know, to -understand- but it is a lie.

I don’t need more -information- to make my decisions, I need to find out what my decision -IS-, first, without my powerful mind, and listen to that body consciousness, and follow its directions.

I don’t need to know what Color 3 -means-, I need to -live- it.
To apply it, use it, and see how it responds, reacts, struggles, and observe that, notice it behaving. I don’t need to know what Gate the Moon is in right now to live it. Yes it is awesome to understand what energies are present right now, how I sample life differently, right now. But -knowing- what Gate it is in, does not change how I -experience- life, right now.
-edit- it actually does change the experience, but not for good, cause it steers the focus, it limits the openness of observation, because of pre-conceiving the experience, of setting the mind up for how the experience should/might/could look like in the first place.

And yes information of the framework of the how and why or when is interesting, but by just living it, it really does not matter if Reflectors are called Observers or Evaluators, and anyone (!) -selling- you that it does matter, has an agenda not to free you as a passenger, but is a prisoner of their own opinions on things, and help you become one too. And as we find our mental equals, we can salute each other and tap each other on the back for how fucking smart we are for knowing better than silly old Ra, but never outsmarting our own damn minds…

“Look at me, I’m pointing at the moon”, they say, look I changed HD and mixed it with this and that, want to hear my recipe, my version of how my mind made it -seem- better, so you can seem to feel better about it too. In your head?

No matter if you are called Richard Rudd, Karen Curry/Parker, Steve Rhodes or Juliane Hahn.
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MoonBlog 39.4 Temperance

The last part on the Reflector is nonsensical homogenization, and fantasy wishful thinking writing based on a theoretic understanding of Reflectors.

“Having clear boundaries and conscious awareness of what’s really going on during the game will help him not be overwhelmed by others or feel disappointed in the way the game is going but rather feel a sense of surprise and wonder at the excitement and flow of it all.”

Those pre-requisites of ‘having clear boundaries and conscious awareness’ are unattainable for any/all Reflectors and can not be used as a tool to counter such influences, this is just pretending to have any such control over the influence of the experience, first, and for all Reflectors, second. 7 centered Make-ability syndrome all over again.

Also as if being overwhelmed is something to avoid, first, and or bad, second, but most of all as if one actually can avoid any of the experience in such a way. But then also, as if ‘feeling a sense of’ [anything] is the goal! And then particularly or specifically “surprise and wonder at the excitement and flow of it all” as if Reflectors are toddlers or something, what the actual…?

Reflectors/Evaluators (still waiting for any proof that Ra himself ever called Reflectors Evaluators) do sample, do experience, but this way of writings suggests one only is one if one feels this sense of surprise and even wonder, first, but for the flow of it all? There is no room for things not flowing (say an accident happens with a player breaking a leg infield and needs medical attention, or a fight among players from opposing teams, or opposing fans), no room for unexcitement, which happens much MUCH more often than not and is just as valid an experience, especially when IT IS the actual experience of this, or that Reflector.

But also, as if 3 Reflectors, or 300 would experience all the same in the same situation, first, and only if they have clear boundaries and conscious awareness (can we measure this, is that in kilograms, or other units?) second.

Ah man… this is truly fantasy blabla-land.
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MoonBlog 12.3 Confession

Question: “How do reflectors approach each other if we are supposed to be initiated?”
One answer: “Where do such distortions come from? What does it mean to be initiated?”

Why call it a distortion when you’re not sure yet what it is?
Doubt versus inquiry.

Anyways. This is a nice example of being initiated but needing to process, and I wrote about it 6 years ago here:
http://www.mcha.nl/2012/10/29/initiate-me/

But I’ll add: to me, it is the perception of kick-starting my processing. Just like both your question/answer has. I felt, perceived, noticed I was initiated to answer this one, so I started processing it to answer, and in the mean time saw this question a few times during, but still nothing came to me to answer, while still perceiving, noticing to be initiated by it.

So someone comes along and does something, it could be towards you (a hug, a shout, a question, a smile) and you notice a shift by it, through it. It could also be a TV-ad, a picture you see online.

Nothing magical, nothing really special or something, just this perception, that yes, this is for me -to process- to maybe/perhaps engage with. When or how, is something else, but to notice this, first, is important. To perceive to be, initiated. No distortion here.

