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MoonBlog 63.5 affirmation

Weirdos in the mail

weirdo: “Removing my ability to comment or discuss my take on being a reflector highlighted to me the health of your group so I’ve kindly left. I wish you all healing xxx”

me: “I have done no such thing
I’m not the admin/mod there

but the about rules of that group are quite clear
there are no takes, only experiences. The rest is just mind fodder”

weirdo: “Mine was all experience x”

me: “Wishing healing is pretending something is wrong with those other people, making you a moralistic fascist
mirror mirror on the wall”
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MoonBlog 63.3 continuance

A new experiment (and I hate it already) 🙂

Most people know I live a ‘one thing lead to another’ kinda life. Soup of the day for the Reflector, restaurant analogy, yes? And some things that happen this way are absolutely amazing (positive) and some things are absolutely amazing (negative) 😉

Now my PHS is Color 2 (Taste) and Tone 1 (Smell) making my Taste Open, those are splenic binaries. Through my PHS I have access to a discerning spleen. I’m a natural nose breather and closing my sampling is mouth breathing. And I have Gate 20, twice, one of them my Design Moon, and I call my not-self an emotional manifesting reflector, so there is a lot of immediacy (and a few other Gates allowing me to jump into hyperspace and the opening of the heavens) and all that and more.

I do a lot of tinkering, nerding, melancholic muse driven mind puzzles with musical instruments gear (guitar pedal sequence setup and wiring, amp combinations, tube rolling) and motorbike tweaking (gear ratios, air filters, carb and exhaust tweaking) and recently also some more electronics as in guitar pedal making and now a vacuum tube tester, and so on.

So a lot is bought and sold all the time, all, the, time. Including lots of tools and machinery to do all those things. Which I enjoy a lot. A lot of research goes into it, and I do quite well in finding just the right thing, over time, reading all the reviews and having gained more knowledge and hands on experience of some of the procedures and techniques over the years.

Right now I’m diving into model making, gluing shaped pieces of plastic together and then painting them. Brushing these paints on, looks hideous. So I need an airbrush set-up… (and learn how to use it)

The new experiment is, wait, comma, pause, one lunar cycle before buying anything, -anything-. Everything.

Oh boy….
I already don’t like this… 😉
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Moonblog 49.6 attraction

reflector sampling, or… not-self? 😉

I once bought a Digital Multi Meter. Hadn’t had one in a while and building guitar pedals, working on motorbikes and what not, they come in handy. So I buy a new one from a so-so brand for about 40 bucks I think. Conrad’s own Voltcraft VC175.

At one point it stops working, all I get are four dashes – – – – and not 0.035volts for instance.

So I try to find another one to replace it, second hand this time, and preferably a brand. I find one that looks a bit crummy but is super easy to use and has all the functions that I think I need and it’s a Fluke, 113 model. Stil twice the price of the other one new, but hey, its a Fluke.

Once home I clean the outside up a little with water and soap and use it, and it’s great. Until I need to do some tests and I get weird results. I even end up sending the pcb elsewhere for testing and finding out what is wrong. Turns out, all the tests run fine, my meter is off ! So seemingly fully functioning, but wrong values.

So I decide to scour the interwebs for advice for another one. Cause I’m not that enthusiastic about getting a ‘better’ 200 bucks Fluke this time, even if I love my gadgets and I like well known stuff, but let’s see what the experts have to say. There I find there are kinda 2 camps, the cheapos and the semi-professionals. The cheapos advice the Aneng AN8008 or AN8009 for about 20 bucks, new, incl shipping from China and the semi-professionals advice the Brymen BM235 which costs about 95 bucks brand new, excl shipping.

I realize one meter is no meter, you need to be able to check yours if anything is off. So I decide to buy them both, it’s only 20 bucks extra and the cheaper one is quite liked too, so why not? I see a funny GM328A meter gadget for 3 pin diodes and whatnot for 15 bucks and get that one too.

Realising also, that my electronic work and interest is growing and that maybe it is time for an oscilloscope too. Go into the deep end of measuring and the semi-professionals kinda agree on the Rigol DS1054Z as a great beginners scope, so that one is in the back of my mind/on the wannahave list. Meanwhile I also read up on calibrating Digital Multi Meters and find the ‘DMM Check Plus‘ which comes with a proper calibration report so you can always verify your meters and their measured results, or compare to each other how precise they are, mmm yum, I like that even better ! 🙂

Slowly slowly the meters arrive, and while I’m making a post about the different meters, I see a picture of the inside of the Voltcraft VC175

And I notice 2 fuses… so I open it up and with the new Brymen BM235 I check the fuses, and the 10A 5600V one is working, but the 0.5A 600V is broken. Would it.. could it be?

I order a few spare fuses and once they arrive I replace the broken one and voilà ! No more dashes and reading normal values….

So now having 4 Digital Multi Meters, of which 3 are working fine (fluke is still flakey), one gadgety one, an oscilloscope and a calibrated meter checker/tester, when all I needed was to replace one fuse? Was it?

