• MoonBlog 25.4 survival

    ByBaffo

    “Thoughts on the 40-37 nodes?
    I saw a lot being said about the nodes change for the 6/36 and then 63/64, but for the 40-37, it’s so quiet 😆
    We are all going to feel this emotional definition, and I am so curios how the non emotional people will feel it. This is a long transit, that will affect everyone, unlike a planettary one, where only some people may hook up on a hanging gate. As this is a full channel on its own, this will be interesting to see how it shows up. We will all feel that defined SP and Ego 😆
    I am also curios as I have my D Sun and Earth in these gates, so for me this period feel very nice, for now. I have never felt so calm, determined and focuse before 😄 I mean I have felt it before, but not at this intensity. I feel huge as a mountain…metaphorically speaking 🤣
    Happy holidays! And please share your thoughts, whenevee you have time.”

    I always ponder when (Sun/Earth or Nodes) are in Gates that on the surface of the map, form a channel: 20-34, 23-43 and 40-37

    It is not like there is an actual channel formed, between 2 points in the sky or even Sun and Earth, out in space, like in a person with those activations.

    The channel shows up only because of how we map the Transits. Which seems very Plato’s cave to me. And then us mind fucking the (surface of) the chart.

    “We are all going to feel this” Nope.
    “Maybe we will witness” Is just making up meaning/purpose, it’s superstition, wishful magical thinking

    To me I observe them as 2 activations, transits, transitory and external.

    For instance do I notice/perceive the (Transit of the) 34, yes, but then I have the 20. I call the 34 the dishwasher gate, because all of a sudden I perceive myself doing, doing, doing much more chores, running outside, maybe even twice or more, in one day even, for a few days.

    Do I notice/perceive the 23-43 or 40-37, as channels? Mmnnnno/t so much, not as I can see people who have these, behave.

    Is the energy present, yes it is, unmistakably. So do I perceive Ego/Heart and Solar Plexus -definition- ? Not really/necessarily.

    Paradoxically something similar to when someone says: “2 days of no transit definition. All 9 centres white. A rare opportunity for Reflectors to savour the complete absence of any kind of pressure from without and within.” blog link here: https://www.mcha.nl/2020/12/13/moonblog-34-5-annihilation-2/

    Because then one could have 1 or more dormant potentials hook up with those Transit energies. And on the surface of the map, all of a sudden have 2 or many more centers defined.

    Observe, journal, and maybe/perhaps becoming aware of that mind already making up stories about future events, and thus (b)locking experiencing the experience from our perception, from our view.

    edit/add-on:
    “so would you say, in your observations, that Nodes transits don’t influence our energy that much, or that when full channels are activated by the transits (and here I include any planet or node), people who don’t natively have that channel won’t feel anything changing in their energy?”

    I say, channels (definition) is -only- formed in living beings (humans in this case), not in outer space.

    So even when one has Gate 20 (me) and Gate 34 is in the Transit, to me this does not become a channel/definition, but I do perceive that one activation (the 34) as an influence.

    and thus, 20-34, 23-43, 37-40, in outer space, of 2 points/planets, never become defined, unless activated within one person/living being.

    Whether and how much you perceive of those 2 nodal transit activations, is something for each and every one of us, to observe and see/journal.
    It can not possibly be otherwise, and certainly not homogenized to (need to) be experienced a. by all and b. the same.

    That would be the unscience of homogenization.

    Now any influence, person, transit, actual weater (rain, cold, heat) can effect someone, and have an effect, but this is always one plus one, me as an active filtering agent, of the Moon, or Nodes, or whatever else (a dog, someone shouting, classical music), so the Moon did not do this to me, but me + that Moon, creates a perceived effect, in me, with me, through me.

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  • “The 4/6 Reflector: A Living Mirror at the Crossroads of Connection and Maturity”

    ByBaffo

    “To live as a 4/6 Reflector is to inhabit the world as both participant and witness.”
    Just like every other human being on planet Earth, this supposed ‘differentiation, or uniqueness, is not, different or unique as this applies to all humans.

    “To feel the pulse of humanity in one’s body and yet know, with an almost aching clarity, that nothing truly belongs to you.”
    I never experienced the pulse of humanity in my body or ever had aching clarity that nothing truly belongs to me, ever.

    “The Reflector aura is sampling, tasting, and reflecting back the energetic quality of the environment.”
    Nope, 15 Reflectors in one environment (been there, done that), will (potentially) all experience, sample and reflect something entirely different(ly), there are thousands upon thousands upon thousands of different Reflectors. https://www.mcha.nl/2015/07/29/moonblog-58-4-focusing/

    “And when you overlay that with the 4/6 profile, the heart of the Networker and the vision of the Role Model, you get a being who is designed to cultivate deep relational bonds while slowly maturing into wisdom through cycles of disillusionment, withdrawal, and renewal.”
    Or not. HD is not math, these are not formulas. Nothing is fixed.

    “The 4/6 is already a study in duality. The first number, the 4th line, seeks stability, intimacy, and genuine friendship.”
    Everything is (a study) in duality, and the 4th line seeks nothing, is make belief, wishful thinking.

    “It is the line of the opportunist. Not in a manipulative sense, but in the way life unfolds through people. Everything for the 4th line happens through relationships. There’s a trust in the connective tissue between souls, an instinct for building community. For a Reflector, this relational theme is magnified, because the very nature of a Reflector’s openness means you become the mirror for those you are close to. You feel them, you become them, you reflect them.”
    ah hell no. No-one becomes anything else but them. Feeling, ok, Reflecting ok, becoming, is impossible, physically and mechanically, biologically, nope nope nope.

    “This makes environment and people not just important but existentially defining.”
    make belief and weaponizing HD, this is not as forced/fixed as made out to be. Again, not math, not formulas.

    “The 4/6 Reflector’s wellbeing and clarity depend entirely on the frequency of the world they inhabit.”
    Which clarity are we speaking of, I sure hope not mental clarity, cause besides overrated, clarity is not the deal (or ‘goal’ if you must) it is not a result, and not measurable either.

    “The community must be clean enough, aligned enough, for truth to emerge.”
    hell fuck no, this is placing conditions on Outer Circumstances, this is result oriented thinking (and gibberish), truth can emerge anywhere. Yet this Reflector may pick up on this truth in this unclean unaligned environment, and that Reflector on that one. And besides which kind of clean are we even talking about, and aligned with what exactly?

    “When the environment is healthy, the Reflector’s natural glow is magnetic.”
    absolute horseshit, this is magical wishful thinking and forces the Reflector on monkey tricks needed behaviour, it is ignoring duality (a foundational pilar of Human Design) and ignores the thousands upon thousands upon thousands of different Reflectors, again.

    “Their insights precise, their perspective transformative.”
    same as above

    “When it isn’t, they collapse under the distortion of what they are reflecting, mistaking the pain of others for their own.”
    This is not so dependant on the Outer Circumstances but on the Reflectors own deconditioning in one part, but on duality also, Human Design is not math !! And thus to pretend things are as fixed and strict and structured is complete and utter nonsense, period. Sure the identification with the pain of others is a potential, but this collapse is not (a) given.

