March 2015

Because I’m fifty shades of fucked up

Literature student Anastasia Steele’s life changes forever when she meets handsome, yet tormented, billionaire Christian Grey. When Anastasia goes to interview the wealthy Christian Grey as a favor to her roommate Kate Kavanagh, she encounters a beautiful, brilliant and intimidating man. The innocent and naive Ana starts to realize she wants him. Despite his enigmatic reserve and advice, she finds herself desperate to get close to him. Not able to resist Ana’s beauty and independent spirit, Christian Grey admits he wants her too, but on his own terms. Ana hesitates as she discovers the singular tastes of Christian Grey – despite the embellishments of success, his multinational businesses, his vast wealth, and his loving family, Grey is consumed by the need to control everything.

Director: Sam Taylor-Johnson
Writers: Kelly Marcel (screenplay), E.L. James (novel)
Stars: Dakota Johnson, Jamie Dornan, Jennifer Ehle, Eloise Mumford, Marcia Gay Harden

Saturn to Kiron: Planting the Cross


Ra takes a look at the 20-year period from Saturn to Kiron, the second stage of the tripartite life process of the nine-centered being. If a child has been raised correctly, this 30-year point, called the Saturn return, marks the point where you go out into the world as yourself. This is the time of planting the seeds of the Incarnation Cross you’re born with in order to perform, when correct, your differentiated purpose. Ra discusses the many benefits that the right environment provides for each person, and how it nurtures the development of unique awareness which leads to outer Authority. Everyone is here to see in a certain way that is part of their uniqueness.
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Deconditioning and the Mind

One of the myths of Human Design states that if you simply follow your strategy and authority for 7 years, you will become completely deconditioned. This is a nice story, but it over simplifies the truth – deconditioning is an ongoing process of self-discovery.

The body can partially decondition in 7 years. Most of the cells replicate in 7 year cycles, called apoptosis, so it stands to reason that within 7 years of full experimentation with Strategy and Authority, complete replication will be in effect at a cellular level. Not true. The body has cells that never replicate, that never go through a 7 year apoptosis process – Stem Cells which maintain our primary cellular ‘code’, and Neurons.

Neurons and their lack of cyclic regeneration is what provide humans with the gift of memory. It is also what makes mental conditioning so durable and associative – memories of conditioning never truly go away. Strategy and Inner Authority put the decision making and movement through life under the control and guidance of the body’s intelligence; however, they do nothing to change the rich, deep internal dialog of the mind that is based on conditioned memories that never, ever go away.

How then do we decondition the mind?
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Another view (114)

“I’ve been searching for the podholes, all my life long. Iiii, look at this shit! You got to ride in the middle of the fucking road. It’s an IED fucking zone, it’s fucking terrible. Oh my.. Look! Oh my god! Fuck! Look at this shit, look. What the fuck do I do here? What do I do here? Do I stop? Do I got fucking drive put my car move it. Oh my god, look ahead! Look afuckinghead! Look ahead! What the fuck is this? What in the fuck, oh my god. Oh my god look. Oh my god. I put my fucking hazards on, this fucking of this is fucking shit. Look at this shit. Look at that shit. Look at that shit. Look at the fucking holes. Look at that shit. Look at that shit. What a fucking size damn. Fuck. Look at that shit. What the fuck here, look all the way up here. Look at this shit. This hole fucking road. Look at this shit. No fucking road. It’s a fucking warzone. What do you do? You go across the fucking field? It take look at this shit. It’s unpassable. It goes on for fucking miles. Fuck you! Oh my god. This is ridiculous. I can keep going. Look at this shit. It’s unpassable. People. I’m not fucking happy right now. Unfuckinghappy. Look at this shit. Puddles of fucking water. What the fuck. Now this shit. Pudholes fucking road america. Worst fucking road of my life. Fucking assholes. Worst fucking road in america. Piece of shit mother fucker. Worst fucking road in america. Been driving, no ones even comes on this fucking road. They know better. It’s a fucking warzone. Got damn fucking warzone. That’s what the fuck it is. So, i’m gonna go slow. Very cautious. Look at this shit. Fucking terrible. Look at that shit and it’s fucking terrible. What the fuck! I get a little speed here. Only not far look at this. What the fuck! What the fuck! What the fuck! Look! Unbelievable! This is look at this shit! Look at this shit! Are you fucking kidding me? What are my tax pay fucking dollars doing? What the fuck are they doing! Oh my god! Oh my god! Oh my god! Oh my god! Oh my god! Look! I got to go on the other side of the road. This is ridiculous. You see that crossroad? It’s fucking terrible. Fuck!”

