Just another experience of duality

On Wednesday, ‎29 ‎June ‎2022, ‏‎at 10:17:16

July 9th 2022

I never tried to sell her anything, we spoke about it when we met, surely, we spoke about what each of us does (pic on the right)
I already did not like that she paid for the dinner we had, as if to either prove something, or to buy a favour later.
It was her then on July 29th 2022 asking:
“Hey wassup? How much is your lyd course?” (see pic11)

And since I was preparing for it, I was busy, or chilling, like non-energy people do. But this, apparently, is not allowed (hehe, right…)
or straight answers to questions like ‘are you?’ “No”

And then of course, after this strange communication break down, telling -everyone- what a horrible person I am, just for being present, as myself. For telling her I masturbated, as if nobody ever does, or one is not allowed to speak about these things, in honesty and openness… and safety. Or that the communication got weird. No idiot, you smoke(d) so much weed!

But also looking back, clearly a (self (over) identified) person(ality) that asks for help, with the stress, the burden and whatever else, but does not actually seek help, does not actually seek support or outside viewpoint suggestions, at all. Is only seeking praise for the struggle and efforts, while remaining a victim of the outer circumstances and keep wallowing in their own supposed victimization. So they can keep pointing outwards, this person, that person, or this situation, bad, bad, bad. Luring you in with smiles and meals, but it’s a sticky web of self indulgent manipulative locked up horrors, and if you do no adhere, or heel (!), it was all your fault 🙂

So yeah. just another toxic, helpless and incompetent moralist bullshitter, running through the Human Design ‘community’ carousel like a dog with rabies, foaming at the mind, with all the pretence and pretends. Rising through the so called ranks, of nothing, of emptiness. So 2 years later they can make a documentary about HD without it being about HD, thinking they ‘need to initiate’, calling themselves ‘director’, cause no one is living it, they’re just talking about it, chasing the dragon of want, wanting to adhere to something good, bettering humans and humankind, without ever bettering. To Live Your Design is not a group(ed) effort !

Aaaah beautiful stinky messy Duality…. Thanks for the experience all the same 🙂