    “Then there’s the 6th line. It unfolds in three distinct life stages: the trial-and-error of the first thirty years, the retreat and observation of the midlife plateau, and the embodiment of wisdom after fifty. For the Reflector, this progression is especially poignant.”
    no, this is not (a) given. There are no such rules, Human Design describes a framework of mechanics, but the experience of these mechanical absolutes is not fixed as such. (And I am a 4/6 Reflector after Chiron Return, into HD since about 5 years before my Uranus Opposition)

    “The first stage feels like a raw experiment. Sampling identities, communities, belief systems, endlessly shape-shifting in search of something that feels authentic.”
    Nope not endlessly shape-shifting, this is not a given trajectory of what the experience will look like for all 6th line Reflectors during the first stage.

    “Yet authenticity, for a Reflector, is never static. It’s about alignment in the moment.”
    pfrt horse shit, -it- is not ‘about alignment in the moment’ this is NewAge gibberish, pretending there are things to do (align in the moment) or else, and ‘it’s about’ presented as a ritualistic goal to endeavour, which is simply made up. The passenger witnesses, in the moment, or does not, witness, in the moment. The end.

    “When the 6th line moves onto the roof (around the Saturn return), there’s a pull toward withdrawal. A deep need for distance, reflection, and quiet observation.”
    Not a need, it is not internal, it is not a choice, it is mechanical. It is not psychological !
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  • Who do you think, you think, you think you are?

    ByBaffo

    To know/understand this part, this separation of Mind, identified Personality, Personality imprint, Personality Crystal, Passenger is paramount to grokking Human Design well, it’s just that so many were never taught this.

    https://www.mcha.nl/2017/09/22/from-what-i-have-observed/

    In most if not all of the surface information Ra hints at it, but it does not become that clear, so I can understand why so many struggle with it, cause they simply wouldn’t know any better, and come from other modalities that talk for instance about how our subconscious (or supra conscious even) is the real you, which you can then access with wild mind writing, and so on.

    Or how somewhere inside is an internal tape player and that you can change the tape. Or, in the next life be/have a different tape player all together 🫥

    In regular speak your ‘personality’ is deemed to be how you are, how you behave naturally, what is your core essence of being and reasoning even. When in HD we know it as ego/mind and running just like any other software program.

    In some modalities this difference is more clear but then that we can train in or out of those, improve this ‘ego’ to ‘self’-made up ideas and morals and rules and social tolerable rituals and even thoughts. And then identify with the progress ‘we’ (think we) made.

    Not easy indeed. Can we maybe play/focus on that with some posts/info/links/downloads? Seems like a clear need.

  • MoonBlog 16.2 the cynic

    ByBaffo

    So many people achieve a sense of self worth and identity, in comparison, so through their work circle, the people they know through hobby or activity, the causes they adhere too, or not adhere too at all, whom they invite and not invite for their birthdays, by which car/brand they drive/own, what kind of house, its value, the street or neighbourhood it is in, which tools they prefer over that one, the store they do, or do not shop in, online or In Real Life. It is a form of snobbism and separation/exclusion, mentally, how they separate themselves from ‘them’, how their me, is an ‘us’.

    Even if of course there is no logic to that because of all the different people in this circle versus that one, and they meander into several different ones, since not everyone who lives in a house like theirs, pays the same amount of taxes, or indeed drives the same brand/version of car, and then very different people shop there or vote for him/her.

    Human Design helps you connect with yourself, through your own actions and your own correctness, by your very own observations and those alone. It helps you value and identify yourself, as your very own self, and is not dependant on these others in the same groceries store, or at the same tennis shoe store, anymore.

    It stops measuring and comparing with those ‘happenings’ as a meaning and knowing full well separation is there but of a very different kind, uniqueness does not need any comparison or snobbism, and has no use for self aggrandization thoughts by diminishing others nor does it look up to anything else ever again.

    You get to hold yourself warmly, by how you wash your dishes, make and drink your coffee, all by yourself, for yourself.

    Which you may want to share about with others about. But not to explain yourself, defend yourself, aggrandise yourself. Just you drinking this coffee from that machine with whatever you do or not put in it.

    Just you, by yourself, alone, being your own comfortable Inner Authority (center based or process based). Even in those moments when not that comfortable at all. Just uniquely you.
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  • if it snarls, you’re still safe

    ByBaffo

    “Only individuals are designed to be lone wolves. The collective is not, and it’s really essential to see that.” (Channels By Type)
    “And you have all of these sheep who think they’re wolves running around like chickens. What to do.” (Design Concepts)
    “Manifestors are Not Sheep, but Wolves” (Manifestor Manifesto)
    “The future isn’t about wolves and sheep. It’s about the absence of wolves and sheep; they’re no longer the point.” (Rave Anatomy 1)
    “One of the things that I talk a lot about is that Human Design trains sheep to be wolves, because that’s really what it is, to stop being this everybody-has-authority over-me and start being I-have-authority-over-myself.” (The four views)
    “Every human being has a mechanism that allows them to claim authority in this life. Ah, the generations and generations and generations of inbred sheep. You see, this knowledge is for wolves. It is for those that are ready to stand by their own authority.” (the not-self lecture from the differentiation lectures)

    And oh so many sheep try… to be, wolves… and so many wolves are false sheep, pretend sheep. Until the dawning and you can see them without their make-up 😉
    But as the saying goes, “You can take the [ ] out of the [ ], but you can’t take the [ ] out of the [ ].” fill in the blanks yourself huh?

    via https://www.facebook.com/reel/2622219421504472
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  • Human Design middle path

    ByBaffo

    not ‘middle of the road’
    I see a few distinct versions of Human Design practices happening

    Sandhill Crane (Antigone canadensis)

    -one is the overzealous crowd, taking the ‘wrong’ things too literal and are basically too stupid to zoom out and ‘relativize’, but more importantly, pressure themselves and peer pressure others to force-fuck this ‘Living Your Design’ into this incorrect understanding on their decision making. This is the HD cult makers (which they vehemently deny), just a handful of bullies is enough, intellectually smart, socially stupid. (Over)zealous fucktards I call these (which is a technical term). It is a mind fuck and ‘just another trap’. More incompetent than helpless.

    -another part or version is (and quite many certified professionals fall into this category) those that pretend they are better than others, calling others psychotic, narcissists, creating an HD Professionals ‘privilege’ society and making HD into a religious practice to boot, where HD becomes math; formulas, bullies here too. Incredibly banal and numbing, intellectual and social stupidity. Robotic assholes is my term for these since any sense of humanity has left them. Kindly just go fuck yourselves.

    Funny in between story: a number of/quite a few (…) Certified HD Professionals, are Flat-Earthers, no joke

    -on the other far side of the spectrum, is the make-ability idealist junkies, where weaponizing HD to serve your identified idiot is key. With or without rituals, but these are the wanna-be light workers who are lead by the dark hatters. This is ego masturbation and gratification, in the name of a better me, a better world, if only you sign up for more. These also include the many doubters and confusion artists making new versions of HD, these are the ‘intellectually challenged’, socially ok-ish, until they open their mouth/mind. New Age cow-dung sellers and dwellers, wondering why their world smells of well, cow-dung. Flaming do-good idiots whose only weapon is argumentation. Just another belief system towards hell, paved with good intentions but ultimately falls so short that they hurt themselves and others.

