4/6 Reflector PLL-DLR

February 2025

as a friend replied: I have tissues 🙂

anyways, I’m using this to open up about the fact that for about 2-3 years now, I’ve been incredibly emotionally overwhelmed at times.

And I’m looking into different ways to support myself in it, with it, maybe even through it, or beyond. Or not.

Talking about it helps, trying out CBD/CBG oil is being tested, looking into different kinds of modalities helps, like trauma work, Byron Katie, Dr. K, etc.

the first pic is only after using cpap (sunday night)

the second and 3rd is using cpap for 2-4 hours and cbd/g oil (last 2 nights)

u can almost see the apnea increasing in the morning as the oil is working less

CBD & CBG

what came in the box

Huile Super Relax CBD & CBG Sensavea 1300mg (10ml)

1000mg (10%) of premium Broad Spectrum CBD. 300mg (3%) of CBG to better manage your emotions. Enriched with Verbena and Marjoram active ingredients. 100% French sector – Produced in a short circuit in Lorraine. Active from the first dose. Floral, sweet and slightly herbaceous taste. No flavors or additives. Without THC

This oil is a natural solution to start taking CBD and deal with the little worries of everyday life. Super relax CBD oil is a natural solution without side effects allowing everyone to start taking CBD with peace of mind. Enriched with verbena and marjoram, the super relax oil also contains 10% CBD and 3% CBG, making it an effective and balanced oil. CBD combined with CBG which would promote the management of emotions and balance. Great importance was attached to the taste of this gentle night CBD oil during its design. No flavorings or additives were used. Its floral, sweet and slightly herbaceous taste comes exclusively from the plant extracts contained in this CBD oil, namely marjoram and verbena.

Broad spectrum hemp extract including CBD 10%, CBG 3%, MCT oil, Marjoram extract, Verbena extract, 100% natural origins. No food allergens, gluten free

At least it’s got vervain in it 🙂
https://vampirediaries.fandom.com/wiki/Vervain

Byron Katie Just Wants You to Be Happy

“Although she might never identify it as such, Byron Katie is espousing a form of meta-cognition, a way of thinking about thinking. Are your thoughts a true reflection of the reality around you, or do they come unbidden from your unconscious?

Byron Katie just wants you to be happy. She doesn’t know you, but she believes she can help you find your happiness, and countless of her fans and followers would agree. She also thinks that helping you find happiness goes a long way in solving the myriad problems in the world. She’s been on Oprah. Tony Robbins is a fan and incorporates her work into his own teachings. Her methods are remarkably simple; she only asks that you question your own thoughts and that you accept reality for what it really is. You will wonder why you never thought of it.

An unusual woman with an unusual name, Byron Katie is leading a revolution of the mind. Although she might never identify it as such, she is espousing a form of meta-cognition, a way of thinking about thinking. Are your thoughts a true reflection of the reality around you, or do they come unbidden from your unconscious? Can you trust what your own mind tells you? Byron Katie would say no. She would ask you to question each thought as it comes, to mull it over and put it to the test. And then she would ask you to take that further, to ponder the opposite of that thought, and whether that “turnaround,” in fact, might be a truer version of reality. This process she calls “The Work.”

The Work: I had the opportunity to see Byron Katie speak in person at the Omega Institute NYC Conference, and I have also been reading her book I Need Your Love — Is That True?. Both were eye-opening, I might even say life-changing, experiences for me. The Work is a series of four questions that you apply to each stressful, unhappy, or counterproductive thought that comes into your mind. Take, for example, the thought “I am such a pushover,” which you might have after being taken advantage of by someone you love or trust.

Is it true? This is only a simple yes or no question, either I am a pushover or I am not — in objective reality without adding my own filters and biases.

Can you absolutely know that it is true? This is also a yes or no question but requires more thinking. Who is to say what constitutes being “a pushover”? Perhaps being a pushover to one person is seeking or receiving just the right amount of guidance to another. If I cannot definitively say that it is true, then the answer is no.

How do you react — what happens — when you believe that thought? How does this thought make me feel and behave? If I worry that I am easily manipulated, I may beat myself up in my relationships and unnecessarily put walls up. I criticize myself. And I begin to resent the other person because I can’t put my guard down around them.