Happy sampling ! 🙂
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MoonBlog 34.5 annihilation

“The (un)bearable lightness of being…”

“2 days of no transit definition. All 9 centres white. A rare opportunity for Reflectors to savour the complete absence of any kind of pressure from without and within. Difficult to find the right words to express the delight I am experiencing in this limitless space and time, the weightlessness of the body moving around as if floating. No definition, no structure, no mind interfering in this experience of “the (un)bearable lightness of just being there – in wonder…”

Reflectors around the globe – watch out for those days and find a way to be by yourself in those rare moments… you might be up for a surprise!”

and: “It happened again today… yes – it’s difficult to describe in words Isabel Moreira. I imagine that’s why some people use drugs to have that kind of experience. Maybe later on something pops up to share more with my Reflector kin… For now I am just savouring this cosmic bath… in silence… 😶” – Nisarg B. Nikiel

What is this notion of a cosmic bath? Right now the Moon is in Gate 34 forming a temporary conditioned definition with my Gate 20. Besides we’re not here to live the Transits themselves, and even then, our individual experience will always be different, regardless of what the resulting chart looks like. The chart is not the life (!)

The other day (August 21st 2020), Earth was in Gate 30 line 5, which I do not have in my chart, nor do I have Gate 41, but I’ve never seriously felt more depressed and suicidal than ever before, when for instance I was in much more dire situations/outer circumstances. No I was just sitting there on my bed, watching tv, a comedy even, and I became deeply depressed and suicidal. This Gate 30 has always been a huge trigger for me. Nothing cosmic or bath-like for me, unless it was to drown myself in, to die.

There are no fairy tales in Human Design and certainly no homogenization, so when there are no channels formed by the Transits, it does not have to mean anything at all, and most certainly not for all Reflectors, no made up surprises, nothing the same for anyone/everyone else. Even when ‘no definition’ shows up. Nothing is fixed, not positive not negative.

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MoonBlog 51.1 reference

When I started to live on my own, as a young kid still, I would have a coffee and a few cigarettes in the morning, and just fiddle around (pre internet dayz). Then only around lunch time I would eat something, and then dinner again, later on in the evening a cookie perhaps. And did so for many, many years.

In 2009 I stopped smoking and in 2011 I got conditioned to eat breakfast, (at the International Osho Resort) and have eaten breakfast ever since. And have become more overweight ever since. No blame to the resort though.

Understanding what an emotional eater I am, how easily most anything/everything is an emotional trigger, for good, for bad, for happy, for sad, I like eating. And with my PHS of Open Taste and Smell, and undefined Solar Plexus, I eat 🙂

I have esophagus issues, since about 2 years, probably a rupture somewhere at the lower esophageal sphincter (LES), cause of overweight, the only remedy; lose weight.
I went to see a dietitian and she did help me see some interesting things about my food intake, and so some things were changed radically, other things actually increased, like my breakfast intake and to double-up on lunch, since I was underfeeding myself in the morning and at lunch and therefor over eating on way too fatty foods during dinner, besides the whole taste/smell thing. But I kept eating, eating to much, too often.

Maybe not according to any schedule, or system, but according to my body.

So 2 weeks ago I got more esophagus pain, like it was contracting a muscle, or like a leg cramp, but then in your chest, very painful. I checked my weight, and I was heavier then when I started dieting… I knew I was over eating again, and so I quit.

But most importantly, I quit breakfast. Now I just have a coffee in the morning, some interwebz, and then only around lunch time, I eat again.

And that late night cookie is 1 again, not 2, or more.

And I feel a slow deeper layer of feeling fine again, of feeling healthier for eating less, and also, less often, and less emo triggered. I feel lighter inside, even if I have not checked my weight, or am going to check in a while 😉

It is so funny to not have ‘hunger’ issues when following the body’s correctness, for not eating since late night cookie until lunch. Not feeling woozy either. Just very naturally fine. And landing back, digesting exactly like it was before.

Your body already knows, now get out of the ff-ing way.
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MoonBlog 12.6 metamorphosis

Weirdos in the mail

FRI 23:49 Received FB friendship request, accept

Me: Hi, thanks for connecting 🙂

Weirdo: thank you for reaching out and accepting Sjef!

Me: Is it ok to share your (birth) data with me?
Mine are at the bottom here:
http://www.mcha.nl/reflector/

Weirdo: why would you ask for it Sjef?

Me: I always ask for it
https://www.facebook.com/sjef.romijn/posts/1048372788868833
[4/6 Reflector, PLL-DLR, RAX of Rulership] public service announcement:
If you make a FB friend request, but can not even say ‘Hi’ back, you’re out.
If you’re into HD but don’t want to share your HD chart with me, you’re out.
If you ask me HD questions, but don’t (want to) get into studying it, then ask 20 questions in groups, you’re out.

Weirdo: why?
this is private, no?