    – and there is a middle path in all of this kerfuffle. Which is nowhere in the middle actually, but to give it a name…
    To understand how human you are, how HD gives you mechanical absolutes yes, just not factual absolutes, not all come out, are ever witnessed or alive in you, the surrendering to that which is, and observe it, if you can, if you even can. And to include this inability too. To operate within the breadth of factual capacity and ability, availability. Sometimes more of this, some days none of it. To let your mind be judgmental, and run the show some times, because you know you are helpless and incompetent and that loving yourself means you are helpless and incompetent about it. Without ever having to need to hand over your own agency or Authority, to any one, while sometimes not being able not to. (ah yes paradoxical) To be religiously unreligious about life. To witness and see, whatever and however much as you possibly can, and can not. To include, that which is your experience. To be dualistically non-dualistic. To fuck up and see, wing it as long as not arrested for. Or sometimes do get arrested for and to include that. To be realistic about your unrealistic expectations. To be driven by your mind, your ego, your ego/mind, your lust, your false desires, unwarranted and unwanted yet fascinating fears, and your fetishes. And take this body for a spin. To observe with or without navels and anals. To stop pretending basically, being human and into HD is not a trick, nor a goal, neither smart nor stupid, just very incredibly human. To show up as yourself, the identified differentiated idiot 😉

    – oh, and, yes, ehrm, then there are those HD people on Reddit, gee whizz, ehrm….?
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  • The differentiation level of organizers and facilitators and thus participants is mild, not wild.

    ByBaffo

    Hunt just shared 2 recordings of him on a situation happening within Human Design events organizing.

    https://www.facebook.com/share/r/1DAQG22GBx/

    https://www.facebook.com/share/r/1BPWMLBD3J/

    His 2 shares (important shares of personal/individual experiences and perspective) remind me of a topic that is quite large, seemingly important yet so far difficult ‘to tackle’, maybe cause HD is still so young, we are still so new to it.

    Duality vs correctness vs no choice vs 4% vs trajectory vs helplessness and incompetence vs spiritual bypassing vs weaponizing vs gaslighting vs moralism vs new age vs being human vs force fucking HD into a religious mould etc etc etc etc

    https://www.mcha.nl/2024/01/27/i-speak-facts/

    maybe some day we, or future generations can get into it some more. (y)

    An example I have is this, if someone asks if you’d like some cake, there is a response to it, jay or nay, or even if, someone just puts some cake on the table, there can be an Inner Authority reaction to the cake. But no posts, blogs, reels, features explanation videos are being made. We usually don’t even name them.

    When someone triggers however a negative response, they said something negative or false, they ran over you, ignored you disrespected, or even bullied, it is someone seen as if the person is perpetrating, you, then posts, blogs, reels, features explanation videos are being made. And it seems somehow important to name them? I’ve also named quite a few, here on my Blog. Some have been deleted later, cause they apologized, cause I love them. Some were never written but ‘ought to be’.

    There are tons and tons of people that are into HD, that are not for me, and yes I can say loads of stuff about them, as to why, how wrong they are, how not-self they may be, maybe/perhaps, may behave and may be are. Like Hunt mentions, I hope you do not have to explain yourself, when something is correct, and sometimes we just don’t know why something was in/correct.

    Those are the good parts of these shares, great even. However the undercurrent, the personal and individual drama, me versus them, naming them yadda yadda yadda. A large part of the whole (HD Community) is dying for you to explain yourself, so we can agree (!) And if we do not agree, ah yes villains and victims once more !

    How HD events are grouped around people vibing with each other. The differentiation level of organizers and facilitators and thus participants is mild, not wild. We behave amongst each other like 7 year olds. ‘Uuuh you dance weird, you smell funny, I’m gonna tell on you, you can not play with them they are MY friends’.

    Reminding me of this quote by Groucho Marx: “I refuse to join any club that would have me…” to me this true for the larger HD community, I fucking hate their behaviourisms, the religious pretences of what HD is and isn’t and how one should behave and adhere to it. The fucking preachers bitching about my decisions while their own personal lives are riddled with the same fucking bullshit, ‘if not worse’ 😉

    People calling each other psychotic, narcissists and all other kinds of really serious illnesses, for which they have no education to even analyse this, let alone conclude. Just because they don’t ‘agree with you’ while their own personal relations, their relationships with family or kids is way, way beyond ‘complicated’.

    Pretending you are a wolf amongst sheep that need protecting, while they try to eat your liver and some mutton too. Again, 7 year olds… We’re the newbies at this too, however many certificates you acquired, whomever the fuck you interviewed or has interviewed you, or how many clients you’ve ever had. Seven.

    Yet their websites are clean and pristine, priding them selves to be hard on clients, hard hard hard as if that is living your HD radically, as if there ever was a hill with monkeys and they are amongst top monkeys now. Ego/mind masturbation at your expense.

    Even writing about this now, and is why I think it is both a difficult yet important topic, We…. -all- are moralising moralisation. Then again we have become the moralisers, as if there is only one way to be, to live. To live their Design, because they have infringed (?) on us living ours, just like the examples they give about me, and me about them?

    No.

    Something I wrote during my first HD event:
    https://www.mcha.nl/2009/04/10/moonblog-28-4-holding-on/
    Oh the devastation, the disappointment, the resentment, the DRAMA ~! 😀 😀

    The Human experiential way 😉

    The examples given however in the 2 reels by Hunt are important to let newbies (sorry, beginners) know, correctness for you, is correctness for you. A great example of having entered into something seemingly correct for you, and then, life not being static nor stagnant, to realize it is no longer correct (you no longer like this cake), to get up and move. This is golden content. Important. Mechanical, not personal.

    Ok this was somewhat rambling there, which is why I said earlier, a difficult topic I find. No clarity, wisdom, or even singular truth about it, yet.

    So here is some somewhat related Hokshila wisdom 😉
    https://www.mcha.nl/2015/09/03/to-fall-in-love-with-what-youre-not/

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  • MoonBlog 33.6 Disassociation

    ByBaffo

    “They [Zeno & Chaitanyo] operate with human design before Ra’s own contribution to hd.”

    Everyone knows HD only through Ra, Zeno and Chaitanyo included. However they claim or market their more pure/original version, it never really is.
    These modes to do and wait, where did they originate from, is also unknown.

    Something I noticed (With Z&C but also others) is, however you learn HD now, is how you will stick to it. But whenever anything new is discovered or more deeply elaborated on (like Variables came to the forefront much much later) many people simply ignore the new information. It seems the human psyche is having a blockage there. En masse, across humanity as a whole.

    But then the new/deeper stuff gets (ego)sold as if it was Ra being wrong or false. And telling/selling Ra being wrong or false, (ego)sells so much better than a simple deepening or elaboration does. People like drama and opposition more, than anything/everything else.

    The Black Book is older than Zeno meeting/training HD.
    From the Book of Letters (white book) is a good second book when it comes to ‘old school HD’.

    Reading ‘Ra’s Work 2020’ and ‘Ra’s Agenda 2016’ gives an overview of the history of HD being taught. Those 2 overviews are made by Jan van den Berg.
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  • “Can we all just get along”

    ByBaffo

    “the dance that is possible when Types are correct”

    is homogenizing religious dribble. It is ego/heart nonsense pushing us to believe (!) that the netto result should look like a certain (positive) thing only; aka a dance. And if the netto result does not yet look like what we imagine (!) a dance to look like (!), this self made up fantasy, someone was not yet correct. It is this religious fanatic (zealot) belief in make-ability.

    And suggesting that Living your Design has a make-able netto result called a dance. Completely ignoring duality. It is this adherence to positivity and light and new-agey whatever (like dancing). But there is no light without darkness, yin and yang, duality.

    And only in the not-self is life make-able. You push -this- button, you get -that- result. Again and again and again.

    In the true self, from differentiation, yes you push -this- button, yet we do not know what the result will be. Could be yes, could be no, could be this, could be that.

