The Not-Self

Moonblog 49.6 attraction

reflector sampling, or… not-self? 😉

I once bought a Digital Multi Meter. Hadn’t had one in a while and building guitar pedals, working on motorbikes and what not, they come in handy. So I buy a new one from a so-so brand for about 40 bucks I think. Conrad’s own Voltcraft VC175.

At one point it stops working, all I get are four dashes – – – – and not 0.035volts for instance.

So I try to find another one to replace it, second hand this time, and preferably a brand. I find one that looks a bit crummy but is super easy to use and has all the functions that I think I need and it’s a Fluke, 113 model. Stil twice the price of the other one new, but hey, its a Fluke.

Once home I clean the outside up a little with water and soap and use it, and it’s great. Until I need to do some tests and I get weird results. I even end up sending the pcb elsewhere for testing and finding out what is wrong. Turns out, all the tests run fine, my meter is off ! So seemingly fully functioning, but wrong values.

So I decide to scour the interwebs for advice for another one. Cause I’m not that enthusiastic about getting a ‘better’ 200 bucks Fluke this time, even if I love my gadgets and I like well known stuff, but let’s see what the experts have to say. There I find there are kinda 2 camps, the cheapos and the semi-professionals. The cheapos advice the Aneng AN8008 or AN8009 for about 20 bucks, new, incl shipping from China and the semi-professionals advice the Brymen BM235 which costs about 95 bucks brand new, excl shipping.

I realize one meter is no meter, you need to be able to check yours if anything is off. So I decide to buy them both, it’s only 20 bucks extra and the cheaper one is quite liked too, so why not? I see a funny GM328A meter gadget for 3 pin diodes and whatnot for 15 bucks and get that one too.

Realising also, that my electronic work and interest is growing and that maybe it is time for an oscilloscope too. Go into the deep end of measuring and the semi-professionals kinda agree on the Rigol DS1054Z as a great beginners scope, so that one is in the back of my mind/on the wannahave list. Meanwhile I also read up on calibrating Digital Multi Meters and find the ‘DMM Check Plus‘ which comes with a proper calibration report so you can always verify your meters and their measured results, or compare to each other how precise they are, mmm yum, I like that even better ! 🙂

Slowly slowly the meters arrive, and while I’m making a post about the different meters, I see a picture of the inside of the Voltcraft VC175

And I notice 2 fuses… so I open it up and with the new Brymen BM235 I check the fuses, and the 10A 5600V one is working, but the 0.5A 600V is broken. Would it.. could it be?

I order a few spare fuses and once they arrive I replace the broken one and voilà ! No more dashes and reading normal values….

So now having 4 Digital Multi Meters, of which 3 are working fine (fluke is still flakey), one gadgety one, an oscilloscope and a calibrated meter checker/tester, when all I needed was to replace one fuse? Was it?

Happy sampling ! 🙂
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MoonBlog 20.6 Wisdom

weirdos in the mail

Weirdo: Sjef, I owe you an apology.

me: What for?

weirdo: I came at you pretty good one day, you punted me from your group and defriended me
no harm, no foul

me: well that is inaccurate, we discussed your non Human Design topics in the comments, as we work(ed) with 2 admins and 1 moderator, and per the group rules decided to delete the comments and remove you from the group.
but yeah, people who are into channeling and such I defriend, I have no capacity to filter all that crap (too).
And, duality man: yes harm, yes foul!

weirdo: I don’t always agree with you, and I will not get into that. Not my purpose here. I am a classic 3/5 and I am not shy about it. I also have a RAX Rulership 3 as well…..quite a mix.
However….I want to be clear that I respect you.

me: so you keep saying…

weirdo: your lunar tracking sheet from your page, I did that something like 2 years ago and it brought massive relief. and People kept asking and asking me to translate it and do the work for them. Fuck that…..I kept trying to encourage and show….and lead….and get them to do what I did. And many are lazy and lack the will to go do it themselves, spoon fed.

me: so you make an individual tool of personal empowerment into a shitty version of itself to spoon feed them automated?

weirdo: So this past June I quit a $140K a year job, and have gone all in with Karen Parker and am doing her training. Probably not in alignment with you….and that’s cool. It is for me.
I am going all in on coaching and doing my own thing way off the map…but associated with them. I now have an LLC and a FB page called Quantum Reflections…website launching soon and I am going slow.
I ended up reaching out to John at Genetic Matrix about a month ago and worked with him and that spreadsheet inspired by yours. He ended up creating this, and it was released today for Pro level subscriptions.