Me: but it is not a matter of why
it is either correct ofr you to share, or not correct
that is Living Your Design, to follow through on your correctness
not yout mind

Weirdo: if you will explain other than just request it would be easier for me to related to

Me: no, that is your mind being in control

Weirdo: no

Me: which is fine, but then your answer, falsly, is no
which is different than your Inner Authority saying no

Weirdo: falsely? can you explain?

Me: as long as you come up with arguments, like it is private, it is mind deciding
it is not S&A
mind is defending something
but like I said in the link
if, for whichever ‘reason’ you don’t share it
then we’re not going to be fb friends
I only interact with people I do have a chart of
as fb friends that is

Weirdo: I am not coming up with an argument but requesting to understand the why. I think it more than fair.

Me: fair is mind
understanding is mind
Im not here to answer your mind
nor are you here to answer mine
it is correct or not
those are arguments
and I have explained it

Weirdo: my Son needs my attention. whether you wish to be my friend or not is your own call.

Me: absolutely

Weirdo: trust is something you build

Me: is a mental discernment
but if that is your current answer, perfectly fine, no objection
enjoy your day 🙂

Weirdo: i invite you to read some of the things I am writing about friendship and trust
linkedin link
thank you.

Me: I dont have Linked In and Im not interested in the opinions of your mind, arguments
you dont want to share your chart, for whatever reason
so I unfriended you

Weirdo: we will talk more

Me: no we wont

Weirdo: thank you. have a great day Sir.
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MoonBlog 30.5 Irony

When people think it’s about the shininess of the content of the bargain they propose
but it’s all about the initiation, which is irrelevant to you or the contents themselves.

It is simply correct, or, not correct.

Not because of the shiny things you offer, or the results you propose.
Correctness does not care about the this & that of it.

add-on/edit: unless the bargain is sex… I guess, then yes, promised shiny results are key 😉

But when you try to bargain something that is not sex, aahh well
get ready to be surprised 😀
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MoonBlog 52.5 Explanation

Topic raised: “on the fringe and conspiratorial vs. those who are not” & “if the difference here is between individual and tribal circuitry respectively.

To me, it does not seem related to circuitry or even mechanics.

If one has control issues, which is a psychological disorder, then one is doubtful and in ‘against’ mode.

If one is the passenger (again), there is only observation and experience, mind is no longer running the show, and there is no more ‘issue’.

To be in this world but not of it

walking around like a tourist, through lock-downs and Ikea parking lot lines, none of it is personal (anymore).

Whereas the conspiracy theorists, (regardless of whether their particular conspiracy may be factually true!!), still have a (entirely made up) personal stake in outcomes. It’s just ego/mind.

Just like being born tall or short is not personal, but here we are incarnated into this body this time, well, see what it does, how it moves, runs, lays on the couch.

Instead of imposing will and arguments on how and what, life ‘should’ look like. The vanity and intellectual arrogance…

Mind you, I was deeply into conspiracies and anger issues and make-ability syndrome, and much more similar mental illness issues.

That is how I see them now, my mind was running the show and it was sick. Now it’s just crazy but no longer running things. Quite a comfortable/pleasant difference.
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Moonblog 8.2 service

Moonblog 8.2

Sometimes relationships, friendships have had their run. It’s time to let go, and they simply present themselves as such.

Blissfully unaware of that, but then the other starts projecting on you, and when you tell them you’re not ok with that projection, they even tell you to doubt, that you know any better about what you, or your life is like, or about.

Another, out of the blue starts calling you, or what you do/not do, stupid. Well, you may indeed find what I do, or not do stupid, but it sure as shit does not make me stupid.

All of a sudden you realize, they’re trying to hold you back, that you’re going places they do not want you to go, or go in a different way. But that is not up to them, far from it.

Of course the danger is, that you’ve become so distant to certain things in life, maybe perhaps too aloof, or even ‘unemotional’, that you don’t see the forest for the trees. Maybe they hint at a blind spot, that is hard for ourselves to see.

But when the chord of interrelating is indeed cut, and you suddenly feel more free again, when you realize how sticky and controlling it all has become, how much drama was created by that other, ratcheting…

…maybe just maybe, you are indeed better off without them, and it is time for a new network, or some new people in it.

Only -you- can ever know, what is truly correct for you, so:
-don’t hold back
-take no shit
-enjoy yourself

‘Merry happy fucking Kiron Return’

Edit/add-on: the funny thing is, they think they are disqualifying you, when they are disqualifying themselves.
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MoonBlog 28.1 preparation

I’m about to throw in the towel, leave all these FB HD groups. Again 😉

The influx of newbies who are drawn in by people like Jenna Zoe selling people ‘Reflector muffins’ and ‘dieting by Type’, combined with the groups admin/moderators too uninterested in keeping the contents about HD.

I really enjoy sharing experience and knowledge with others about HD, in individual sessions, classes and in those groups.

But it seems it is just not my network anymore, when other Certified or semi Professionals also use such groups for shooting from the hip and just blabber from their minds.