    The dance is the dance is the dance, regardless. But the made up -condition- to be met (correctness equals dance) has little to do with it, and is most certainly not a weapon, but a lie.

    And this notion of getting along, brrrr

     
    MoonBlog 18.1

  • MoonBlog 37.5 Love and 37.6 Purpose

    ByBaffo

    Beforehand, before making a decision, we can know correctness, or not, correctness.

    We can observe our not-self, our mind, our external influences, our Outer Circumstances all have their conditioning on us. And also the see-saw of Distraction/Transference and Perspective/Motivation.

    We can observe the body engage or not engage. Whether to external stimuli and S&A when others are involved, or through the Tone of our PHS when alone.

    Afterwards and in hindsight, the experience itself of engaging or not engaging, was always Trajectory.

    Correctness is no longer an observation; a bad experience does not mean not correct. Not finishing what was engaged, does not mean not correct.

    Maybe/perhaps it was correct to engage, yet then also correct to not finish. Or correct to have a ‘bad’ experience. Duality after all… and (thus)… Trajectory.

    Correctness is an observation and never a meaning, unless a false conclusion and a potential guilt trip by mind once more.

    Also, nothing was ever ‘incorrect’, something is either correct or not correct.
    Incorrect is a judgment stemming out of morality, by an imposed set of made up rules, of right and wrong for instance, correctness itself is merely a (re)cognition, an observation.
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  • Gate 57 Line 3 Acuteness

    ByBaffo

    In the collective and in the tribe, there is no recognition for Reflectors, they are not seen/acknowledged, asked, initiated, prodded. Except talked about in the third person sense.

    Only in individual interaction, are they seen
    and maybe/perhaps even praised for their impact and influence, their razor sharp perception and guidance. Yet, however, even then not by many.

    For the hard hearing and newbies: the HD ‘community’ is most certainly not excluded from this. Just mechanics and duality.
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  • MoonBlog 47.2 Ambition

    ByBaffo

    Once gone through the Rave Cosmology series, none of it/this matters anymore. These concepts (gods, spirituality and their supposed containers to what is and is not included and which modality includes what part of this or that) just become superfluous, and that was fun to experience.

    When things don’t need to make any sense anymore, cause conceptualising it makes no more sense.
    Seeing that only the ego/mind seeks to hold on to them, or identify, or use as a crutch, or even as a navigational tool (living strictly by the rules of a religion or dogma or spiritual belief etc)

    When you experiment and notice when you drop a few, as a test, nothing happened. Until you drop it all, and still nothing happened. Nothing bad per se. Looking at life through as little lenses as possible.
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  • Knackered and fuckered

    ByBaffo

    I visited a buddy on Sunday, helping with the settings on his 3d printer that we modified together

    He tells me on monday he is not going to work cause he got a high fever

    I feel my throat a little but an occasional cough is not that weird

    The next morning I’m fucked and fucked over. It’s like all my nerve endings are firing as if there is pain, muscle aches but also serious brain aches, my jaw, my teeth, inside my teeth, inside my brain, my neck

    The internet says; no cure, wait it out, up to max 10 days

    And I could have sworn paracetamol used to be 4x 2 tablets a day, is now max 6 per day total.

    meanwhile the builders want to install the city/water heating, but they’re not coming cause the neighbours are not also home, so I wait and wait, till I finally get back into bed

    Wait, comma, pause.

    I sleep another 9 hours, in between I have some little foods, and more paracetamol, and just sleep, or try to.

    then some tv watching in the middle of the night, now, the next morning, my multiple aches seem gone but my throat hurts real bad. And I’m so tired, pffff

    Put on some thermo underwear, but still a little cold, brrrr

    Which reminds me of:

    47.4 Repression. The constraints of external oppression.
    Exalted: The strength of identity that even in times of the most powerful oppression can maintain its resources and to some extent ensure their survival for the benefit of others. A sense of identity that can be maintained despite external conditioning.
    Detriment: When robbed of its light, the Moon is lost in darkness; barely able to nourish itself, let alone others. The identity overwhelmed by external conditioning.

  • Right is Might

    ByBaffo

    So one of the things I’m noticing, especially in my more personal/intimate relationships, is how the other will consistently weigh and measure you with self made-up measuring sticks, including HD, as a means to badger you with ego proving gibberish.

    Weaponizing HD, but mainly psycho-analysing you through HD, without the credit HD also gives the Types, only the negatives are seen/measured and then thrown at you, for good ‘measure’.

    Sure we can talk about my autism, that “he always sits at his computer”. It is not untrue.
    But what are -you- offering instead, great conversations?

    And even if so, then one needs breaks from those too, per my Type. Perfectly fine per my Type, per my correct behaviour, per what is correct -for me-. And, your pussy is not that good.

    This constant needing to prove ones self, instead of just being human and porkin out, breathing, acclimatising, vibrating, ondulating, contemplate, let it simmer, marinating, or maybe even fucking oblivion. While they’re demanding super human behaviour, or even super human design behaviour, you -have to be- perfect, or else.

    And what was then the attraction, you may ask? Energetic, frequency, something to connect with. You connect or even bond energetically, there is a connection.

    However, initial connections are never truthful, everyone is always hiding, hiding something, some things. And then slowly slowly they open their mind to you, and that is when the poop starts to pour out, the horse shit, the hurt, the anger, the anguish, the self pity and the external blame(s).

    Suggestion: read their blogs first, read their online interaction and skirmishes, first. See if you like -that- person. Cause so many people, are simply very hurt, very broken. Some internalize this and seek some form of comfort or healing, and some only externalize and bite your head off, first chance they get, first thing you ‘say wrong’.

    This is my ‘mistake’, cause you jump to the energetic connect, but you’re going to interact with that broken ego/mind too. You will definitely meet it.

    Pretending it is part of the experiment, this constant measuring with HD or anything else, this consistent moralistic badgering, pretending to be in the experiment, or being a good (whatever the fuck your Type is)

    This constant need to prove behaviour, or be psychologically dissected on anything/everything the whole mf-ing time.

    Whichever lens they use, but always as a weapon, never as a means to explore for instance.
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  • I guess

    ByBaffo

    I’m fed up with all the psychological issues of people, not with HD, but how people need psychological and often emotional assistance (and a cuddle or fuck), but then go to/through all these modalities, so called self help journey into some form of psychology spirituality, when they actually, or also need psychological assistance. Like I need it now, after trying to help and support myself and so so very many people for 15 whole years (last friday) through HD.

    I’m pooped, I’m wasted, I don’t have the stamina anymore, or at least this is how I perceive it 😉

    The horrific stories I have heard and listened to, trying to support people with, pfffrf, I can’t take it anymore. Many of you/me/we/us are fucking crazy!

    MoonBlog 56.1
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  • MoonBlog 41.2 caution

    ByBaffo

    I guess, I’m seeing 3 ‘levels’

    level 1. how we behave from the mind/not-self in the 7 centered world as if we are 7 centered. Some parts are self, inescapably, yet most is a huge exaggeration of that which we are not. References to the HD chart are usually/mostly a mis interpretation, just mind trying to make a non solvable puzzle fit/stick. If you push this button, you get this result. The land of psychology and being unhinged.

    level 2. how HD describes us according to our chart, after at least 7 years deconditioning, at least, obliterating/annihilating ‘level’ 1. A new baseline of interacting with the world. If you push this button, we don’t know what the results will be, yet stability?

    level 3. just living S&A (and sometimes not), in part even transcending ‘level’ 2, which then becomes information but not truth and simply doesn’t fucking matter anymore as you can simply be, dualistically yourself, in all kinds of colors and shapes and movement and behaviour, untethered. As an observable result, but nothing to strive for or manipulate towards.
    Fuck any button pushing, complete irrelevance.
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  • Tense past

    ByBaffo

    Today the feeling has passed somewhat, but over the last weeks, if not months I get this incredible sense of depression, when I think about how we are living on this Earth. How societies operate, that we all need to make some money to live, and most of people, just barely scrape by.