Who would you be without the thought? If that thought never existed, how would I feel and behave? If I never had to worry about being a pushover, I could live more freely. I wouldn’t put my guard up in my relationships, and I would allow myself to be vulnerable and who I really am. I would feel better about myself.

The Turnaround: Now comes the point where Byron Katie asks you to take the opposite of your thought and mull it over. One turnaround might be: “I am not at all a pushover.” Is this any truer than the original statement? Can I think of any examples in which this is true? Another turnaround might be that my spouse/partner/parent/coworker is the one who is a pushover. In this way, I could come to see that everyone can be manipulated at times, and that this is normal. I can see that I am not “such” a pushover at all, and that I am letting the fear of being controlled actually control me. I can begin to let these thoughts go and no longer criticize myself or others. And so the stress associated with the thought of being such a pushover would no longer exist.

What Bryon Katie is offering is a method of self-inquiry that allows us to free ourselves from the anger and negativity we feel when we accept our thoughts, unquestioned, as true. We cause much of our own suffering by believing what our minds tell us. If we can see that certain thoughts are the cause of our own unhappiness, we can begin to let go and be free of them. Questioning these thoughts, putting them to the test of The Work, is a form of enlightenment. If the unexamined life is not worth living, perhaps the unexamined thought is not worth thinking.

It certainly can’t hurt to try.” – By Stephan Spencer from https://www.huffpost.com/entry/happiness-tips_b_1739238

Subject: Rave Cosmologist certifications

Hi,

recently I noticed my qualifications on the IHDS Professionals page (https://www.ihdschool.com/professionals) have changed, and so have many other people’s Rave Cosmology certifications changed.

Was this change ever mentioned in one of the IHDS newsletters and I just missed it?

In 2016 I became a Rave Cosmologist, and about 2 months later was told I also had become a Rave Cosmologist Teacher, with the clear understanding however this was like a Guide qualification. Able to share with people but this would not make them in any way certified.

Even back then I wondered why not introduce a Rave Cosmologist Guide certificate/qualification, it would make it so much easier/clearer

Now I see these 4 qualifications online:

1. Additional Qualifications: Rave Cosmologist
This is where everyone is in now

2. Teacher Qualifications: Rave Cosmologist
with only Darshana in it

3. Teacher Trainer Qualifications: Rave Cosmologist
with only Darshana in it

4. Trainer Qualifications: Rave Cosmologist
1 person it it, Tatiana Wolf

Is this not a good idea, to make this Rave Cosmology Guide certificate, instead? For those who were nr2 before, also?

And drop the nr1 qualification completely, maybe/perhaps, or only as we do with LYD, ABC and Cartography, to have been an acknowledged participant, with no IHDS registration

Anyways, thanks for reading/listening 🙂 👍

—
Kind Regards

Baffo

https://www.ihdschool.com/courses/rave-cosmology-biversity &
https://www.ihdschool.com/education-curriculum/rave-cosmologist

Rave Cosmologist Certification
This course will be taught by an IHDS Certified Rave Cosmologist Trainer.
The complete Cosmologist Certification Program includes eight semesters of study.
The initial seven semesters may be taken in any order based on student interest.
Once you have met the prerequisites, you are then eligible to take the final and eighth semester for certification.
The final Certification Course is open to those that have completed all seven semesters with a Certified Cosmologist Trainer.
**Note: This course is open to the general public and to those interested in becoming a Certified Rave Cosmologist to offer this knowledge to the general public. You are not being certified to teach others to become Rave Cosmologists.**

answer is in:
Hi Baffo,

Yeah, it seems the word teacher was really confusing everyone.

We only changed the names but not the prereqs.

Rave Cosmologists are certified to share the information with other people – not to teach the courses for others to become certified.

I will pass on your suggestion about the Guide.

Thank You,

Lynette Crisfield

“Where in the chart do we see potential for being abused?”

It seems to me, reading the comments and the premise of the question, it kinda means, that abuse makes you the victim, period.

As people point towards the not-self of either you, or of the abuser. (which implicates wrong doing !!)