I don’t care about the newbie doing so, it is what we are here for, to help guide the way, shine the light, give proper info.

But when the trained, or even certified start doing so, I know it is no longer ‘safe’ for me anymore. When some caretakers take a break themselves, and the groups instantly become much much worse.

Now I know it is in part the Transits cause every single year around this time, this notion happens. I know it is the 4th line overwhelm and sense of abdication.
Is it my Kiron Return of last May? Is it the caving in of the structure of the Cross of Planning too?

I just don’t feel available anymore to the masses, the lurkers, the silent readers, and the network seems depleted, or at least shrinking.

Anyways, maybe see you again elsewhere
(For now, I left a couple of badly moderated groups, and blocked a few more idiots, maybe it helps)
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MoonBlog 60.5 leadership

Relevant to several FB HD groups: The convo about being bullied or not is a side issue but taking it away from the real issue, the cause for most of these arguments/discussions, where we no longer speak about HD but about how we speak about HD, and how we speak to each other:

Can you be in a group, where people have different ways of talking?

Do you seek to impose ways of communication on others? Like safe spaces and whatnot. Are you easily offended?

Do you argue the tone, and how it (supposedly) -feels- to you (which is thinking btw) what the other has said, but never intended.

Do you seek to manipulate your experiences of life and of conversations with others?

Are your decisions and opinions run by your arrogant mind in a group that seeks to support in moving away from that same mind?

Etc etc.
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MoonBlog 33.2 surrender

When your deeper cravings, wishes and desires, drive your actions, become your motives. To not be aware of these deeper wants, hunger, longing. Not sit with them but resolve them, trying to, filling countless round holes with square pegs (pun intended).

As opposed to be aware of them, honoring them, allowing them to be. To be a lone human on a barren planet, looking for love, looking, looking. Where your conditioned conditions meet the other’s conditioned conditions. Where you find, but not just quite, or seems not, is not, as we knee-jerk onwards. Uh and ah !

A great hunger and appetite for intimacy

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MoonBlog 33.4 dignity

Supposedly the Buddha has said:
“My teaching is a raft whereon men may reach the far shore The sad fact is that so many mistake the raft for the shore”

But what I see often with people dabbling with Human Design and in the HD FaceBook groups is people bitching about that raft, thinking they can take a bus instead, or get a canoe. Get a ride with someone else instead.

And then others ask if there are accommodations on the raft, with sheets and bedding, what time is lunch actually? Wanting the day to day program, stating ahead that they’re not going to do the 2 o-clock meditations ever, ow and probably skip that other class too cause someone else did it and they did not like it.

Then there are those that seek discounts for the crossing without ever knowing the initial price.

Others complain about not being able to swim, or only seek to go when the weather is fine and they have a few free holi-days.

And thus they never reach that far shore, never get to experience what life is going to be like after. Seeing the raft, or teaching as a means to not go, to not ‘get their feet wet’ as a hurdle, when the raft is only just a means to get somewhere else.

It is not about the raft at all. It is not about all these Outer Circumstances.
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MoonBlog 54.6 Selectivity

MoonBlog 54.6 exalted in ‘Three Activations’ View

As someone who is in the experiment well over 11 years, and providing my own Transit/Lunar Cycle service, I find the Transit Tool provided by myBodyGraph very advanced, very elaborate too. Maybe even too advanced for beginners.

However, there is so much functionality in it, some obvious by just clicking here and there, some perhaps not so obvious.

So is it for beginners? Yes and no, for some it will be an online honey pot and resource of incredible information, for others it might be a nerd fest of overwhelm.

At the same time, the information that is provided, like all Retrograde Planets, and when they start or end doing so, and other statistics, the live view is fascinating.

Over time one will use a few key functions I presume, you may gravitate towards some different ones than I would, and because it is so elaborate and vast this is all possible.

When having access to Steps 2 and 3 on just one chart, but then not having that same access in the Transit Tool is unfortunate and only overcome by buying the unlimited access.

My Transit Cycle Sequence in full

And sometimes I end up in another information layer I need to remind myself to click the exit cross on the right and come back to the big overview of menus again, where I can then play again with which information to show:
Themes, keynotes and Lines under Planetary Activations
Keynotes, Not-Self Keynotes, Not-Self Questions under Centers
Keynotes under Channels
Elaborate Ordering options under Gates
The many, many ‘hover mouse over’ information baloons

And once activating some of the many options in the ‘show’ menu under the Moon Cycle, another vast bank of info opens up to play with, which I enjoy very much, which I can imagine any beginner struggling with, but starting out with selecting and deselecting which options to show, may help there indeed.

The Ephemeris part did not phase me that much, but can imagine other people have a field day looking forwards or back to certain events, although limited to the years 1900 – 2060. Ok I tried actually and got from December 31st 1899 until May 30st of 2061 😉

Add on: What is odd to me and may confuse others, is the use of the blue and green color. In the MMI, when making a Transit Chart, what is Resonant or you, becomes Green and what forms a Channel (Harmonic) is Blue. In this tool it is the other way around. Luckily there is also the Three Activations view, where the Red & Black of your own chart remain intact and Transits are Green, as seen in the picture top right.