    Does not matter if you live in France, or in Thailand, USA, the Congo, Morocco. This notion of humanity and evolution and technological advances, hampered, and interrupted, by this constant need for just the basic needs, barely. Again and again and again.

    How even if here in the Netherlands, almost everyone got a 10 percent increase/raise, it was called for cause the prices had already increased by more. Even if everyone would get say 200-400 bucks a month more, the market would immediately adjust for sucking up the difference.
    It is, however unintentional, rigged.

    Of course this was triggered by my own shaky financial situation, which is now a bit more stable once again, but as a Reflector looking at yours; my friends, my loved ones, my network and far far beyond, I feel really fucking down and depressed.

    Wanted to let you know, somehow, I see and it hurts.

    MoonBlog 9.3
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  • I did a thing today

    ByBaffo

    I deleted my Reflector Sessions webpage and blog access, Reflector Sessions Facebook page and its linked Baffo Instagram page

    I no longer wish to be that ‘advertorial’ or using these as identifiers, of me, of what it is to be me.
    It just does not matter (anymore) in this format or way.

    I might rejuvenate the website with my MoonBlogs and the 2 Reflector pages, but as Baffo, not as some identity called ‘Reflector Sessions’.

    MoonBlog 51.5

    [edit] from 3422 to 0, back to 267 873 posts on blog now

    an appearance, an identity, it weighed on me to keep it up or maintaining it as such. People are looking for (a) structured support, and I was providing that in this way. Seeking things to be businesses, schools, ‘professionals’, with registrations and certifications, tax deductible formats and whatever else.

    But I’m just me, and that’s fine/enough.

  • If I do this now…

    ByBaffo

    to observe the mind, through my undefined Root center with no activations.

    “If I do this now, then it is done, I don’t have to focus or worry about it anymore.”

    Mind, is doing all of that, both, the worrying and the not worrying, the false pretense in both situations.

    Why does it worry so much about stuff anyways, whether done or not done. As it needs, seeks to park stuff, done → ok
    not done → worry, or at least throw it in front of the minds/eye often enough.

    Sure I don’t mind completing things/tasks, but this ego/mind seeks to do so only so it can let go of it, as it holds on to outcomes and progression, tallying, measuring, comparing. Control issues much?

    MoonBlog 22.5
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  • Personal Health Syndrome (PHS)

    ByBaffo

    In HD conversations, there seems to be this notion of, when you live your design, and when you apply your PHS then you will be healthiest.

    But there are nuances, as always, just not in the conversations.

    Recently my doctor emailed she’s going with her pension, and I’ve been with her since the beginning, 33 years ago. And before my Saturn return I’ve seen her maybe 5-6 times in about 11 years, of which I was abroad for 3 years. Since on the roof, about 5-6 times also in a period of 20 years, and since my kiron Return just 4 years ago, already a dozen times.

    Something has definitely changed

    And in my PHS reading, I was told and then reminded multiple times: ‘the mutation is not always successful” & “this roof phase is the healthiest for you, it will change”

    So, yeah.

    (MoonBlog 38.2)
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  • Who is driving?

    ByBaffo

    In HD we know the terminology of the Magnetic Monopole being the driver
    and for me, especially after having done the 4 Transformations year training, I can see the concept of Driver, Vehicle and Passenger so much better.

    But also, to see, who else is driving, all these variants of my mind. Wearing different hats.

    When sex is driving
    when money is driving
    or the drive for money is, driving.

    When need for recognition
    for compliments
    for acknowledgment
    for likes
    for pleasure
    for good food
    feel good
    to feel better, is driving

    with their little hats (… whatever 😉 ), and driving gloves, all purrdy and neatly dressed, up.
    For driving.

    The ego/mind, driving, for ego, for ego/mind. As an expression of itself, driving. Not the magnetic monopole driving, no. The ego/mind, almost like someone with Alzheimers’, doing something they did in the past, and ending up in the weirdest places, only to be brought home, by the cops.

    It is such a show, such a drama, dramatic expression. Of ego/mind all dressed up, for driving, and then actually drive, completely out of place, yet driving as if it was correct. ‘Fake it till you make it’.

    Oh and that it does 😀
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  • Projected Attitude: Abdicator

    ByBaffo
    (from ‘Profile and Type Reference’)

    I enjoy being an Abdicator (Profiling Gate of the 4th Line), so very often in my life I’ve been ‘promised the world’ by criminals, by teachers, by lovers. And oh so many times, I just said no. It was not for me, and I walked away or moved on. And then looking back on those situations, what if, I had said yes? And I chuckle, cause I’m so glad I simply did not 🙂

    Criminals, proposing working together and ‘do stuff with diamonds and passports’ and ‘I’ll come live with you’ and I just go… neeeeh. Shacking my head 🙂

    In the GeneKeys, where the American LLC, who tried to take over the show after RR had sex with one of them, where grooming me to become a ‘certified Guide’, and I just laughed and told them, you ain’t got that capacity to do so, there is nothing there in your offer, it is hollow, and left/moved on.

    My Advaita Vedanta teacher, saying, “you’re so close to realization, and then you can teach others”. She was grooming me, to be a non duality teacher, to become ‘one of them’. And when I look at Adyashanti teaching this stuff, talking about things, I realize, I would never want to sit in a chair and talk about life before, talk about the horrors of the mind and how to look at it differently so you can wake up. Not in a non duality way anyways. I mean, doesn’t he have hobbies? Is this the end result of ‘enlightenment’…? Neeeeh 🙂

    A lover who wanted to work together teaching HD, using the 64 material ways to do… yeah what exactly I wasn’t sure, I had never read or listened to the material, and when I tried, I was seriously put off by it. And the pussy wasn’t that good either (no offense, but I mean, the relationship was not of equals) but, these promises just don’t work on me, unless, it is correct -for me-. There is no way to seduce me unless it IS seducing, to ME 🙂

    The new Reflector organization that is being ‘made’, to be asked to be part of the tip of the spear is nice and all, but I just don’t have the energy, or desire, the drive, the be part of that tip. Once it runs, sure I may show up and be part of its structure, and be of service to the other, maybe.

    I’m so happy that I walked away and moved on, and just do whatever the fuck I want, through my PHS Tone, my individual creativity. And use S&A when others are involved, but they so rarely are, it’s just me and my Tone.

    I have no need for the groomers, I have no need to even use S&A on them, I abdicate. And that makes me smile, when I look at the mud they seem to be plunged into. Sticky mud, using so much energy to maintain the ‘thing’, and I could see, it was just not for me.

    MoonBlog 36.5 The underground.

    Gate 36 of crisis. The darkening of the light.
    The rule of cycles in which decline is a natural but not enduring stage.

    Gate 36 Line 5 The underground
    Exalted: Perfected survival regardless of conditions. Immunity to crisis as both generator and survivor.
    Detriment: A nervousness that can lead to self-betrayal. Self-betraying nervousness in times of crisis.