me: yes I got 2 messages about that before you emailed me. So who/what initiated you to do so, per your S&A?
My disclaimer page says: “people can use ‘my’ material from this website freely, any and all” which does not say, ‘companies can’.
Besides that, there already is this Transit Tool provided by myBodyGraph which I reviewed here: MoonBlog 54.6 Selectivity which as an online automated tool is far superior.
there also already is The Path of the Moon – A Human Design Experiential Workbook a culmination of the Path of the Moon workshop/courses Dharmen and Leela gave for many years and I joined/enjoyed 3 times.

weirdo: I have posted this in a few places and when people toss credit at me, I am quick to say, “hey, I didn’t create this….it was Sjef that showed me how to do this from his website reflector sessions.

me: what is this, some kind of repenting?

weirdo: Anyway, I may not agree with you but I do respect the hell out of you.

me: so you keep saying…

weirdo: I also am very heavy into Dispenza’s work and I feel that is for the passenger consciousness. A compliment to HD and they are in synergy for me.
I believe that we are all beings of light in these shells we walk around in here in 3D reality. I am into quantum theory, dispenza, Human design, and a lady named Allison Armstrong who does human insticnts. for me personally, they all fit into a synthesis…and it is unique and my spin on life.
While I may not agree with everything, your adherence to S/A was a touchstone for me to keep on my HD work.
I do feel we are in a great awakening worldwide.
I would point to the transits and the utter fucking chaos from the unconscious masses. The Schumann response and the heightened photonic activity…..the energy this year is insane. Do look into the schumann, I would invite some attention there as a data point. and yes….I have been to the very top of the Q thing and it is in fact real and it is growing.
However…..I have chosen to fully embrace and live my design and go all in as a reflector. I like Karen…I don’t agree with everything she says…but she knows her shit and is building something new. Evolution….like Rudd did.

me: that is the marketing in the window, yes, evolution, it rings nice, and it caught you in its webs, like so many other wannabees/newbies. When it is just more ego/mind horseshit, and the fact you need to use -their words- to explain why you are doing it, means you’re operating from a convinced believing mind. A wonderful signpost of the not-self, mind. You don’t know what correctness is, what it looks like. You keep coming with mental arguments why this, why that, and those are never true. It’s hard to wake up to the fact you are a believer, and are a slave to your minds convictions, especially when Gate 47 is activated, or as in our case, our Personality Sun even. It thinks it’s so goddamn smart, it believes it’s own lies. A tough trip, I know, been there, done that, no t-shirt.

weirdo: I feel that very soon people like us are going to be in high demand and very valued.
I do my own thing as I observe you do.

me: that is not a feeling but a thought, it trips up so many people not understanding this difference, but also another nice signpost of following the convictions of the mind by calling it a feeling. Another reason so many of us call thoughts a feeling, is so that it won’t get challenged, as they hide behind this falsely named feeling. We are not our mind, we are not our thoughts, and mind is -never- the Inner Authority. And you, are an idiot.

weirdo: But be clear that I do RESPECT you.

me: so you keep saying…

weirdo: If you ever want to chat or pull a video call, I would welcome that. I am in Arizona in the US
that is MY chart…. Green are defined channels in my design for lunar activations. Yellow are lunar Transits Orange are foundational
You inspired this…..and it is going to help a lot of people understand their design.

me: you took something that was mine, not yours, and now it is made into a commercial product with copyright even, but most importantly, it misses the 5-6 points explanation , how or even why to use it, but then again, they can always keep coming to me for their ‘Individual personalized and extended lunar & other transits cycle chart to discover and work with your own lunar cycle in a profound way, for Reflectors and other types.’ which is handmade and comes with their own private one hour session too.
That write up by Victoria Bagnell is not it, it is shallow, and it is wrong on multiple counts.
So people are left with just another piece of mind candy and not a tool for liberation. You yourself never even had a Lunar Cycle session or Lunar workshop.
You took the info and worked with it, as best you could, and sure you had results/effects, but you still do not understand what is actually used for.
But have (ego) sold as if you do. You are a one eyed king in the land of the blind, and an idiot.

weirdo: Powerful stuff for newbies…..and handy for me to import into my phone and set notifications.
I am hoping to work with him to automate that aspect.