Do check out the descriptions and screenshots here: https://www.mybodygraph.com/shop/product/transit-tool before buying, to see if it tickles you funny, or perhaps not.

A big thanks to Pontus Erik Karlsson (5/1 Reflector) from https://www.thekeytoyourself.com for being paramount in the idea, development and implementation of this online resource.
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MoonBlog 35.1 Humility

Choice is the expression of a speculation

Either you have choice, and then always have (a) choice and thus makes you a God, cause you can then manipulate it all and everything.

Or you have none whatsoever. (Who once said, try holding your pee in for xx hours?)

There are quite a few things in my life, that sometimes people comment on, positive or negative, but I know, I could not, not do them.

Helpless and incompetent indeed.

Including studying HD the way I have. And now I can’t anymore. I’m done, at least for now, and there is plenty to study more, but I’m good.
Plenty of non HD books to read also; nope, no more, I’m done searching, no more life questions, no more seeking any answers.

Being a passenger requires no doing, and thus it requires no consideration of a concept like choice, or no choice. This too then simply becomes irrelevant.

The question itself, to understand, know, grok, find out the truth about it, is just another distraction by mind to see if there is still just one other thing to control, like really pretty please, how about this one then, no? This one then, ow…

Which if you can not not do that, great

“All the knowledge burns down in the face of Strategy & Authority” -Dirk Nellens (4/6 Reflector)

All knowing becomes irrelevant. All information gets their proper value; which is none. Only mind valuates and files/stores info into categories.

When you no longer need information to make decisions, or even opinions on/about, when mind is no longer the go-to (re)solver of issues caused and considered by the very same mind.

Something is either correct for you, or not correct for you. The Magnetic Monopole already knows, (re)cognizes it, if the frequency is stabilized between Design Crystal and it. Our identified Personalities Mind is the ignorant one. And we may become aware of this correctness too, or ‘we’ may not. More irrelevance.

I see this Trajectory as Tarzan swinging from liana to liana, as the Program provides situations, energies, swinging, dancing, fluid, agile, and hop and hop. Through all the supposed ‘choices’ of life, through the maze, this one, that one, this one is for me, that one is correct, on and on and on.

And some of us crash into trees, sometimes, a lot, all the time, hard.

Does this answer whether we have a choice, to stabilize this frequency? No it does not.
But who/what is demanding it should do so in the first place, aggressively?

But also: Human Design Unleashed – The Choice
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MoonBlog 61.5 Influence

So I noticed quite a few of the questions and experiences of some Reflectors here (Human Design Reflectors FaceBook group), stem from feeling/perceiving to be off kilter, unhinged even, unbalanced mostly.

I’d like to give my view on how and why that is, and yes there is a how to this 😉

So, when we, as Reflectors, follow our Strategy & Authority, meaning when we -apply- it, when we use it for our decision making, the results are something else. When I first met Human Design 11 years ago (last Monday), I simply could never have imagined such a way of going about things. I’m someone who needs to be told, and then I can play with it, and can dive quite deep in experimenting. But before I’m told/explained, I have no clue and wonder around like an idiot, lost, deeply lost.

I met Human Design roughly 18 months before I ever saw my chart, and so it did not make sense, I could not ‘use’ it, I didn’t even know there were charts, so it was just another blabla story to me. And this guy with the funny hat did not appeal either. But when I was given my chart, at age 38, now I had some kind of framework to jump off from, explore with, I kinda had a baseline.

So, apply, apply, apply, rinse and repeat. Making a stink of it, doing really bad, not following it, telling myself all kinds of stories about what HD was and wasn’t and of course my overgrown identifications with what/who I thought I was and had become and my abilities.

But that was just the first part of it, and something I realized again last night as I contemplated some of this groups topics and comments.

But first, another part of becoming more self, and truly whatever this self is, whether it is a this kind or that kind, more like this or more like so, becoming and being you depends on understanding and having experimented, experienced your individual Lunar Cycle and thus how you sample life, differently. Which can be a bit of a leap to get into, but after a while it is like a fish swimming in water, since it is all about the observation. Not the interpretation, not even the (limits of our) perception, it’s observation, and we get better and better at it once we start, go there, get experienced with it. And we already are quite perceptive as Reflectors, so, focusing on that, really helps to get a better sense of this illusive, non consistent self.

And through it, again, more relaxation, in ourselves, and in life. And maybe even feeling empowered (a word I hardly ever use). Not in control mind you.

But, and this is, to me at least, a mix of mechanics and its results of using them correctly, the frequency between the Design Crystal in us, and our Magnetic Monopole is unstable, most of the time. And this is where PHS and Environment come in. Because through the application of correct Digestion, and physically being in the right frequency of my correct Environment, we stabilize that frequency.