  • SunBlog 19.2 service

    ByBaffo

    Weirdos in the mail

    Weirdo: I would love if you could unblock me on facebook so that I will be able to see your content and your interventions HD related.
    I remind you you blocked me for my stupid comments, that’s over. i wont text you or tag you

    me: which is the same weirdo: https://www.mcha.nl/2022/06/28/sunblog-52-4-self-discipline/
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  • MoonBlog 11.6 adaptability

    ByBaffo

    Koen Hillewaert : “an open head, open ajna has second hand thoughts and inspiration… not first hand… so the thoughts we have, the inspiration we have is not ours, it came from somebody else. Just like an undefined solar plexus gets and multiplies the emotions from the other…”

    [reflection:]preposterous

    Just because we don’t have -consistent access to- the Solar Plexus, does not mean we do not have emotions of our own, ever, at all.

    Or thoughts.

    This is one of those things that get said in HD that really go too far, are being taken literal, for having been an analogy.

    If and when being in aura with someone else, there is the -potential- to take in and amplify theirs, but it is not singularly true, all the time. You can sit with them, they get emotionally triggered, and you not. The Natural and Healthy State of the Undefined Solar Plexus is: emotionally quiet. And this can happen perfectly fine in aura with others.

    Never your own thoughts, what a lot of bullcrap is that man. I live and spend so much time alone that I can tell when it is yours or mine. And much of the bullshit I think, is truly mine… well ok, it’s my minds.

    Such a notion pretends there is no true self behaviour in undefined centers.
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  • Just another experience of duality

    ByBaffo

    On Wednesday, ‎29 ‎June ‎2022, ‏‎at 10:17:16

    July 9th 2022

    I never tried to sell her anything, we spoke about it when we met, surely, we spoke about what each of us does (pic on the right)
    I already did not like that she paid for the dinner we had, as if to either prove something, or to buy a favour later.
    It was her then on July 29th 2022 asking:
    “Hey wassup? How much is your lyd course?” (see pic11)

    And since I was preparing for it, I was busy, or chilling, like non-energy people do. But this, apparently, is not allowed (hehe, right…)
    or straight answers to questions like ‘are you?’ “No”

    And then of course, after this strange communication break down, telling -everyone- what a horrible person I am, just for being present, as myself. For telling her I masturbated, as if nobody ever does, or one is not allowed to speak about these things, in honesty and openness… and safety. Or that the communication got weird. No idiot, you smoke(d) so much weed!

    But also looking back, clearly a (self (over) identified) person(ality) that asks for help, with the stress, the burden and whatever else, but does not actually seek help, does not actually seek support or outside viewpoint suggestions, at all. Is only seeking praise for the struggle and efforts, while remaining a victim of the outer circumstances and keep wallowing in their own supposed victimization. So they can keep pointing outwards, this person, that person, or this situation, bad, bad, bad. Luring you in with smiles and meals, but it’s a sticky web of self indulgent manipulative locked up horrors, and if you do no adhere, or heel (!), it was all your fault 🙂

    So yeah. just another toxic, helpless and incompetent moralist bullshitter, running through the Human Design ‘community’ carousel like a dog with rabies, foaming at the mind, with all the pretence and pretends. Rising through the so called ranks, of nothing, of emptiness. So 2 years later they can make a documentary about HD without it being about HD, thinking they ‘need to initiate’, calling themselves ‘director’, cause no one is living it, they’re just talking about it, chasing the dragon of want, wanting to adhere to something good, bettering humans and humankind, without ever bettering. To Live Your Design is not a group(ed) effort !

    Aaaah beautiful stinky messy Duality…. Thanks for the experience all the same 🙂

  • “Is there anyone here who has experienced, and made it through apathy and prolonged depression during their HD experiment?”

    ByBaffo

    when I smoked pot & hash every day, when I took LSD for the better part of a year, when I was a severe alcoholic, when I was homeless, when I was in prison, when I came out of prison, when I was single. When my mind was running the shitshow.

    But never so much anymore since/during my HD experiment. But my life has been radically changed (well one could call it that, I kinda like it, so the comparison is just words) cause I occupy my left/active brain as much as possible with things that I enjoy.

    Tinkering my ass off, with guitars, guitar effect pedals, amplifiers, modding them, tweaking and nerding. Since almost 2 years I got a 3d printer now THAT can keep you occupied !! 😀
    and am looking forward to tinker with a cnc milling machine next, besides the motorbike(s) tinkering I always did.

    “Baffo, why does your living room look like a barn?” she asked.
    Because I can !

    And, I only watch what I download myself, ie movies/tv-shows. And when I travel I take a vaccin if required. I no longer occupy my mind with the world, and it’s supposed issues, but mine only. I have become much more myopic, not even on purpose per se, not even as a mental strategy, but I do know it works for me.

    Am I chasing only happy states? No, in the least, my daily life is not easy, but I know what I want to do with it, now, with the opportunities I now have. If I win the lottery those may change, but for now, I’m pretty damn good.

    And then a few days of relapse, deep darkness, sadness. Mind projecting me all these things again. Ah well, time for another nap, or perhaps to level the bed once more (technical 3d printing term) 😉

    Make/have dinner, clean the house/barn, pffrt (blowing raspberry)

    you know, I consider my life, and how it’s run, as a job. And I love my job, and I love me. So I try to do a good job. And work on it every single day. What is correct for me, what can I or can I not do/have/be today, enjoyable long term strategies planned, but adjusted as need be. Me, my life, one job. Every day.

    Some times it is nap day, sometimes it is not ?
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  • ‘Cause we need a little, controversy

    ByBaffo

    to all moralists, liars and other 5 centered idiots, Baffo says: “of the 12 women into HD that had sex with me, averaging not even one HD sex partner per year of being into HD

    about 4 have I taught any HD before the sex, with well over 200 that is averaging less than 1 in 50

    the other 8 I either never taught or it was after the sex.”

    If you read some of my writings and sharing and happen to experience a drive to –not– connect, great. If you do experience a drive to connect, great, you are hereby invited, asked, informed and initiated to do so through the contact page.
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  • “are you interested in a romantic relationship with me?”

    ByBaffo

    Im starting to get his sense that it (…) does not hinge on information or correctness, but all about emotional (im)maturity, some are born with/out and the rest is consequence, unless they grow some/more, as the only real growth path out there worth anything.

    MoonBlog 53.2
    Gate 53 of beginnings. Development.
    Development as a structured progression that is both steadfast and enduring
    Gate 53 Line 2 (exalted) momentum. Success breeds success
    Exalted: The protection of early success nurtures further achievement. The pressure to start something new based on past success.
    Detriment: A tendency with early success to haste and imprudent action. The pressure based on success to be impatient for something new.
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  • “I need to be using that”

    ByBaffo

    From https://open.spotify.com/episode/3322aexbe0DWboM8kXg7au

    03:46 “When I look at the FaceBook scene, for example, and there is so much information being passed around, and my mind gets right into it, and I like to debate information and I like to see different angles of it and I usually see weird things that people don’t and I could be wrong and whatever, but… But none of that interaction on facebook around the content like that, has anything to do with me being a manifestor and in fact, it is probably distracting me, like moment by moment, from being a splenic manifestor cause I’m up in my thinking head instead of in my body.”

    When you own a bicycle, and watch tv, you do not all of a sudden, not own a bicycle, because you are watching tv.
    Unless the bike was stolen in between, but not because you were watching tv, but because someone stole it.
    Other than that, you still own a bicycle.