MoonBlog 51.1 reference

Reading the 1st lecture of Rave Cosmology 3, Dying, Death and Bardo Stages, I suddenly think both my parents had a near complete Bardo (ie 72 hours) due to circumstances.


My father had a stroke while in the shower, at age 36. He was born with some kind of heart issue which he never spoke about. Even on our questions why he was never in military service he replied with: ‘feet too big’. Supposedly he should have taken better care of himself, on his health and body and nutrition. Personally I think this is complete bullshit and just an excuse to explain something unexplainable. For a while as a child I believed it, and it seemed to make sense. Now that I’m older I see the irrelevance of this nonsense talk. I mean we lived in a normal house with heating and plumbing and windows, we had enough meals a day for sustenance. And the food was regular food. I never saw him eat supposed horrible foods either. But I digress…

After the stroke, he was brought to hospital in the nearby city. We (me and my 2 sisters) were taken care of by hired help and were sent to school and such and I guess I visited once in that time, early on. He was there for about a week, maybe 2, until he died, unable to recover. But since we had not seen him for about a week, we lamented (at least I did, in my memory) of wanting to see him once more before his cremation, I can not say for certain if he was held underground or not, and I might find the actual dates and such, but I have this thought that our wanting to see him, gave him some time to leave correctly.
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How do I know my Mum’s not a lesbian?


U.K. gay activists work to help miners during their lengthy strike of the National Union of Mineworkers in the summer of 1984. A 20 year old closet gay Joe hesitantly arrives in London from Bromley for his first Gay Pride march and is taken under the collective wing of a group of gay men and Lesbian Steph, who meet at flamboyant Jonathan and his Welsh partner Gethin’s Soho bookshop. Not only are gays being threatened by Thatcher but the miners are on strike in response to her pit closures and Northern Irish activist Mark Ashton believes gays and miners should show solidarity.

Director: Matthew Warchus
Writer: Stephen Beresford
Stars: Bill Nighy, Imelda Staunton, Dominic West, Ben Schnetzer, George MacKay, Faye Marsay, Joseph Gilgun, Paddy Considine, Jessica Gunning

Dying, Death and the Bardo Stages

You have had the same personality crystal for approximately 15 billion years. Your body becomes more evolved in every incarnation. When you die correctly, a simple matter, your newly refined awareness returns to its fractal home, enriches the totality, and moves on from there to its correct place in the cosmic flow.


In this eleven week semester we will look at:

-The elegant mechanics of the death process
-The very simple method of ensuring that you (or someone else) dies correctly
-When the personality crystal is unable to reunite with its correct geometry
-The bardo (death journey) sequence – the potential of the ultimate awareness journey and how to read it
-The fundamentals of the death reading itself (the aspect of the life that is only revealed with a time of death calculation).

This course also includes some analysis of the Power Column and some line level analysis of the Rave I Ching.

The gift of an individuated death is practical and simple to give or receive. In the wonder and scope of its underlying mechanics, it can also revitalize each remaining moment of life starting now. Please join me for what I suspect will be not only a deeply practical but deeply joyous journey.

Birth to Saturn: The True Self and Diet


The first of six films in this series begins with an investigation of the first 30 years in the three-part life process of a nine-centered being. It starts with how we are raised and fed by our parents. Every human being is designed with one of six basic, unique digestive systems. In order to be physically healthy and for the brain system to develop correctly, it is essential that a child eats according to their particular dietary regimen.
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Hexagram 25


Hexagram 25: without embroiling; R Wilhelm 25: innocence; Hua-Ching Ni 25: innocence – unexpected happening; Human Design gate 25: gate of innocence, spirit of the self; S Reifler 25: the simple; J Blofeld 25: integrity, the unexpected; S Karcher 25: disentangling; GeneKey 25: the myth of the sacred wound



The Angelical Mind

Yang-Yin-Yin-Yang Gates: 25-Spirit of the Self, 17-Opinion, 21-Hunter/Huntress, 51-Shock
The core of the Mind’s programming; separation and comparison of light/good vs dark/bad.
The Michael Archetype embodies God’s messenger with his sword of Truth. Here Mind brings moral laws that determine ‘good’ and ‘evil’, separating matter and exalting spirit (heavy distortions).
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How to Revive a Dead Laptop Battery

The same freezer that holds your frozen pizzas and TV dinners can often bring seemingly-dead laptop batteries back to usable (though not quite like-new) condition.



Steak and Blowjob Day

Celebrated on March 14th, Steak and Blowjob Day is a holiday for men, celebrated the month after Valentine’s Day — a holiday for women.

The idea is simple: no cards, flowers, candy or other whimsical gifts. Ladies (and gay men), you simply bestow your partner with a steak and a blowjob. Not necessarily in that order.

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