We can not stabilize the frequency between the Personality Crystal and the Magnetic Monopole and so we’ll always see-saw between our Motivation and our Transference, between our View and our Distraction, but we can stabilize the frequency of the Design, of the body. And through that stable frequency, the Magnetic Monopole can then hook us up to our correct Trajectory through life.

In about a week, I’m at the mid point of my Kiron Return, coming off the Roof as a 4/6, and so stuff is noticeably changing, except what the change itself is, but I do notice a change of frequency field, for me, to me, with me. I slowly begin to perceive to be called, called out, outside, to the floor, off the roof, and so yesterday I had a lovely chat with someone about many things Human Design and when I came home it dawned on me, I needed to apply my PHS, it is my baseline, it is my go to. Not for the atoms of the food that I eat, not for the actual taste or aroma of those atoms that I digest. But for stabilizing that frequency !! It was after my lovely dinner (which is quite fixed to what I can and can not eat) but also my late night snack, which also is repetitive, according to my PHS, it came to me:

My stability in this life as I perceive and you can too, is because of the stability of that frequency between my Design Crystal and my Magnetic Monopole. And it’s like a game of dominoes. If one is off, all could be off. I become unbalanced, unhinged even, insecure, a mess, emotionally, mentally, spiritually, physically.

To realize how subtle yet profound the implications are, and how relatively easy it is to simply go there, and do, apply.

And this is without any Transits consideration even. Those can really add to my experience, for good or bad. And so my perception of life becomes distorted when I don’t, my ‘vulnerability’ for lack of a better word, to life becomes greater when I don’t Digest correctly, when I’m in the wrong Environment, in the wrong frequencies, digesting the wrong people, the wrong words, food, energies.

So I felt like sharing that with this group, because it is simple yet profound. Live your Design, step by step, slowly slowly. Becoming stable in our openness.

Add-on: One of the things I did yesterday, was I went quite the length to get one of my fav foods. Even though I was a bit tired and I had to go to the other side of the city center (I live on the North East side of it) and then 1 other neighborhood, which is quite the journey with all the one way streets and traffic lights and rush hour too. But in that doing, it became more than simple atomic sustenance for the body, it became spirit food.

MoonBlog 61.5
Gate 61 Mystery, inner truth. The awareness of universal underlying principles
Gate 61 Line 5 Influence
Exalted: The enlightened Father figure whose recognized wisdom and powerful assertion can mold a generation by its influence. The pressure to know that may result in influence and wisdom.
Detriment: A tendency in power to want to enforce compliance to ensure lasting influence. The pressure in knowing to resent challenges and demand acceptance.
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MoonBlog 49.1 the law of necessity

Birgitte,

in order to consider your request of removing all content regarding you, I will accept the following:

-unblock me on FaceBook first, by all your FB accounts/aliases.
-post an apology for smearing me, my name and my HD work falsely, be just as elaborate as you were smearing me, make this post public. A video message is acceptable too.
-Edit that specific smearing topic on your FB wall (do not delete it) to first make the post public, then to include the apology.
-write to all people you’ve written before complaining about me, like FB group admins and so on, with this public apology.
-Show me proof of all these.

The same applies for all others involved in that topic.

Then, I will take a full Lunar Cycle to consider your request.

Soap sequence here: http://www.mcha.nl/tag/soap/
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MoonBlog 2.5 Intelligent application

The Reflector Lunar Cycle is not a ritual to obey and follow, that when you don’t, someting bad happens.

It is not about ticking off all the boxes of pre-requisites, and then live happily ever after either.

It’s about becoming such a calm silent observer, for the incredible subtleties of what is already going on, outside (transits, people) and inside (perceptions, experiences) self and not-self, that you can live in awareness of where life takes you, what your Trajectory is, and to relax into how choice-less we all are.

To surrender to that, and see, observe and witness, what that is like.

While dancing the jitterbug, riding your bicycle, making out, cooking dinner or anything else.

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MoonBlog 23.3 Individuality

On the purity of Human Design or mixing it with other frameworks/modalities:

It has nothing to do with following one persons words (Ra Uru Hu) by the letter, or even the Human Design framework ‘to a fault’.

It is about seeing that “all knowledge burns down in the face of Strategy & Authority” and having seen that, experienced it.

By tinkering with it, to add or subtract, we’re tinkering with knowledge alone.

For instance I’ve been in several GeneKeys DeepDives, was live in London with Richard and others just before the book got out, did GK Host and Guide training, was asked to become a GK Guide, and had a great time exploring my emotional world through it. It was incredibly valuable to me and everyone else I know or came in contact with.

But as I also deepened my experience with HD I came to see, that not HD, not Ra, not GK, not any of it, not PHS, not this economic framework or that political philosophy, not Advaita Vedanta was key, but S&A was, my S&A for me, by me.

It truly holds everything, to make those decisions by yourself, which is often times not even decision -making- but realization of what is correct. The dawning awareness of that reality.

And that there is nothing wrong with someone telling me this.