me: it is going to be yet another powerful distraction for newbies, and John Yuill keeps offering more and more homogenized mind candy, so the unintended result, is that people sign up for countless HD lists, follow countless instagram influencers, read all the quotes from Ra somewhere, and get the most shiniest of subscriptions of online HD tools, but not one decision is ever made any different. not once does anyone ever actually get into the experiment of using and applying their Strategy first, to find out their Inner Authority second and then follow through on that then found Inner Authority. Getting stuck in all the wonderfully colored animations and quotes, but made not one actual change in their lives not controlled by their minds. Because yes, of course knowing about HD has an effect, but knowing does not an Inner Authority make. But talking about that will never help, because this is not a ‘convince the mind’ show with better or other arguments. The only way HD ever works, is if -you do the work- if you apply it. The rest is just window dressing, and most get caught up by window shopping, with the nice decorations, but nothing deeper content and sustenance than the shallow portal.

And you did not enhance my tool, or ‘evolved it’, you watered it down, is my observation.
Others tel me: “where is your cheque, or life time subscription?” or “They should pay you.” or “Who is this tool!?”
But I have no need for any of those. And you, are an idiot.
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The Drama of Profile

“…the design side. You have no conscious access to it, which means there is no way your mind can either interfere with it or truly grasp it. It has nothing to do with your mind.

And in terms of the not-self, the not-self does everything in its power to ignore it, even if that unconscious is the sole thing driving its definitions, because it has no access to it, none. When somebody enters into the experiment of Human Design, that experiment is cutting off the mind from trying to run the life and allowing the mind to become mind, to be involved in what it’s here for, which we’ll get to in a moment. But the moment you’re operating according to Strategy and Authority you’re automatically aligning your vehicle to its cognition and you’re automatically aligning your vehicle to a geometry, a trajectory, a direction, whatever language you want to use, that is absolutely correct for you…

…We have a dilemma with mind in Human Design because as not-self it really destroys our possibility to be able to perfect our process. But once you’ve entered into a process where your Strategy and Authority is making the rules for your life there are all kinds of possibilities then for the mind. It is its freedom. And this freedom is to be an outer authority, what you get from me. That is, my mind has value for you. It does not have the same value for me. That is, my mind does not tell me what to do so it is no longer my inner authority.” – Ra Uru Hu – Rave Cosmology VI – Profile, Purpose and Function

Based on the “Generator Transcript”

https://humandesignamerica.com/books/general-education

“Surrender: Your Mind Must Be An Ally
It’s very important to understand something as a Generator: Generators were given this gift of surrendering. Let me explain to you how surrender works for a Generator. A Generator comes to Human Design and they’re told that they make decisions in response. So they begin this process of making decisions in response, and they begin this process by doing the mental work first.

If you do not seduce your mind as a Generator, you will never have a real opportunity to be yourself. Your mind must become your ally. The way in which you make your mind an ally is that when you begin your Generator process, you begin by a “Question and Response Episode.”

The Mind Will Fight Your Surrender
See, Generators are here to know themselves. You’re here to know yourself so you above everybody else is here to know the power of your Not-Self because it’s your greatest enemy! In recognizing the power of that Not-Self you cannot expect your mind – who does not work for you – to work for you!

You cannot expect that you’re going to be able to teach your mind, to be able to compensate for your Not-Self.

Your Mind Is Not on Your Side
It all comes back to your own process. It comes back to you remembering every moment of every day that your mind is not on your side. It’s going to tell you whatever it tells you. It has to learn. You have to teach it. You have to fool it. You have to get it to a point that it surrenders to you being your own Authority, claiming what’s rightfully yours.

Your Sacral Center is here to claim what’s rightfully yours – your Authority. I wait for awake 59s to change the way in which we bond, so that we can bond with clarity, so that we can bond with those that are correct for us to bond with.” – Ra Uru Hu

MoonBlog 30.5 Irony

Since we were born, as we take the world in, we seek to position ourselves in that world. So our minds run a little software program with our likes and dislikes, which helps us navigate the world. To recognize things or to deal with the unknown.

And when it meets something unknown, it just makes a mess, or perhaps just helps you to keep your cool, lucky shot at best. So we helped program it, our ego/mind has, what happens when we see a 1943 Alco, S2 locomotive come by and we cheer. Or when someone gifts us, or we ourselves find that limited edition of this or that.