And sometimes, someone comes, asks, tells, does whatever, and I clearly notice -not- to be initiated. That it is not for me to process, which is a lot of the time. Much more than when I actually am (or perceive to be) initiated. No distortion here either.

So also, it is clear it is not the other persons doing, that they purposefully initiate me, with their agenda. Sure they could, and many do. But it is about me feeling that this, yes, has initiated me to process.

And then I do.

And then I wait, until the processing has finished and I know, yes, or no. Now I can do this, or interact with this someone on their question/journey, whatever it was they asked of me. Or no, I can not.

So when something is for me and me alone, no one else needs to initiate me. Like eating, or playing guitar.

When someone else is involved I need to be initiated, going out to dinner, or play in a band. This could be done by another person, but not necessarily. You can find out for yourself how it works for yourself, each Reflector for themselves.

There is talk that between people of the same Type, there is no Strategy; so Manifestors don’t need to inform each others, Generators not wait to respond, but I’m not sure if that is true. And I have seen examples of this not always working, so…

To answer the initial question: “How do reflectors approach each other if we are supposed to be initiated?” is, you experiment. Try it out by initiating yourself. Or, notice if you are already initiated by something to contact this Reflector. And if you notice, no, this feels off, I do not perceive to be initiated, even though my mind keeps annoying me with the subject, then see that, notice that, and move on. Sometimes we already are long time initiated and processing/operating accordingly without us being consciously aware, and sometimes we are not initiated but our minds heckle and harass us about it as if we should be.

What I learned through my journey in Human Design, is that before HD I thought life was really rough, and tough, and clear and black and white, that the way people interacted was always clear-cut and ‘manifested’ (for lack of a better word). This is this, and that is that. And I came to find it is incredibly subtle really, and nuanced, very delicate at times. And I was completely blind and unaware that these fine and even minute principles did run me, triggered me, initiated me already, loooong before I or my mind noticed any of it. HD helped me see these finer details of when, why and how I am triggered by external things, that kick-start my processing.

And that having this incredibly rough perception made me incredibly blind. To me being me, myself.
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MoonBlog 10.4 The opportunist

Weirdos in the mail:

and this took 20 minutes…

Weirdo: how would you describe gate 26?

Me: describing I wouldn’t so much,a s know it, what it is capable of
but yeah BIG EGO is one

Weirdo: whhy is it called egoist
what are people projecting on me if i have 26.5

Me: you do have it !

Weirdo: hahaha
unconciouss

Me: which is all they see

Weirdo: what do you mean?

Me: you think only about your Personality traits, while everyone only sees your Design traits
lots of mindy questions there bud

Weirdo: yeah why not mindy questions?
its interestimg

Me: book a session?

Weirdo: nah 😀
but people do see you personality and design right

Me: then my big ego says: bye 🙂
no
only you see P
only they see D

Weirdo: oh ok
but even my 22.2 conciouss sideshould be projected on , are you sure what you are talking about ?

Me: dude, go fuck yourself
are you drunk?

Weirdo: well whats your problem ? im just asking ? haha, im curious
not my fault if you have a bad day

Me: no you’re questioning me, while asking me, while not paying me, wasting my time
ah good, yeah all my fault
the end, you’re behaving like an asshole
(nice example of 26 response for you) *unfriend+block messaging*
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MoonBlog 30.5 Irony

Since we were born, as we take the world in, we seek to position ourselves in that world. So our minds run a little software program with our likes and dislikes, which helps us navigate the world. To recognize things or to deal with the unknown.

And when it meets something unknown, it just makes a mess, or perhaps just helps you to keep your cool, lucky shot at best. So we helped program it, our ego/mind has, what happens when we see a 1943 Alco, S2 locomotive come by and we cheer. Or when someone gifts us, or we ourselves find that limited edition of this or that.

But also when something frightens us and we want to run and hide. Or what ever our response is, it is the programmed software doing its thing, and we run the same paths, the same behavior over and over and over again. The same is true if you are offended by something, you -choose- to be offended, or… not be offended. Just the programmed software doing its thing.