    Interacting on FaceBook in HD groups, or in messaging etc, has -nothing- to do with decision making per your Inner Authority. Anyways, being in your thinking head, when it comes to working with information is perfectly normal, and it’s even legal too. There is no law against it. Against using mind, against being in your thinking head. It is irrelevant, to being whichever type, or whichever Strategy & Authority you may have.

    It is pretending however, there is a better way, of doing things, ego/mind, undefined ego/heart center proving ones self to be right, or even correct, when that can not be the case ever since it was irrelevant to begin with.
    The mistake is causality and strawman arguments; ‘One is not allowed to be in their thinking head, one should always be in the body’.

    When in fact, mind = a wonderful Outer Authority, it is not dis-allowed to think. Or process information, or exchange information.

    Only when making decisions with that same mind, as Inner Authority, does it become a not-self act, or action.

    But watching tv, or interacting on FaceBook, does not change if you are a boy or a girl, if you need to pay taxes or are owed taxes, being a splenic manifestor, none of that.

    You are still in the same body, you may not be consistently conscious of it, but who/what is conscious of it anyways but that same mind that is now thinking and processing information, while you being perfectly fine in the body also? You did not change body, or Type, you are simply not using S&A and there is no reason (‘need’ to) to do so either. You’re off the hook. You are on a S&A break: processing info, thoughts, viewpoints, shooting the shit.

    The outer circumstances, and you being in them, participating, does not cause anything to be wrong, just by being there and doing this or that, by being able to discern, yes, my mind is distracted right now… well actually, distracted from what, is there an agenda all of a sudden, a goal, a fixedness of dos and don’ts of behaviour, of what is deemed correct according to some made up moral standards? Are we inflicting guilt on ourselves for watching tv, pretending this makes us lose bicycles?

    Nice example of a mental belief structure at work, of using mind to make decisions with and not ‘be in the body’ while pretending to avoid exactly that in the first place 😀

    MoonBlog 52.3

  • “Why?”

    ByBaffo

    I don’t know ‘why’

    I am not interested in my mind knowing, why
    or seeking to verbalize it, mentally, even wording it, to explain it, either.

    All I know is, I am doing it, and that, is why.

    And having great fun doing so

    I can explain, in hindsight, how I got here, but not, why.

    MoonBlog 52.2

  • MoonBlog 51.2 withdrawal

    ByBaffo

    Weirdos in the mail

    weirdo: Calling all #Reflectors (according to Human Design)!!! ?
    Are you a reflector and feeling all the feels? Could you use some relaxation and a deep energetic reset in a loving environment where people just get you?
    Join me this Sunday, online, at 10am PST for an hour of group-supprted Reiki healing for your highest good. ✨
    It’s going to be magical! ??
    Leave any questions you have below!

    Hi There! How are you doing today? I’m reaching out to let you know that I’m hosting a Reiki for Reflectors group call again this Sunday at 10am PST. Would love for you to join us!! Would you also be down to post to your page or story to get the word out to all the Reflectors in the world who could use this? Thank you so much!! ???

    me: Hi, only see your message now (y)
    No, not down to doing that.

  • MoonBlog 19.3 dedication

    ByBaffo

    I only have to find my own correctness in it, yours or anyone else’s has nothing to do with my S&A.

    My correctness, is not a stance, nor is it something I take, and therefor not need to defend nor explain.

    Besides correctness not being logical, anyone pretending that my correctness is their business, is mistaken.

    This goes for any and every topic.

    MoonBlog 19.3 dedication
    Gate 19 of wanting, approach. That all things are interrelated is apparent and manifested through the action of approach.
    Gate 19 Line 3 dedication. Receptivity to approach can only be maintained through vigilance.
    Exalted: The natural ease with which communion is maintained. Sensitivity and ease fueled by acceptance by others.
    Detriment: A tendency to moodiness that may lead to carelessness. The need to be wanted hampered by oversensitivity.

  • How to De-condition? (Effectively)

    ByBaffo

    By actually going there. So not only think about Human Design and your chart and all its details (while also important), not just contemplate the information and its implications (while also important), not just study Human Design (which for some is quite important), but by actually going there, by trying to live it, by making mistakes, by experimenting and experiencing, by comparing your experiences with the theory and other peoples stories. By learning to not only understand but having the experience, of which energy is yours and which is not yours through Transit Cycle tracking and journaling. Deconditioning is something we do.

    And if you need support in doing so, find that support.

    The how question is one of mind, but mind can not solve it, not ahead of experiencing at least. It is not within the capacities of mind to ever solve it. We factually need to go and experience it, ourselves. We can talk about what it was like doing so, with others, but hearing what it was like, for others, does not decondition -you-.

    You simply have to experience it yourself.
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  • MoonBlog 14.4 security

    ByBaffo

    The Transit chart shows the chart of today, so ‘Personality’ side

    But nothing gets imprinted, cause this only happens twice in life, 88 Solar degrees before being born (which then becomes the Design imprint) and then at birth (the Personality side). Everything else, is not you, is the weather, an external influence.

    So the Transit chart of now, does not even have a Type, since Type only emerges out of the Juxtaposition of Design and Personality together, of 2 imprints of Crystals only. Type is form functioning. It can not be separated.

    Then the quote, linked from my blog (https://www.mcha.nl/2020/12/13/moonblog-34-5-annihilation-2/). As I write it there also, but I’ve heard it is not that clear, so I reword it here:

    The Transit chart looks very open, yes, but it does not mean, that everyone will experience these Transits, or not experience them (!). Not Reflectors, not other Types either.

    I do not have Gate 30 activated/imprinted in my chart, nor the Gate at the other side of the channel, Gate 41. but when the Transit is in Gate 30, and this could be the Moon, or the Sun, or Jupiter. I can experience deep emotional overwhelm. And, this is a pattern, it happens often when something is in Gate 30.

    Even when the Transit chart shows ‘no definition’, and I don’t have neither Gate 30 nor 41, and exactly this, this noticing, this observation from experience, is half the story of the Lunar Cycle.

    There is no homogenized effect on anyone else (or at least, not forced/fixed) to experience cosmic baths, openness or the opposite, when Transits happen. It can only be, your own unique experience, which by journalling you will find out, how -you- sample life, differently, than I do, or any other Reflector does.

    That really also is the power of Human Design, to become your own observer and finding your own truth, without having to listen or believe anyone else. Experientially. To become, your own Authority.

    Enjoy 🙂

    MoonBlog 14.4 security
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  • “You have the design of a reflector, and the personality of a reflector.”

    ByBaffo

    or

    “[whomever] is a 6/2 Splenic Projector and non-specific manifestor in Human Design.”

    Both are simply false, easy to tell too; just count your aura(s)

    Type (ie Reflector) is form, is aura functioning, there are no Types in either side of the chart. One can say: I’m undefined in my Design and undefined in my Personality, or I have only Projector Type Channels/Definition, but one is never another Type in any one of them, it is the Juxtaposition of both, that makes Type and Aura. Only in the quantum of both is Type revealed.

    So yes openness, but the Definition is there always, we can not separate the Design and Personality like this, they are locked together, even me as a Reflector don’t have those 2 Types on either side

    You only have one aura.

     

    P.S. do you -have- a design or personality, some false identification there?
    And if you -have- it, where do you keep it, store it, does it eat anything, where does it sleep?, etc 😉

     

    MoonBlog 22.3

    Gate 22 of openness, grace. A quality of behaviour best suited in handling mundane and trivial situations.