But also when something frightens us and we want to run and hide. Or what ever our response is, it is the programmed software doing its thing, and we run the same paths, the same behavior over and over and over again. The same is true if you are offended by something, you -choose- to be offended, or… not be offended. Just the programmed software doing its thing.

So yeah, you can change that software behaviour, its responses how, what and when, it’s what most therapy and even meditation is all about, but also tapping and even prayer.

But we get stuck because no one tells it is software that can be changed. Because we so self identify with ‘our’ own little program, we think -we- need to change. First that we are wrong and then we need changing, this is incredibly difficult for the identified not-self to overcome.

When in fact that software is not you at all, it is just in you and you helped shape it, but it is not you. To be able to step back and see that…

But how about simply taking the software out…? To stop running that program all together? And find out what actually makes you happy, and drop the identification with that which makes you happy, and no longer carry it as luggage with you everywhere? That wherever you are, and you do see another 1943 Alco, S2 locomotive come by it is indeed just another unattached event, but so is being afraid of something just another event, that needs no action from your software…

Maybe/perhaps?
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The Cult of Human Design

How do reflectors approach each other if we are supposed to be initiated?

You: Are we….?

Me: Yes we are.

You: Sorry not buying that nonsense. Life is what you make of it. It is a do it yourself job. Felt misarable a long time waiting for invitations until I felt live is my party. I can do whatever I want. This statement is taking every self empowerment out of my life. Can’t be good. Human design is inspirational not a bible.

Me: Yes but who is not buying it (but an argumentative mind)?
Are you experimenting with Strategy & Authority? Do you understand how that works? Would you like to?
We are not here to wait for invitations, we are here however -to be initiated-. But also, if you do anything for yourself, you don’t need to be initiated either. When someone else is involved, then we do.
Then we take a month, a Lunar Cycle to see if it (what we were initiated about) is for us.
Maybe time to read a good book about it like: Your Own Authority – A Beginners Guide to Human Design (eBook)
And/or book a Foundation Reading with a certified Analyst?
Human Design is a tool that you can apply, use, to find out your Inner Authority, so you can make your decisions correctly. About how your bio-mechanical machine operates.
Inspiration is only for the mind, where you can take the things your mind likes, adheres to or agrees with. Human Design teaches us that there is no choice. The experiment show that.
It is not about happy, it is about the duality of life, yin and yang, good and bad, and make your decisions regardless of those out circumstances. Not (even) because of them.

Me: “This statement is taking every self empowerment out of my life.” a good point
Because Human Design shows you, you don’t need any external empowerment, you are already whole and empowered from within. If anything external can take yours away, wonder if you had any to begin with.
And also, as an inquiry: who (or what) seeks empowerment, needs it, yearns for it, but our (ego)mind?
It’s a journey alright.

Me: I’ve heard/read people state that same type can approach same type, so projectors can approach other projectors without invitation and so on. Never experimented with it to see if it’s true.
For me it is not even the perception of initiation but, again, if my body moves somewhere. If it shows up at someones door.
So the question is not how, to me (because how is always mind, always trying to strategize, and manipulate, to change that which is or is not), but to notice when you do, when you are.
When it is without any form or kind of a mental agenda.
When I can perceive it is correct, noticing to be in the flow and not pushing the river. Basically when I notice that I have no choice.
Otherwise, you simply don’t (initiate), because who is wanting to do so anyways (but mind)?

You: Not true it is not always mind….you can follow gut feeling or hart. Very clear to feel the difference.
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The Differentiation Lectures

TheDifferentiationLectures
https://www.ihdschool.com/digital-products/

Lecture 1: Nine-Centered Awakening
A New Being and a New Way of Life
Human Design reveals more than any other malaise that humanity suffers from clinging to an evolutionary past. Emerging in 1781, the nine-centered being is revolutionarily different from its predecessor. Ra provides a profound insight into the true nature and mechanics of our kind and the transformation possible through Human Design. This is a transcript of the first in a series of free lectures given by Ra Uru Hu on May 4, 2008.
Lecture 2: The Four Transformations
A Guide to Achieving Difference
This is a transcript of the second in a series of free lectures given by Ra Uru Hu on June 14, 2008 on the stages of Differentiation.
Lecture 3: The Not-Self
What Stands between You and Transformation
This is a transcript of the third in a series of free lectures given by Ra Uru Hu on July 26, 2008.