Lobotomy
So, final blog about Ibiza 2009 for now
I’m a little early on-site, so I want to get something to eat, and end up in a noisy beach bar eating something like a triple sandwich and drinking a Fanta thinking about how good or bad this would be for my PHS (‘taste’ is all I know for now) I definitely do not like the noise coming from the speakers, even besides the music genre, so head back over to the event quickly.
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Entering the cave
– Ibiza 2009, Thursday 9, almost out of here but still have 2 events coming up.
First one, my signpost session with Dharmen. I looked at some of the transits before making the appointment, and at this session the moon is in gate 57, opposing my gate 20 and so ‘penetrating awareness’ which I thought was rather sneaky of me, even though I do not feel all those transits, or am aware of them. Just something to play with, in the mind.
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Batteries not included
– So another day in paradise Ibiza 2009, no lectures for me on Tuesday, and found out some projectors took -all- lectures, which amazes me.
I know projectors get a discount because they ‘should’ know it all (what about reflectors then…?), and have more difficulty knowing it all (especially if they’re not interested :), but -all- 4 lectures per day for 9 days straight? How can you ever start to grasp that then…?
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On the roof
-So here we all are, Ibiza 2009
Yesterday I also went up the hill to this nice church, but guess what, on a Sunday, they have services in this catholic country, so it was pretty crowed up there. It was a nice walk for this waking mental body, up the stairs on one side and down the other. What a nice view up there, and nice and warm without shade, a great time for some reflection.
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Career reflector, or a reflectors’ career?
– So here I am (hmm favorite intro line?), in Ibiza for the 2009 event.
It’s Sunday the 5th, I’m a little early to meet up with different people inside and outside of the Hotel and at 5PM I go to the BG5 lecture. Since I’m not only interested in what makes people tick, but also in the relations between people in different circumstances (work, love, etc), I did not want to miss this one.
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How was your variable today?
-So here I am, 3 days early before the 2009 Ibiza event (flight was much cheaper), raining outside, in an apartment with 26 Spanish TV channels, no internet, and forgotten how to speak the language (mainly because my French improved so much since I was last in Spain, ehrm 17 years ago?), alone/lonely, damn… w t f did I do… Well since I’m here better make the best of it, so dragged myself outside for groceries, site seeing, internet cafe, etcetera
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Stupid body …
-So, here I am, after days of browsing, looking/listening, finally registered (red: on the humandesignglobal ning forum) and found many more people here than anticipated. So now even more access to all these peoples journeys, very good. Great initiative and very wanted/needed (oeps there goes my transference), tnx to Eden and I believe Alissa.
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Intermission/rant
(published nowhere but here)
-Well here is something to reflect on:
There is no us (or them), there is no tribal feeling, there is no welcoming you to Ibiza (very very very few exceptions) they’re mostly egotistical, ego central fuck heads, (and some mind-fuckers to boot) but it’s not their fault, it is in the teaching, be yourself, be this be that as long as it is yourself, live your type and strategy, if that is a giant douche bag fuck-up well, live it ! Enjoy your movie !
There is hardly any help for a newbie, everybody is in/on his/her own power trip, encouraged !
Yes there are genuine friendly people, yes nobody has to help another or not that very instant. But it seems the help/service that is offered is only to accommodate more revenue, only material gadgetry so more people can join in to listen to the same story over and over again.
Sitting there, watching, observing, sensing, all I could think of was, this ‘group’ needs a beach party, a social gathering, something to take their mind (!) of from themselves that navel staring inner voyage, and some of them definitely need to get laid…. Don’t change one vision/conditioning for only one other, don’t live out a self fulfilling prophecy
Yes there is great truth in your body, yes it has been neglected, you should look at it and listen to it, but don’t let it take over your life, you do have control, you don’t -have- to become (just/only) an asshole since that too is just a tiny part of you, as all of these gates, channels, centers, etc are (only) facets of your crystal(s) which has so many faces it is incomprehensible. And even those are not locked, and always and forever valid, you do have a choice not to be an egotistical moron.
And you’re a gullible stupid bunch too (but hey I don’t blame you if you can’t/may not use your mind for inner authority) too pay someone to tell you over and over again to live your strategy and authority, whatever the subject is (!). And yes there is a lot of truth in that (as far as this newbie can tell), but how many times do you have someone have to tell you that? And for how much money again, and again, and again?
How many do actually love themselves, even if they are not whole/complete, this or that, not finished on your journey (you never will be, hopefully), have not followed this course or that lecture. How many do love their shortcomings, their pitfalls, their stupidities, and the fact that you are in fact only human…and maybe are not all that capable to live this strategy and authority of yours, let alone be an analyst…
So how many can greet the other with open arms/mind, with-out an agenda (your agenda).
So is my rambling on about being nice? No, but you -can- be, you don’t have to -not be- nice. It’s just stupid.
And don’t forget to stop and -think- every now and then.
I block you very much…