Human Design

The Chase for the Ghost Particle and the Secrets of the Universe

A sketch of the IceCube neutrino observatory ( J. Yang/NSF)

Neutrinos are elementary particles, just like electrons that buzz about atomic nuclei or quarks that combine to make protons and neutrons. They are fundamental building blocks of matter, but they don’t remain trapped inside atoms. Also unlike their subatomic cousins, neutrinos carry no electric charge, have a tiny mass, and hardly ever interact with other particles. A typical neutrino can travel through a light- year’s worth of lead without interacting with any atoms. Therein lies the snag: neutrinos are pathologically shy. Their severe reluctance to mingle makes these particles hard to pin down, so neutrino hunting is a tricky business. But every so often, a neutrino does collide with something, such as a proton inside a water molecule, essentially by accident. It is to raise the odds of accidental collisions, and thus to increase our chances of observing neutrinos, that scientists build extremely large detectors like IceCube

You still can’t see neutrinos directly, but you can get a whiff of their presence from the clues they leave behind. On the rare occasions that neutrinos do interact with matter, they produce charged particles such as muons that physicists can detect with their instruments. But distinguishing neutrino signals from unrelated “noise” poses a challenge: cosmic rays, fast- moving particles that arrive from deep space, also produce muons, which might be confused with muons produced by neutrino interactions. Neutrino hunters place their equipment deep underground, or under a thick layer of ice, so that cosmic ray muons cannot get through. As Janet Conrad of the Massachusetts Institute of Technology explains, “If you’re trying to listen to a whisper, you don’t want a lot of noise around.” -Ray Jayawardhana, The Neutrino Hunters

Moonblog 8.2 service

Moonblog 8.2

Sometimes relationships, friendships have had their run. It’s time to let go, and they simply present themselves as such.

Blissfully unaware of that, but then the other starts projecting on you, and when you tell them you’re not ok with that projection, they even tell you to doubt, that you know any better about what you, or your life is like, or about.

Another, out of the blue starts calling you, or what you do/not do, stupid. Well, you may indeed find what I do, or not do stupid, but it sure as shit does not make me stupid.

All of a sudden you realize, they’re trying to hold you back, that you’re going places they do not want you to go, or go in a different way. But that is not up to them, far from it.

Of course the danger is, that you’ve become so distant to certain things in life, maybe perhaps too aloof, or even ‘unemotional’, that you don’t see the forest for the trees. Maybe they hint at a blind spot, that is hard for ourselves to see.

But when the chord of interrelating is indeed cut, and you suddenly feel more free again, when you realize how sticky and controlling it all has become, how much drama was created by that other, ratcheting…

…maybe just maybe, you are indeed better off without them, and it is time for a new network, or some new people in it.

Only -you- can ever know, what is truly correct for you, so:
-don’t hold back
-take no shit
-enjoy yourself

‘Merry happy fucking Kiron Return’

Edit/add-on: the funny thing is, they think they are disqualifying you, when they are disqualifying themselves.
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Characteristics Do Not Matter When Living Out Your Purpose

“We’re talking both the fulfillment of purpose. Everything about the cross is about the potential to fill your purpose. It is very difficult to get to that place where your cross runs your life. I know. And when your cross takes over in your life boy does it take over. It’s almost as frightening as the idea of giving up the not-self, because your purpose is something that does not honor your characteristics.

So for example, let’s say that you’re an anti-social nasty savage little survivor like me. And you get on the wheel and the wheel turns you into some kind of social interactive good-for-everybody nice guy. But that’s the cross. And it doesn’t matter once you’re into the movement of your purpose what your characteristics are.

Characteristics only matter when you’re stuck with your not-self and you’re unawake. This is the whole thing about my joke about not being furniture in a movie, background. The background doesn’t mean anything. But the moment you give background purpose it jumps to the front of the lens and everybody can see it. And it doesn’t matter where you come from. The coward in the movie in the background that suddenly emerges as the hero and everybody is wondering where that come from.