And then the shallowness of claiming the not-self is only in the openness. While also reciting this activation or that one, so which one is it?

Which (as so very often) completely ignores duality.

I’ve been abused in several ways and sometimes still meet it, mostly emotional/psychological, and yes I do like to point at my Design Nodes (36 and 6) but…

Duality !

This notion to be able to see it on a map, or on a tiny little permutation of an activation (it is because of my base 3 in tone 4 of color 3 in line 4 of gate so and so, or because I do NOT have this or that activation to protect me bla!), is mind boggling to me.

in my ideal world it would be like we would just be subsidizing escorts

Agency is the sense of control that you feel in your life, your capacity to influence your own thoughts and behavior, and have faith in your ability to handle a wide range of tasks and situations. Your sense of agency helps you to be psychologically stable, yet flexible in the face of conflict or change.
And/or
In social science, agency is the capacity of individuals to have the power and resources to fulfill their potential. Social structure consists of those factors of influence (such as social class, religion, gender, ethnicity, ability, customs, etc.) that determine or limit agents and their decisions.

“What if, instead of setting you free, Human design is actually holding you back?”

What if, instead of setting you free, Human design is actually holding you back? What if, instead of it becoming a road to your best self, it has become a cage?

We’ve all seen it…people so fixated on their chart, so bound by their “type,” that they miss out on all kinds of incredible opportunities, ignoring what they feel pulled towards, denying what they love. They let this “inner authority” given to them by another person who never even met them, dictate every decision, ignoring their intuition, ignoring critical thinking. They’re afraid to step outside the lines, to experiment, to grow beyond the labels. They live in illusion that they are free when they are actually imprisoned.

This isn’t about rejecting Human Design, it’s about leading your own life. It’s about taking the insights from your chart and using them wisely, not letting them define every aspect of who you are. It’s about remembering that you’re more than your type, profile and centers. You’re a complex individual with a unique journey, with unique experiences, why do you willingly accept being placed in this tiny box?

It can be really difficult. Human design can for a lot of people really be like a disease that takes over their entire being. They can’t communicate anymore, all they think about and talk about is Human design. Instead of freeing them, Human Design becomes their limitation. An addiction.

There is a nice, easy way of using it. When you use it as a tool, without letting it dictate your every move and every thought. Don’t let it convince you that you are unemotional, that you shouldn’t speak, shouldn’t ask, shouldn’t leave a situation you really want to leave, that you shouldn’t apply for your dream job. And when you have been following the ritual for years, the ritual becomes your comfort zone, and leaving it becomes the biggest fear.

You enter into HD after being sick of standards and boxes, only to find yourself in even more narrow ones. Every aspect of you suddenly needs to be controlled. You are not allowed to think. You are not allowed to feel bad, as you will instantly be called notself, shamed and insulted. It’s time to see and realize that you never left the world of standardisation. You got even deeper in.
💔

from https://www.facebook.com/lara.jozanovic

Me:

Human Design is not a thing that does anything, it has no such powers.
it (HD) can not hold me back, only me, or, my mind can

If I abuse the information, or use it differently than what HD is about, than this is on me, not on HD

HD is just a bunch of words, all combined makes up a framework of knowledge, which some seems to pan out, and some actually not so much.

But when implemented and used, there is an observable result.
when used differently, those results can also be observed, but can not possibly be the fault of HD

So it, can not possible be ‘holding you back’, or ‘be a cage’
Only I (ego/mind) can let ‘it’ dictate my every decision, pretending to use the rules of such a modality/framework/whatever else.

Only my mind can be this disease, can be how I communicate, get addicted or even limited. Not anything else outside of my mind does any of this.

And if my ego/mind is in on this, big time, then that is a good place to look for it and at it. And maybe the observation helps, maybe not.

The acknowledgment, the seeing, the realization, of us being so taken up/by something might help
but lets point at us ourselves, in the way we speak/communicate then as well. Cause to ‘accuse HD’ is quite besides the point.

Somehow the 12 steps come to mind: “To accept the things I cannot change;. Courage to change the things I can;. And wisdom to know the difference.”

My 2 cents: Love yourself for being an idiot… I mean… human 🙂
not a robot that is omniscient, omnipotent, and bla.