The funny thing is, people claim and clamor that they are free to mix it (which they are), how open and progressive that is, but as soon as someone is telling them (why) not to mix it, all the openness and progressiveness is out the window and they become fundamentalist mixers all of a sudden, just like what they accuse others of doing ! 🙂

While more and more HD people shake their heads and become more and more silent in FB HD groups because of the enormous influx of people indeed wanting to mix, or as they fear the no choice dilemma, to at least have the option as they then cling to it and defend it ferociously, but not creating their own mix groups, but instead just take over the conversations, loud, arrogant, obnoxious, as they promote their mix, and then another mix, and yet another other with another mix.

Mixing it, is not experimenting with it. Hiding behind others and become false group thugs is not you living it.

Writing their own books, giving more, giving less, changing this, changing that, while standing on the basics of HD, while trampling it all the same. Ignoring the pearls from within it as changing one word or syllable has more importance, than -living- it or learning to, as their ego’s are boasted by the people that buy stuff from them, thinking both parties are on the right track, of manipulating life, of creating shortcuts to salvation and the end of their suffering.

That is not duality at all, “ignoring the yin (dark), only seeking yang (light), living only half of a dualistic life, for moral superiority”

I’ve had access to tons and tons and tons of HD and mixed or altered information, and to see, not just for me, but for so many others too, that even pure HD info is not the key, the information is just a drug (gateway drug?) is just for the mind to think it can outsmart life, pretend to change the mind with more/better information. And Ra was the pusher of it, by popular demand.

And then mind make all these and those connections, and thus indeed combine structures, insights, frameworks.

Until *plop* hey, wait a minute, more info is not supporting actually, it is aggravating, it is steering me in an ever more mental direction of thinking to know, to -understand- but it is a lie.

I don’t need more -information- to make my decisions, I need to find out what my decision -IS-, first, without my powerful mind, and listen to that body consciousness, and follow its directions.

I don’t need to know what Color 3 -means-, I need to -live- it.
To apply it, use it, and see how it responds, reacts, struggles, and observe that, notice it behaving. I don’t need to know what Gate the Moon is in right now to live it. Yes it is awesome to understand what energies are present right now, how I sample life differently, right now. But -knowing- what Gate it is in, does not change how I -experience- life, right now.
-edit- it actually does change the experience, but not for good, cause it steers the focus, it limits the openness of observation, because of pre-conceiving the experience, of setting the mind up for how the experience should/might/could look like in the first place.

And yes information of the framework of the how and why or when is interesting, but by just living it, it really does not matter if Reflectors are called Observers or Evaluators, and anyone (!) -selling- you that it does matter, has an agenda not to free you as a passenger, but is a prisoner of their own opinions on things, and help you become one too. And as we find our mental equals, we can salute each other and tap each other on the back for how fucking smart we are for knowing better than silly old Ra, but never outsmarting our own damn minds…

“Look at me, I’m pointing at the moon”, they say, look I changed HD and mixed it with this and that, want to hear my recipe, my version of how my mind made it -seem- better, so you can seem to feel better about it too. In your head?

No matter if you are called Richard Rudd, Karen Curry/Parker, Steve Rhodes or Juliane Hahn.
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MoonBlog 39.4 Temperance

The last part on the Reflector is nonsensical homogenization, and fantasy wishful thinking writing based on a theoretic understanding of Reflectors.

“Having clear boundaries and conscious awareness of what’s really going on during the game will help him not be overwhelmed by others or feel disappointed in the way the game is going but rather feel a sense of surprise and wonder at the excitement and flow of it all.”

Those pre-requisites of ‘having clear boundaries and conscious awareness’ are unattainable for any/all Reflectors and can not be used as a tool to counter such influences, this is just pretending to have any such control over the influence of the experience, first, and for all Reflectors, second. 7 centered Make-ability syndrome all over again.

Also as if being overwhelmed is something to avoid, first, and or bad, second, but most of all as if one actually can avoid any of the experience in such a way. But then also, as if ‘feeling a sense of’ [anything] is the goal! And then particularly or specifically “surprise and wonder at the excitement and flow of it all” as if Reflectors are toddlers or something, what the actual…?

Reflectors/Evaluators (still waiting for any proof that Ra himself ever called Reflectors Evaluators) do sample, do experience, but this way of writings suggests one only is one if one feels this sense of surprise and even wonder, first, but for the flow of it all? There is no room for things not flowing (say an accident happens with a player breaking a leg infield and needs medical attention, or a fight among players from opposing teams, or opposing fans), no room for unexcitement, which happens much MUCH more often than not and is just as valid an experience, especially when IT IS the actual experience of this, or that Reflector.

But also, as if 3 Reflectors, or 300 would experience all the same in the same situation, first, and only if they have clear boundaries and conscious awareness (can we measure this, is that in kilograms, or other units?) second.

Ah man… this is truly fantasy blabla-land.

Edit/add-on: it seems in BG5 there is no deconditioning and therefor something external must bring forth the peace, satisfaction, success and surprise (and wonder at the excitement and flow of it all), when living your design it is not brought (in/out?) by external factors, it is a result of you Living Your Design.