Your characteristics don’t matter when you’re living out your purpose. They don’t. If I was living out my not-self my nature, my very characteristics would create problems for me in this life as they did before I knew all of this. They just would. And purpose would never allow me to transcend the problems of my characteristics, never. That’s the magic of being yourself, because the moment that you really are leaving out your nature your cross will take over, your purpose will take over and out of that will come its archetypal demand and the opportunity to be fulfilled that way, whatever that way happens to be.” Ra Uru Hu – Incarnation Crosses by Profile, I The Quarter of Initiation

Excerpt from Living Your Design

The Human Design System is not a belief system
“It doesn’t require that you believe in anything, or that you believe in me. It’s not stories, it’s not a philosophy. It is a concrete map to the nature of being, a logical way in which we can see ourselves. Just the simple mechanics is enough to make a vast difference in somebody’s life.

The irony of what it is to be a human being is that we are caught at the surface of understanding and accepting our nature and the cosmos around us. We are just at the surface. It doesn’t matter how intelligent we are, and it’s not about the labels we attach to that intelligence; whether we call it “enlightened” or we call it “genius”, there is a vast underlying ignorance of how our bodies operate.”

The Human Design System is a reading of your Genetic Code
“With a Human Design education, your genetic code can be read in detail. That is the work of a professional analyst. This ability to detail our mechanics is profound as it reveals the complete nature in its subtleties. However, by simply grasping the surface mechanics—what this work aspires to communicate—you will have a grounding in this life that is immediately going to bring a difference to your process.

These essential truths are simple because they are mechanical. What is mechanical in us, the way in which our genes operate, is that the moment we try to interfere with their operation we descend into a life of confusion, chaos, and pain. In the end, they will have their way.”

All Learning—Real learning—Takes Seven Years
“We live in a seven-year cycle, and it takes approximately seven years to change all of the cells in the body. The moment you begin to come to your own nature and allow your body to live its life without resistance, you begin a deep process of deconditioning. Seven years later, you emerge, quite literally, as a new being: yourself.

It is when human beings don’t get to live out their own lives that life seems to be such a difficult experience for them. We know that there is a lot of stuff around about “being yourself.” It’s all fine and good for somebody to stand up and tell you to be yourself, but you have to know who that self is.”
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“My personal method of deconditioning”

In some “not so easy to follow” steps. Perhaps in the right order.

“Try to fit in the Mold of Life by becoming Superslave. Neglect to realize when enough is enough and have a complete breakdown physically, mentally, financially and generally.

Find Rock Bottom and sit there for a while.

Realize that Life is Pain – start to Heal.

Be fortunate enough to be introduced to HumanDesign by someone deep in the experiment, with a Channel of Struggle for the tenacity to seek Purpose. Curse Channel of Struggle. Love Channel of Struggle.

Have first conscious experience of a Spleen-hit while watching your first Ra-video, where he speaks of your 5/2 Profile. Melt inside.

Absorb everything you come across of Information. Know everything. Know nothing. Start Seeing.

Go away. Hide Self from other Selves in Cabin by the Sea. Be alone for a month. Find personal rhythm and true feeling in the body. Remember.

Experiment using the Body as a Barometer for the states of being in Others. Have “HolyShit!” moment of sudden understanding of implications of having a projector-aura.

Become convinced – go RAdical. Initiate Waiting-game. Nothing happens. Re-examine parameters of Waiting-game. Facepalm.

Experience the right Invitation. See yourself transform in the Situation, now that the Recognition has made the Energy avaliable. File under “HolyShit!”. Folder is getting thick.

Streamline friendships, let go of trying to fix things with your Mind and try to settle in the Backseat. Observe your Self quietly freak out, but also do nothing. Create new folder titled “Hm.”

Have noticeable physical improvements as Vehicle starts to become more aligned to its Trajectory.

Move into house where HD is a language and treated somewhat according to Type. Have happy days.

Have bad days. But notice that most of the badness is now filed under “Hm.” and not “F!!” as per earlier routine.

Everything becomes the Experiment. Thank Ra. Curse Ra. Fight it. Loose. Give up. Have confidence. Embrace doubt. Enjoy the Ride. Throw up.

Have “Hm, HolyShit!” moment of realization about the correct use and purpose of Fear and the true implications of Trust in your Splenic Authority. Laugh at the Past.

