So one of the things I’m noticing, especially in my more personal/intimate relationships, is how the other will consistently weigh and measure you with self made-up measuring sticks, including HD, as a means to badger you with ego proving gibberish.

Weaponizing HD, but mainly psycho-analysing you through HD, without the credit HD also gives the Types, only the negatives are seen/measured and then thrown at you, for good ‘measure’.

Sure we can talk about my autism, that “he always sits at his computer”. It is not untrue.
But what are -you- offering instead, great conversations?

And even if so, then one needs breaks from those too, per my Type. Perfectly fine per my Type, per my correct behaviour, per what is correct -for me-. And, your pussy is not that good.

This constant needing to prove ones self, instead of just being human and porkin out, breathing, acclimatising, vibrating, ondulating, contemplate, let it simmer, marinating, or maybe even fucking oblivion. While they’re demanding super human behaviour, or even super human design behaviour, you -have to be- perfect, or else.

And what was then the attraction, you may ask? Energetic, frequency, something to connect with. You connect or even bond energetically, there is a connection.

However, initial connections are never truthful, everyone is always hiding, hiding something, some things. And then slowly slowly they open their mind to you, and that is when the poop starts to pour out, the horse shit, the hurt, the anger, the anguish, the self pity and the external blame(s).

Suggestion: read their blogs first, read their online interaction and skirmishes, first. See if you like -that- person. Cause so many people, are simply very hurt, very broken. Some internalize this and seek some form of comfort or healing, and some only externalize and bite your head off, first chance they get, first thing you ‘say wrong’.

This is my ‘mistake’, cause you jump to the energetic connect, but you’re going to interact with that broken ego/mind too. You will definitely meet it.

Pretending it is part of the experiment, this constant measuring with HD or anything else, this consistent moralistic badgering, pretending to be in the experiment, or being a good (whatever the fuck your Type is)

This constant need to prove behaviour, or be psychologically dissected on anything/everything the whole mf-ing time.

Whichever lens they use, but always as a weapon, never as a means to explore for instance.


MoonBlog 32.4 Right is Might

Gate 32 of continuity, duration. The only thing that endures is change.
Gate 32 Line 4 Right is Might.
Exalted: Even in times of change certain underlying principles endure. The instinct to maintain one’s principles in times of change.
Detriment: Where Jupiter will establish right action in the larger social realm, Saturn’s will lead to inner strength and endurance as long as it is not threatened from the outside. The instinct to maintain one’s principles as long as one’s security is not threatened.