So yeah, you can change that software behaviour, its responses how, what and when, it’s what most therapy and even meditation is all about, but also tapping and even prayer.

But we get stuck because no one tells it is software that can be changed. Because we so self identify with ‘our’ own little program, we think -we- need to change. First that we are wrong and then we need changing, this is incredibly difficult for the identified not-self to overcome.

When in fact that software is not you at all, it is just in you and you helped shape it, but it is not you. To be able to step back and see that…

But how about simply taking the software out…? To stop running that program all together? And find out what actually makes you happy, and drop the identification with that which makes you happy, and no longer carry it as luggage with you everywhere? That wherever you are, and you do see another 1943 Alco, S2 locomotive come by it is indeed just another unattached event, but so is being afraid of something just another event, that needs no action from your software…

Maybe/perhaps?
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MoonBlog 61.4 Research

the mind is finally convinced
yet the body does not move
so nothing changes

the mind wonders and sees
the body rests, or eats, breathes

trying to trick the body into movement
the body is not bored
the body is not bothered

not with politics
or hierarchies
until it is correct

to move
to budge
to strike
to kill
to pay
to love
to fuck
to marry
to sink or swim
to go to class
to travel
to do

until then/when
nothing changes
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a not so Human Design soap

so (carefull, mansplaining here!) the title of the book ‘How to fuck a woman’s brains out’ to me means, to be so devoted to loving your partner -mind, body and soul- that she has no more desires left. That you have cared and catered for her so much, that she says: “thank you, I’m fine.”

Which is what I indeed try to do. And it is a big task, because I’m just a man, and to go that far is not easy. But the journey there is freaking awesome, and incredibly entertaining. No misogyny anywhere.

And one could go all bananas with my open centers and say: “see there, is not-self of him, in this center, that gate, ooh look at the color here.” Great.
Let’s begin with the close read and break-down of the comments on this feuilleton, after these screencaps:

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MoonBlog 9.3 focus

Something interesting happened,

a few years ago, I noticed my own behaviour on FaceBook was not on par with me being me. I was too pushy, and sometimes even wrong.

So on December 17 2014 I left FB and started my own website, and a blog, where I could still post and share what I see. Some things I like, but some just what I notice.
And to have an outlet for my own writings too, without anyone commenting on them. And since then it has filled with roughly 2400 posts, links, pictures, funnies, videos and whatnot.

Some of my writings are horrible, and some are divine. Some of my writings clearly show my issues, some look like I have no issues what so ever.
However, they are a nice archive of what I see, of what I notice, of what I deem interesting, or funny, or hilarious enough to blog about, to post, to share, to copy paste.

After a year I came back to FB, and since have changed my tone, not because I seek to make money with it, but simply cause some people actually grow, or mutate, change.

And some people like some of the more divine writings and share them in other places, like Facebook. Like this post:
http://www.mcha.nl/2014/03/14/the-human-design-system/ which was recently shared about 8 times on FB, which seemed to make some people upset…

Yesterday Birgitte West takes this post on my blog: http://www.mcha.nl/2016/10/23/relationship-therapy/ as if I am offering this as ‘HDS Relationship counseling’.

Which is hilarious, but false.

It is posted on my own personal blog and this happens to be a book I enjoyed. I did not write it, but for me, and my relationship with both myself and any intimate partner since, it was wonderful to be able to see an angle I had not see before.
It is a book where intimate honesty is of the highest standard. Of course the writers (a man and a woman!) made a shocking title, which serves a purpose, which I find funny.

But now she is claiming to finally ‘pulling the trigger on me’ as if having this or that sexual preference, or even a mild interest, has anything to do with what kind of sessions one provides. Or that I promote BDSM in any of my services. The title of the blogpost itself ‘Relationship Therapy’ is my own, indeed, which is tongue in cheek, but yeah, there is no defense against stupidity… She writes:

“stay away from this one — sick of seeing this character being hailed as worth following as a so called HDS authority
#notkeepingquiet #malechauvinistcrap #nowyouknow #thisisnothds #sjefiscrap”

And all this behind my back, since Birgitte blocks me for ages on FB, although her other account Tre Cinque keeps a close watch, and she scans my blog for dirt. To each their own hobby.