Write some jumbled brainfarts on deconditioning, in an effort to make some sense of past experiences and perhaps contribute to something or other, thru the outlet of Outer Authority (which you deep down know knows nothing).

Wait. Drink some Tea.

Have nap.”- Lars Haugeland
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The Drama of Profile

“…the design side. You have no conscious access to it, which means there is no way your mind can either interfere with it or truly grasp it. It has nothing to do with your mind.

And in terms of the not-self, the not-self does everything in its power to ignore it, even if that unconscious is the sole thing driving its definitions, because it has no access to it, none. When somebody enters into the experiment of Human Design, that experiment is cutting off the mind from trying to run the life and allowing the mind to become mind, to be involved in what it’s here for, which we’ll get to in a moment. But the moment you’re operating according to Strategy and Authority you’re automatically aligning your vehicle to its cognition and you’re automatically aligning your vehicle to a geometry, a trajectory, a direction, whatever language you want to use, that is absolutely correct for you…

…We have a dilemma with mind in Human Design because as not-self it really destroys our possibility to be able to perfect our process. But once you’ve entered into a process where your Strategy and Authority is making the rules for your life there are all kinds of possibilities then for the mind. It is its freedom. And this freedom is to be an outer authority, what you get from me. That is, my mind has value for you. It does not have the same value for me. That is, my mind does not tell me what to do so it is no longer my inner authority.” – Ra Uru Hu – Rave Cosmology VI – Profile, Purpose and Function

MoonBlog 28.1 preparation

I’m about to throw in the towel, leave all these FB HD groups. Again 😉

The influx of newbies who are drawn in by people like Jenna Zoe selling people ‘Reflector muffins’ and ‘dieting by Type’, combined with the groups admin/moderators too uninterested in keeping the contents about HD.

I really enjoy sharing experience and knowledge with others about HD, in individual sessions, classes and in those groups.

But it seems it is just not my network anymore, when other Certified or semi Professionals also use such groups for shooting from the hip and just blabber from their minds.

I don’t care about the newbie doing so, it is what we are here for, to help guide the way, shine the light, give proper info.

But when the trained, or even certified start doing so, I know it is no longer ‘safe’ for me anymore. When some caretakers take a break themselves, and the groups instantly become much much worse.

Now I know it is in part the Transits cause every single year around this time, this notion happens. I know it is the 4th line overwhelm and sense of abdication.
Is it my Kiron Return of last May? Is it the caving in of the structure of the Cross of Planning too?

I just don’t feel available anymore to the masses, the lurkers, the silent readers, and the network seems depleted, or at least shrinking.

Anyways, maybe see you again elsewhere
(For now, I left a couple of badly moderated groups, and blocked a few more idiots, maybe it helps)
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On Transits

“Hello everyone, I’d like to make an important clarification about following transits that is long overdue: This group is for those who are sincerely living their strategy and authority and understand that following astrological transits is very different from a nine centered point of view than it has been historically for many of those interested in astrology. Astrology originated in a seven centered era, when we were strategic beings focused on survival. Within that context there was rightly a strategic intent to following transits.

For nine centered humanity today, it’s clear to me that transits are not opportunities to do something. Even if you recognize a transit like mercury retrograde as an opportunity to re-evaluate things, it’s not an opportunity for your mind. Your mind will want to play out scenarios with that transit, all of which are not self strategies. You don’t know what things you’ll be re-evaluating, and how that will play out. You’re not going to get what your mind wants. It’s just something to be aware of as it’s happening to you and to others around you. It’s not wise to pencil into your calendar “time to re-evaluate my contracts” just because mercury is in retrograde. You don’t know that that is where your energy wants to go. I bet you will re-evaluate something, but you don’t know what, when, and how. You’re not in control of that. That’s mental intervention that inhibits the natural flow of your life.

We are conditioned by neutrinos, not in control of them. They will color your life according to roughly predictable themes, in the context of your design…pushing you in directions…but there is no way to utilize them for our own ends…attempting to do so is the definition of acting from the not self. There is merely identification with that transit energy or not, and even in that we have no choice. We can only see what we can see at any given time. We don’t get to choose to have the awareness to not succumb to transit conditioning. Just because you know a transit is happening doesn’t mean you’re beyond being pushed by it. But maybe you’ll notice the impersonality of it later, and that will be of value to you. One way or another, we are always going to be conditioned. If you have the energy to be aware of how and to what extent, lucky you.

