• Human Design middle path

    ByBaffo

    not ‘middle of the road’
    I see a few distinct versions of Human Design practices happening

    Sandhill Crane (Antigone canadensis)

    -one is the overzealous crowd, taking the ‘wrong’ things too literal and are basically too stupid to zoom out and ‘relativize’, but more importantly, pressure themselves and peer pressure others to force-fuck this ‘Living Your Design’ into this incorrect understanding on their decision making. This is the HD cult makers (which they vehemently deny), just a handful of bullies is enough, intellectually smart, socially stupid. (Over)zealous fucktards I call these (which is a technical term). It is a mind fuck and ‘just another trap’. More incompetent than helpless.

    -another part or version is (and quite many certified professionals fall into this category) those that pretend they are better than others, calling others psychotic, narcissists, creating an HD Professionals ‘privilege’ society and making HD into a religious practice to boot, where HD becomes math; formulas, bullies here too. Incredibly banal and numbing, intellectual and social stupidity. Robotic assholes is my term for these since any sense of humanity has left them. Kindly just go fuck yourselves.

    Funny in between story: a number of/quite a few (…) Certified HD Professionals, are Flat-Earthers, no joke

    -on the other far side of the spectrum, is the make-ability idealist junkies, where weaponizing HD to serve your identified idiot is key. With or without rituals, but these are the wanna-be light workers who are lead by the dark hatters. This is ego masturbation and gratification, in the name of a better me, a better world, if only you sign up for more. These also include the many doubters and confusion artists making new versions of HD, these are the ‘intellectually challenged’, socially ok-ish, until they open their mouth/mind. New Age cow-dung sellers and dwellers, wondering why their world smells of well, cow-dung. Flaming do-good idiots whose only weapon is argumentation. Just another belief system towards hell, paved with good intentions but ultimately falls so short that they hurt themselves and others.

    – and there is a middle path in all of this kerfuffle. Which is nowhere in the middle actually, but to give it a name…
    To understand how human you are, how HD gives you mechanical absolutes yes, just not factual absolutes, not all come out, are ever witnessed or alive in you, the surrendering to that which is, and observe it, if you can, if you even can. And to include this inability too. To operate within the breadth of factual capacity and ability, availability. Sometimes more of this, some days none of it. To let your mind be judgmental, and run the show some times, because you know you are helpless and incompetent and that loving yourself means you are helpless and incompetent about it. Without ever having to need to hand over your own agency or Authority, to any one, while sometimes not being able not to. (ah yes paradoxical) To be religiously unreligious about life. To witness and see, whatever and however much as you possibly can, and can not. To include, that which is your experience. To be dualistically non-dualistic. To fuck up and see, wing it as long as not arrested for. Or sometimes do get arrested for and to include that. To be realistic about your unrealistic expectations. To be driven by your mind, your ego, your ego/mind, your lust, your false desires, unwarranted and unwanted yet fascinating fears, and your fetishes. And take this body for a spin. To observe with or without navels and anals. To stop pretending basically, being human and into HD is not a trick, nor a goal, neither smart nor stupid, just very incredibly human. To show up as yourself, the identified differentiated idiot đŸ˜‰

    – oh, and, yes, ehrm, then there are those HD people on Reddit, gee whizz, ehrm….?
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  • Here’s the thing

    ByBaffo

    about the transits and conditioning – they are not you. They are an experience that is happening for you to observe, not to identify nor act upon. It can be an amplified experience, so that you begin to see it, and how it programs the mind to initiate actions based upon False Evidence Appearing Real – the mind’s survival defense mechanisms.

    It is not about ignoring the mind, either. It is about noticing the stories that the mind makes up and tries to convince you that they are real. Those stories are fingers pointing towards what you are here to be wise about, those energies passing through your open gates, channels and centers.” – Leela Swann-Herbert

  • MoonBlog 20.5 Realism

    ByBaffo

    Another remarkable thing looking at beginners now, and my own process when I started with Human Design, is identifications.

    And I mean false identifications, we (you/me) identify with things that are not true, and often we do not identify with things that are actually true.

    But that is only a part of the story, far more profound, is the fact that it is the mind judging it, discerning it, either making stuff up that is false or ignoring that which is so incredibly true. It is the mind who either adheres to something or dismisses it, and we believe it, since we so identify (again) with whatever the mind comes up with. It could be total and complete mental diarrhea, but we cling to it as if our lives depend on it. And we will murder/death/kill for it…

    …for a concept, for a thought, for an attachment.

    As long as the mind tells us something, we tend to accept it, never investigating it for just another thought which may or may not, be true. And then we wear it, boastingly, proud owners of something that might be completely fabricated and ‘wrong’.

    And underneath something else happens too, we consider ourselves the good guys, always and foremost, and most other people as the bad guys. And thus we can never be told or proven wrong, it is inconceivable, since we are the only true good guys, the saviours, the ones opposing the system, the man, even if we do have a little money, or some form of power in our jobs, it is us versus them. And them is, when it comes down to it, almost –everybody- else.

    Never me. Especially not me.
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  • Conclusions

    ByBaffo

    So the back story to this ‘overview’ is this

    When I was in Puna India at the OSHO International Meditation Resort in 2011 a few things happened, but one was where some person in a authority/hierarchy position demanded more from me than I was willing (or able), and I dropped quickly, easy and deeply, into victimization mode.

    There was a lot of back and forth on it, and besides this person being a manipulative vindictive control monkey, I was deeply identified and even felt powerful in my victimization, and wore it as a costume, exclaiming and lamenting loudly.

    Until, after quite a few days of me doing this, finally someone said something about it, about just that. That even though yes, it happened, it was all true and all, but now, ‘move the fuck on’.

    It took me at least 6 months, already back home, before I could even see what was said and meant. The veil of it, the identification and justifications were laid upon so thick, it took quite a while to dawn on me.

    But, then I did, did see, and started seeing with new eyes, and started seeing more veils, not just my own, but some of others’ too, and some very clearly and loudly so. As if some neon-lights were switched on *blink blink blink*.

    Seeing myself and others’ mental identification stories, has helped me free myself from these, more to come, maybe/perhaps?

  • Moon Blog 26.2

    ByBaffo

    The desire to be someone, and to identify with something that you like, something positive, is pretending at best. This archetype, or that one, or combined in a hotchpotch of identities, colours and attitudes.

    Would you like to scratch the surface?

    Today?

  • Moon Blog 42.3

    ByBaffo

    Sometimes one learns a technique, and applies it occasionally or perhaps everywhere, and might even become extremely good in the application. But the technique is not you, it is not who you are. The ritual of exercising the technique, however well performed, is not who you are. Nor is being a bad performer of it, who you are.

    Drop the identification with exercising any ritual or technique, and find who is doing it.