But also, what a huge disappointment for any future partners, if they themselves are into heavy BDSM, cause disclaimer: I’m not. So much.

Enjoy 🙂
Ow and read part 2 here: A not so Human Design soap

Soap sequence here: http://www.mcha.nl/tag/soap/
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MoonBlog 45.6 & 12.1 (exalted)

So this is maybe a kind of a ‘heads up’. As a Reflector being called the canary in the coal mine, this may be relevant. But then again, it might be just me, personally…

So about a year ago, some of the foods I eat started to make me sick, as in stomach hurt and nausea, wanting to vomit, but mostly, diarrhea. I would feel a nut in my stomach that needed to pass through me, and out, and only then would the nausea stop too, and I no longer felt sick.

Now my PHS is Color 2 Tone 1, Open Taste as Determination, Cognition Smell. So I eat a lot of the same foods, a fixed menu that rotates around, and most times similar combinations of foods, of flavours and tastes. And then very rarely but still usually one meal would be replaced by another.

But about a year ago I also started experimenting with making more my own foods, so buying the individual spices and combine them to get the same meals, instead of these prepackaged flavours from the shop. So especially with the curry noodles I made, not good. That whole meal has now left the Menu. But no replacement…

Or, not yet, usually something new comes along and I only notice in hindsight it had replaced another meal, now, one fell away, nothing new came along. Puzzling.

But not just the curry spices themselves are off now, the egg noodles are too, the veggies I used with it, can’t eat it anymore either. So all separate parts of the one meal I can not combine even in other dishes… Something to notice.
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MoonBlog 63.4 Memory

On Lunar Cycle Processing for Reflectors:

I found, that if I entered into something incorrectly (smoking cigarettes, picking up someone in bar me (and/or her) utterly wasted), I do not need a month (processing) to get out of it.
Although, I may have been processing it unconsciously, but so far that is what I think now.

If I entered into something correctly but is something bad, then I do need a month processing.
Also, many ‘bad’ things were correct for me, to experience. Not because of their outcome or what I learned because of them, not any so called logical reason or meaning, but simply correct to experience as an experience, full stop.

I can only start processing something by myself if it is only for me, or about me. To buy a new jacket, or to play guitar, or not.

For all things where other people are invloved I need external initiating to process it to begin with. Otherwise if I start processing this or that job, or relationship without external initiation, I will never finish processing cause then it is all mind.

I can not initiate myself, cause that is mind.

And then if properly initiated, after processing a month and it is not clear, or not a hell yes, then I process another month, and if need be another other month, and so on.
Until it is ‘clear’ until I noticed my body moved here, or there, engaged, or disengaged.

So an important question to me in or before processing is: how did I get (t)here? Did I get into it by my own mind, or by my correctness in the first place? Before I tackle: has it run its course (yet)?

an older quote by Leela Swann-Herbert:
Reflectors with their sampling aura can close or open themselves to the other…they cannot keep out the transits. Reflectors only need to be initiated to decisions (and interactions) that involve the other – activities, projects, places, relationships…No type needs to be asked, invited or initiated to decisions that only involve themselves – all the types except Manifestors need to have life bring them activities, projects, places, relationships that involve others…from outside of their aura – Generators/asked; Projectors/invited; Reflectors/initiated…

Anything dealing with anyone else but me, we Reflectors all need to be initiated. So all those situations you can now possibly think of or remember, are those exact situations where this is true. All of them, all the time.

If not initiated then it is (a) mind(fuck).

For me as a 4/6 profile there is an added nuance (not a complication though) that the initiations (or ‘solutions’) come from my network of friends, so for houses, partners, jobs.

Buying motorbikes or Guitars or iPads seem a little different, especially when bought online, for me.

But my recent moped buy was offered to me by a long time friend, from a work colleague of his.
I was processing owning one for quite a few years already (and nothing happened!), but not until my partner mentioned getting one each (ping initiation happening) I shared with my friend I was looking for one, and he told me a few days later he knew one.

An invitation could perfectly well be an initiation. To me it is the perception of a trigger indeed, of my Lunar Processing starting.

Usually someone asks me something for them, about them, like “wanna do this for me, or with me?” kind of questions.