    Gate 22 line 3 the enchanter. Perfected grace.
    Exalted: Form as a definition and actualization of substance. The possibility for perfected openness through the alignment of emotional energy and awareness.
    Detriment: Unconscious grace. An innate openness.
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  • MoonBlog 63.5 affirmation

    ByBaffo

    Weirdos in the mail

    weirdo: “Removing my ability to comment or discuss my take on being a reflector highlighted to me the health of your group so I’ve kindly left. I wish you all healing xxx”

    me: “I have done no such thing
    I’m not the admin/mod there

    but the about rules of that group are quite clear
    there are no takes, only experiences. The rest is just mind fodder”

    weirdo: “Mine was all experience x”

    me: “Wishing healing is pretending something is wrong with those other people, making you a moralistic fascist
    mirror mirror on the wall”
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  • MoonBlog 63.3 continuance

    ByBaffo

    A new experiment (and I hate it already) 🙂

    Most people know I live a ‘one thing lead to another’ kinda life. Soup of the day for the Reflector, restaurant analogy, yes? And some things that happen this way are absolutely amazing (positive) and some things are absolutely amazing (negative) 😉

    Now my PHS is Color 2 (Taste) and Tone 1 (Smell) making my Taste Open, those are splenic binaries. Through my PHS I have access to a discerning spleen. I’m a natural nose breather and closing my sampling is mouth breathing. And I have Gate 20, twice, one of them my Design Moon, and I call my not-self an emotional manifesting reflector, so there is a lot of immediacy (and a few other Gates allowing me to jump into hyperspace and the opening of the heavens) and all that and more.

    I do a lot of tinkering, nerding, melancholic muse driven mind puzzles with musical instruments gear (guitar pedal sequence setup and wiring, amp combinations, tube rolling) and motorbike tweaking (gear ratios, air filters, carb and exhaust tweaking) and recently also some more electronics as in guitar pedal making and now a vacuum tube tester, and so on.

    So a lot is bought and sold all the time, all, the, time. Including lots of tools and machinery to do all those things. Which I enjoy a lot. A lot of research goes into it, and I do quite well in finding just the right thing, over time, reading all the reviews and having gained more knowledge and hands on experience of some of the procedures and techniques over the years.

    Right now I’m diving into model making, gluing shaped pieces of plastic together and then painting them. Brushing these paints on, looks hideous. So I need an airbrush set-up… (and learn how to use it)

    The new experiment is, wait, comma, pause, one lunar cycle before buying anything, -anything-. Everything.

    Oh boy….
    I already don’t like this… 😉
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  • MoonBlog 41.4 Correction

    ByBaffo

    in my perception, there is no snow
    in my presence, in my body
    inside

    there is no weather

    inside,

    outside
    there is snow
    and the streets are slippery
    walking is difficult
    becoming bitter cold
    at night, outside,

    inside
    there is no weather
    not even windstil

    inside
    there is
    only absence
    of weather


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  • Moonblog 49.6 attraction

    ByBaffo

    reflector sampling, or… not-self? 😉

    I once bought a Digital Multi Meter. Hadn’t had one in a while and building guitar pedals, working on motorbikes and what not, they come in handy. So I buy a new one from a so-so brand for about 40 bucks I think. Conrad’s own Voltcraft VC175.

    At one point it stops working, all I get are four dashes – – – – and not 0.035volts for instance.

    So I try to find another one to replace it, second hand this time, and preferably a brand. I find one that looks a bit crummy but is super easy to use and has all the functions that I think I need and it’s a Fluke, 113 model. Stil twice the price of the other one new, but hey, its a Fluke.

    Once home I clean the outside up a little with water and soap and use it, and it’s great. Until I need to do some tests and I get weird results. I even end up sending the pcb elsewhere for testing and finding out what is wrong. Turns out, all the tests run fine, my meter is off ! So seemingly fully functioning, but wrong values.

    So I decide to scour the interwebs for advice for another one. Cause I’m not that enthusiastic about getting a ‘better’ 200 bucks Fluke this time, even if I love my gadgets and I like well known stuff, but let’s see what the experts have to say. There I find there are kinda 2 camps, the cheapos and the semi-professionals. The cheapos advice the Aneng AN8008 or AN8009 for about 20 bucks, new, incl shipping from China and the semi-professionals advice the Brymen BM235 which costs about 95 bucks brand new, excl shipping.

    I realize one meter is no meter, you need to be able to check yours if anything is off. So I decide to buy them both, it’s only 20 bucks extra and the cheaper one is quite liked too, so why not? I see a funny GM328A meter gadget for 3 pin diodes and whatnot for 15 bucks and get that one too.

    Realising also, that my electronic work and interest is growing and that maybe it is time for an oscilloscope too. Go into the deep end of measuring and the semi-professionals kinda agree on the Rigol DS1054Z as a great beginners scope, so that one is in the back of my mind/on the wannahave list. Meanwhile I also read up on calibrating Digital Multi Meters and find the ‘DMM Check Plus‘ which comes with a proper calibration report so you can always verify your meters and their measured results, or compare to each other how precise they are, mmm yum, I like that even better ! 🙂

    Slowly slowly the meters arrive, and while I’m making a post about the different meters, I see a picture of the inside of the Voltcraft VC175

    And I notice 2 fuses… so I open it up and with the new Brymen BM235 I check the fuses, and the 10A 5600V one is working, but the 0.5A 600V is broken. Would it.. could it be?

    I order a few spare fuses and once they arrive I replace the broken one and voilà ! No more dashes and reading normal values….

    So now having 4 Digital Multi Meters, of which 3 are working fine (fluke is still flakey), one gadgety one, an oscilloscope and a calibrated meter checker/tester, when all I needed was to replace one fuse? Was it?

    Happy sampling ! 🙂
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  • MoonBlog 34.5 annihilation

    ByBaffo

    “The (un)bearable lightness of being…”

    “2 days of no transit definition. All 9 centres white. A rare opportunity for Reflectors to savour the complete absence of any kind of pressure from without and within. Difficult to find the right words to express the delight I am experiencing in this limitless space and time, the weightlessness of the body moving around as if floating. No definition, no structure, no mind interfering in this experience of “the (un)bearable lightness of just being there – in wonder…”

    Reflectors around the globe – watch out for those days and find a way to be by yourself in those rare moments… you might be up for a surprise!”

    and: “It happened again today… yes – it’s difficult to describe in words Isabel Moreira. I imagine that’s why some people use drugs to have that kind of experience. Maybe later on something pops up to share more with my Reflector kin… For now I am just savouring this cosmic bath… in silence… ?” – Nisarg B. Nikiel

    What is this notion of a cosmic bath? Right now the Moon is in Gate 34 forming a temporary conditioned definition with my Gate 20. Besides we’re not here to live the Transits themselves, and even then, our individual experience will always be different, regardless of what the resulting chart looks like. The chart is not the life (!)

    The other day (August 21st 2020), Earth was in Gate 30 line 5, which I do not have in my chart, nor do I have Gate 41, but I’ve never seriously felt more depressed and suicidal than ever before, when for instance I was in much more dire situations/outer circumstances. No I was just sitting there on my bed, watching tv, a comedy even, and I became deeply depressed and suicidal. This Gate 30 has always been a huge trigger for me. Nothing cosmic or bath-like for me, unless it was to drown myself in, to die.

    There are no fairy tales in Human Design and certainly no homogenization, so when there are no channels formed by the Transits, it does not have to mean anything at all, and most certainly not for all Reflectors, no made up surprises, nothing the same for anyone/everyone else. Even when ‘no definition’ shows up. Nothing is fixed, not positive not negative.

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