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The abdicator

Projected Attitude: Abdicator

(from ‘Profile and Type Reference’)

I enjoy being an Abdicator (Profiling Gate of the 4th Line), so very often in my life I’ve been ‘promised the world’ by criminals, by teachers, by lovers. And oh so many times, I just said no. It was not for me, and I walked away or moved on. And then looking back on those situations, what if, I had said yes? And I chuckle, cause I’m so glad I simply did not 🙂

Criminals, proposing working together and ‘do stuff with diamonds and passports’ and ‘I’ll come live with you’ and I just go… neeeeh. Shacking my head 🙂

In the GeneKeys, where the American LLC, who tried to take over the show after RR had sex with one of them, where grooming me to become a ‘certified Guide’, and I just laughed and told them, you ain’t got that capacity to do so, there is nothing there in your offer, it is hollow, and left/moved on.

My Advaita Vedanta teacher, saying, “you’re so close to realization, and then you can teach others”. She was grooming me, to be a non duality teacher, to become ‘one of them’. And when I look at Adyashanti teaching this stuff, talking about things, I realize, I would never want to sit in a chair and talk about life before, talk about the horrors of the mind and how to look at it differently so you can wake up. Not in a non duality way anyways. I mean, doesn’t he have hobbies? Is this the end result of ‘enlightenment’…? Neeeeh 🙂

A lover who wanted to work together teaching HD, using the 64 material ways to do… yeah what exactly I wasn’t sure, I had never read or listened to the material, and when I tried, I was seriously put off by it. And the pussy wasn’t that good either (no offense, but I mean, the relationship was not of equals) but, these promises just don’t work on me, unless, it is correct -for me-. There is no way to seduce me unless it IS seducing, to ME 🙂

The new Reflector organization that is being ‘made’, to be asked to be part of the tip of the spear is nice and all, but I just don’t have the energy, or desire, the drive, the be part of that tip. Once it runs, sure I may show up and be part of its structure, and be of service to the other, maybe.

I’m so happy that I walked away and moved on, and just do whatever the fuck I want, through my PHS Tone, my individual creativity. And use S&A when others are involved, but they so rarely are, it’s just me and my Tone.

I have no need for the groomers, I have no need to even use S&A on them, I abdicate. And that makes me smile, when I look at the mud they seem to be plunged into. Sticky mud, using so much energy to maintain the ‘thing’, and I could see, it was just not for me.

MoonBlog 36.5 The underground.

Gate 36 of crisis. The darkening of the light.
The rule of cycles in which decline is a natural but not enduring stage.

Gate 36 Line 5 The underground
Exalted: Perfected survival regardless of conditions. Immunity to crisis as both generator and survivor.
Detriment: A nervousness that can lead to self-betrayal. Self-betraying nervousness in times of crisis.

MoonBlog 28.1 preparation

I’m about to throw in the towel, leave all these FB HD groups. Again 😉

The influx of newbies who are drawn in by people like Jenna Zoe selling people ‘Reflector muffins’ and ‘dieting by Type’, combined with the groups admin/moderators too uninterested in keeping the contents about HD.

I really enjoy sharing experience and knowledge with others about HD, in individual sessions, classes and in those groups.

But it seems it is just not my network anymore, when other Certified or semi Professionals also use such groups for shooting from the hip and just blabber from their minds.

I don’t care about the newbie doing so, it is what we are here for, to help guide the way, shine the light, give proper info.

But when the trained, or even certified start doing so, I know it is no longer ‘safe’ for me anymore. When some caretakers take a break themselves, and the groups instantly become much much worse.

Now I know it is in part the Transits cause every single year around this time, this notion happens. I know it is the 4th line overwhelm and sense of abdication.
Is it my Kiron Return of last May? Is it the caving in of the structure of the Cross of Planning too?

I just don’t feel available anymore to the masses, the lurkers, the silent readers, and the network seems depleted, or at least shrinking.

Anyways, maybe see you again elsewhere
(For now, I left a couple of badly moderated groups, and blocked a few more idiots, maybe it helps)
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MoonBlog 7.4 The abdicator

Ramble On

The simple fact of me being here, in these genekeys, confirms my victimhood/martyrdom, I am victim of my own beliefs, of my perceived need to do something about this life, about all that suffering, about all these longing(s).

While it just is (what it is) there is nothing to change, besides my perception and/or judgement/opinion about it (which is another half-truth) There is nothing to escape from or work towards.

Life just is, and I allow myself to be a victim of anything and everything I think life is supposed to mean, or be.
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