To me, it is about -the perception- of being invited or initiated. If you perceive to be, then you probably are…

…else mind…

I’m an HD Guide & Teacher, but I don’t or rarely advertise any services, until someone asks -and- it is correct for me (too). Then I can shift into gear of what I have to offer, to them. And if that is a course for instance someone initiated me into, then I can advertise it somewhere else too (as have seen in the past)

But I can not just say: you know what, I’m gonna organize one this May.

In the mean time I simply continue to study, or even work on presentations, for myself, by myself. Some may never be ‘called for’, or not in this life time. I still had fun creating them being with them in my own processing, in my own honing of my information presentation.

In some situations (publishing a book), if the conversation goes there, and you both perceive to be ‘triggered’ then hey maybe something happens with it. Or someone overhears and steals it, or beats you to it publishing it. Who knows…? 😉

Or maybe the conversation was great, wonderful ideas exchanged, but you notice it has no life, no juice. No one is triggered, nothing ‘happens’.

And not also buy that quad-bike cause everyone has one and you do want to go quadding. Check, first.

Taken from an online discussion in the Human Design Reflector group on Facebook

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MoonBlog 42.1 Diversification

“(He told me) Variable has to be down to the second to be accurate and pretty much no one knows that, so variable isn’t really reliable or accurate.”

Well let’s do the math, shall we? (Variables are derived from the Color and Tone of the Design and Personality of both Sun/Earth and the Nodes)

Sun in
Gate/Line 41.1 02:18 (Januari 22nd 2018)
Gate/Line 41.2 00.25 (Januari 23rd 2018)

Distance/duration: 22 hours, 7 minutes and 0 seconds

1 Line: 22×60 + 7 = 1327 minutes or 79,620 seconds
Each Line has 6 Colors: 1327/6 = 221.17 minutes per Color or 13270 seconds
Each Color has 6 Tones: 221.17/6 = 36.86 minutes per Tone or 2211.67 seconds

Each Tone has 5 Bases: 36.86/5 = 7.37 minutes per Base or 442.33 seconds

Left or Right Variable is 3 Tones long = 110.58 minutes per Leftness/Rightness

Sun/Earth take 1 year to Transit the whole wheel of 64 Gates
Nodes take 18.6 years to Transit the whole wheel of 64 Gates
So per Tone 36.81*18.6 = 685.62 minutes per Tone

Left or Right Variable is 3 Tones long = 2056.85 minutes per Leftness/Rightness

So Birth time needs to be 36 minutes accurate or 2211.67 seconds, not ‘to the second’.
And besides there is always reverse engineering and Ayervedic Birth Time rectification if need be.

For a giggle, here is the Moon in
Gate 25 03:08 (Januari 22nd 2018) GMT
Gate 17 13.45 (Januari 22nd 2018) GMT

Distance/duration: 10 hours, 37 minutes or 637 minutes or 38,220 seconds

1 Gate has 6 Lines: 637/6 = 106.17 minutes per Line or 6370 seconds
Each Line has 6 Colors: 106.17/6 = 17.69 minutes per Color or 1061.67 seconds
Each Color has 6 Tones: 17.69/6 = 2.95 minutes per Tone or 176.94 seconds

Each Tone has 5 Bases: 2.95/5 = 0.59 minutes per Base or 35.39 seconds

MoonBlog 42.1

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MoonBlog 45.2 Consensus

So, another Human Design Teacher described FaceBook as a whole, and HD groups in particular as the not-self world to me the other day. This got me to contemplate my role (t)here, again.

Because I realize these groups are devoid of true HD information, of what it is, and means, to live your design, properly. And yes even if your daily life looks different than mine, or yours, and yours too, the construct of it does not change, Strategy and Authority is not different in the framework of it. How openness works is not different. So I do my best to reply whenever I see or think something is off, when it is either diluting HD or if it is the complete opposite of what HD is, and yes, to me, this includes any kind of ritual, or using anything external for temporary relief, and any and all homogenization.