Do you want to be a part of a group that is created for witnessing the transits as they activate lines, gates, and channels in our lives, recognizing these energies that are conditioning us, so as not to identify with them, not to make decisions because of them, and not to take their themes personally? That’s what this group is. And fortunately I have a volunteer to continue to post the sun gate and line transits daily. Understanding this astro context can help put the mind at ease, allowing us to truly see more as a witness, without grasping and identifying, and to ultimately help us clarify the difference between our nature that we can rely on and the transiting energies that are just weather.

Please feel free to comment if you need clarification on this important difference. The old orientation insidiously reinforces the not self mental control game, the new orientation liberates the passenger to see more clearly and relax into the form.”- James Alexander in the Human Design Line, Gate, and Channel Study

MoonBlog 60.5 leadership

Relevant to several FB HD groups: The convo about being bullied or not is a side issue but taking it away from the real issue, the cause for most of these arguments/discussions, where we no longer speak about HD but about how we speak about HD, and how we speak to each other:

Can you be in a group, where people have different ways of talking?

Do you seek to impose ways of communication on others? Like safe spaces and whatnot. Are you easily offended?

Do you argue the tone, and how it (supposedly) -feels- to you (which is thinking btw) what the other has said, but never intended.

Do you seek to manipulate your experiences of life and of conversations with others?

Are your decisions and opinions run by your arrogant mind in a group that seeks to support in moving away from that same mind?

Etc etc.
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MoonBlog 33.2 surrender

When your deeper cravings, wishes and desires, drive your actions, become your motives. To not be aware of these deeper wants, hunger, longing. Not sit with them but resolve them, trying to, filling countless round holes with square pegs (pun intended).

As opposed to be aware of them, honoring them, allowing them to be. To be a lone human on a barren planet, looking for love, looking, looking. Where your conditioned conditions meet the other’s conditioned conditions. Where you find, but not just quite, or seems not, is not, as we knee-jerk onwards. Uh and ah !

A great hunger and appetite for intimacy

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We are Here to Communicate Outer Authority

We are all here to communicate our outer authority. It’s what we’re about. And we know it is not easy to find those that we can communicate with and we are understood. Human beings talking to each other, how little they hear each other. When your mind is in control of your life and you’re having a heated discussion with somebody, your mind is so busy trying to figure out how to win, control, defeat the other, defend oneself, and prepare the next sentence. And while you’re preparing the next sentence you don’t hear what’s being said because you don’t care, because you’re just dealing with homogenized views and homogenized views can always be argued about, because there is no universal truth. There isn’t. It’s a myth.

There are universal homogenized accept abilities. Truth is unique; it’s just unique. And it’s not about saying when someone receives outer authority and that person tells them something in that outer authority that does not have to become their truth. It is simply something that has been communicated. We don’t understand that kind of communication. We don’t.

This is the way in which the program tries to compensate, there are all these hidden fractal lines. There are these natural mathematical partners. It doesn’t mean they’re there to be your lovers, your friends, but they are certainly going to be those forces that when you communicate they hear it. And if it resonates within them they pass it along—“you’ll never guess what I heard yesterday.” This is the movement.

It’s why I’m always so concerned about simplicity. It’s not because I think that those beings that are interested in Human Design don’t have the grasp. The greatest dilemma of a knowledge like this is how misleading intelligence is. It’s misleading. When you understand the nature of fractal you realize that simple is the only way that you get beyond the third or fourth or fifth or sixth generation of communication. It’s the only way that anything moves. I’m a 5/1; I’m here to call universally. You can’t do that when the language is so complex that nobody can truly grasp it. It has to be simple.

And if something can be distilled down to the simple and stand up to testing, then it is something that will move down the fractal line. And it says something about all communication, is that one of the things that we avoid the most in our dealing with the other is the simple. We don’t say what we really think; we don’t say what we really feel. We couch things in coded expressions, innuendos, facial movement. We don’t really share what’s really there because we don’t know how, and I’m speaking of humanity. -Ra Uru Hu, Facets & Fractals, Advanced Base Theory