I can understand if one teaches things in certain ways, this is the conclusion people arrive at. And therefor surprise and awe/wonder happens because of this (positive thing only), or because of that (any other positive outer circumstance) because the teaching itself omits how it does work, so it does not sound too googoogaga, when in fact that is the -only- realm it does functions in: dark matter and dark energy.

And therefor has become yet another way of misrepresenting Reflectors and what they are and how they do work/function, when HD is probably the only tool available to explain Reflectors well, they seem to fucking miss the mark on each occasion.
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MoonBlog 12.3 Confession

Question: “How do reflectors approach each other if we are supposed to be initiated?”
One answer: “Where do such distortions come from? What does it mean to be initiated?”

Why call it a distortion when you’re not sure yet what it is?
Doubt versus inquiry.

Anyways. This is a nice example of being initiated but needing to process, and I wrote about it 6 years ago here:
http://www.mcha.nl/2012/10/29/initiate-me/

But I’ll add: to me, it is the perception of kick-starting my processing. Just like both your question/answer has. I felt, perceived, noticed I was initiated to answer this one, so I started processing it to answer, and in the mean time saw this question a few times during, but still nothing came to me to answer, while still perceiving, noticing to be initiated by it.

So someone comes along and does something, it could be towards you (a hug, a shout, a question, a smile) and you notice a shift by it, through it. It could also be a TV-ad, a picture you see online.

Nothing magical, nothing really special or something, just this perception, that yes, this is for me -to process- to maybe/perhaps engage with. When or how, is something else, but to notice this, first, is important. To perceive to be, initiated. No distortion here.

And sometimes, someone comes, asks, tells, does whatever, and I clearly notice -not- to be initiated. That it is not for me to process, which is a lot of the time. Much more than when I actually am (or perceive to be) initiated. No distortion here either.

So also, it is clear it is not the other persons doing, that they purposefully initiate me, with their agenda. Sure they could, and many do. But it is about me feeling that this, yes, has initiated me to process.

And then I do.

And then I wait, until the processing has finished and I know, yes, or no. Now I can do this, or interact with this someone on their question/journey, whatever it was they asked of me. Or no, I can not.

So when something is for me and me alone, no one else needs to initiate me. Like eating, or playing guitar.

When someone else is involved I need to be initiated, going out to dinner, or play in a band. This could be done by another person, but not necessarily. You can find out for yourself how it works for yourself, each Reflector for themselves.

There is talk that between people of the same Type, there is no Strategy; so Manifestors don’t need to inform each others, Generators not wait to respond, but I’m not sure if that is true. And I have seen examples of this not always working, so…

To answer the initial question: “How do reflectors approach each other if we are supposed to be initiated?” is, you experiment. Try it out by initiating yourself. Or, notice if you are already initiated by something to contact this Reflector. And if you notice, no, this feels off, I do not perceive to be initiated, even though my mind keeps annoying me with the subject, then see that, notice that, and move on. Sometimes we already are long time initiated and processing/operating accordingly without us being consciously aware, and sometimes we are not initiated but our minds heckle and harass us about it as if we should be.

What I learned through my journey in Human Design, is that before HD I thought life was really rough, and tough, and clear and black and white, that the way people interacted was always clear-cut and ‘manifested’ (for lack of a better word). This is this, and that is that. And I came to find it is incredibly subtle really, and nuanced, very delicate at times. And I was completely blind and unaware that these fine and even minute principles did run me, triggered me, initiated me already, loooong before I or my mind noticed any of it. HD helped me see these finer details of when, why and how I am triggered by external things, that kick-start my processing.

And that having this incredibly rough perception made me incredibly blind. To me being me, myself.
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MoonBlog 10.4 The opportunist

Weirdos in the mail:

and this took 20 minutes…

Weirdo: how would you describe gate 26?

Me: describing I wouldn’t so much,a s know it, what it is capable of
but yeah BIG EGO is one

Weirdo: whhy is it called egoist
what are people projecting on me if i have 26.5

Me: you do have it !

Weirdo: hahaha
unconciouss

Me: which is all they see

Weirdo: what do you mean?

Me: you think only about your Personality traits, while everyone only sees your Design traits
lots of mindy questions there bud

Weirdo: yeah why not mindy questions?
its interestimg

Me: book a session?

Weirdo: nah 😀
but people do see you personality and design right

Me: then my big ego says: bye 🙂
no
only you see P
only they see D

Weirdo: oh ok
but even my 22.2 conciouss sideshould be projected on , are you sure what you are talking about ?

Me: dude, go fuck yourself
are you drunk?

Weirdo: well whats your problem ? im just asking ? haha, im curious
not my fault if you have a bad day

Me: no you’re questioning me, while asking me, while not paying me, wasting my time
ah good, yeah all my fault
the end, you’re behaving like an asshole
(nice example of 26 response for you) *unfriend+block messaging*
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