The comments I get in private and some of the likes from people who are experimenting for a while with HD is helpful. The comments from those that (usually) have not, is incredible. Hurtful even as they gang up, and pound and pound about the tone, about the ‘spirit’ of it, about who I supposedly am as a person, how offended they themselves are by my words about the content they have posted, about -what- they have said. Calling names, shouting and cursing in private messages, giving all kinds of moral pressures of their own frustration and anger, of which I am indeed the trigger but not the cause.

It is not my fault you never learned to communicate, never had any one say: “No, what you just said is untrue in my world and here is why”. And then is unable to deal with that and just gets into a fit and rage. And get all personal about you instead. And then 3 or 5 or 7 others join in with the same bullshit, convinced as they are, feeling empowered by the same stupidity, by the same beliefs.

And not once considering how this holding on to these old beliefs is the reason for their own suffering, for their own anger, for their failed outlook on life. This new age belief of make-ability of needing to be love, of needing to meet love only, for life to succeed, to feel better. And here are tools to feel better. not -be- better, no, -feel- it, perceive it, live in the illusion of feeling better. When year after year even being in groups as these, the suffering continues, and oozes out in the reactions, to people like me. To and about Human Design.
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MoonBlog 9.6 gratitude & 5.1 perseverance

For many Moons now, I was looking to upgrade my guitar, having had 16 guitars (and one Bass guitar) in my life so far I was looking for something different.

I knew I wanted a certain shape that felt good to my own body holding it, but should also be of high quality and perhaps a looker too.

And this time, no matter the price… kinda…

Easily said, not so easy to find, and I have had my fair share of shitty guitars, mostly because of budget issues, and also because it takes a while for me to find out if I do like something, or if it simply does not work out. So after a few moons processing I end up buying a guitar, and then a few moons later it needs to go again.

Reading my MoonBlogs one can see I have an affection for PRS (Paul Reed Smith) guitars, most say because he makes guitars that sit somewhere in between Fender (Stratocaster) and Gibson (Les Paul), and while that may be true, what speaks to me, is his openness to share about his products, his own nerdiness in going all in in finding that tone through all the little components that make up a musical instrument, his factory, and so on.

Sure some of it is marketing, some of it is ego showiness, a little american sauce over it, but it’s good, I like it. I’ve learned a lot more about guitars and guitar making through investigating about their company and products, something that is much much harder to find out about with most other guitar making companies.

So I had a vague kind of wishlist of components, or elements that my next guitar should contain, where quality was probably the most important.
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MoonBlog 20.5 Realism

Another remarkable thing looking at beginners now, and my own process when I started with Human Design, is identifications.

And I mean false identifications, we (you/me) identify with things that are not true, and often we do not identify with things that are actually true.

But that is only a part of the story, far more profound, is the fact that it is the mind judging it, discerning it, either making stuff up that is false or ignoring that which is so incredibly true. It is the mind who either adheres to something or dismisses it, and we believe it, since we so identify (again) with whatever the mind comes up with. It could be total and complete mental diarrhea, but we cling to it as if our lives depend on it. And we will murder/death/kill for it…

…for a concept, for a thought, for an attachment.

As long as the mind tells us something, we tend to accept it, never investigating it for just another thought which may or may not, be true. And then we wear it, boastingly, proud owners of something that might be completely fabricated and ‘wrong’.

And underneath something else happens too, we consider ourselves the good guys, always and foremost, and most other people as the bad guys. And thus we can never be told or proven wrong, it is inconceivable, since we are the only true good guys, the saviours, the ones opposing the system, the man, even if we do have a little money, or some form of power in our jobs, it is us versus them. And them is, when it comes down to it, almost –everybody- else.

Never me. Especially not me.
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MoonBlog 53.1 Accumulation

About https://www.sympatika.com/ “Your Perfect Match With Human Design

Are you seeking to date a person or a map?

This has been tried and tried, and each time the mind falls for it, and fills up with the eager seeking and then always bleed out…
Using Human Design for dating is the best example of our minds desire to control life and live in the illusion of make-ability/ manufacturability syndrome (maakbaarheids syndroom)

You see this also in the HD sex group, mindfucking charts

You meet someone, in whatever way and you apply S&A each, regardless of what the chart says, or does not say. Correctness going in and out of relationships is the key, not if the paper says ‘have some fun’ and then follow this as your authority and giving up your own.

If you ever had one…

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