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Reflector

Gate 57 Line 3 Acuteness

In the collective and in the tribe, there is no recognition for Reflectors, they are not seen/acknowledged, asked, initiated, prodded. Except talked about in the third person sense.

Only in individual interaction, are they seen
and maybe/perhaps even praised for their impact and influence, their razor sharp perception and guidance. Yet, however, even then not by many.

For the hard hearing and newbies: the HD ‘community’ is most certainly not excluded from this. Just mechanics and duality.
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“Any reflector’s group to join ? I would love to join an online community”

Often run by non studying non deconditioning admins who think New Age religion and pseudo psycho analysis with subjective moralism is the way, preferably combined with Myers-Briggs, colour yoga, mineral hugging and countless years of youtube Astrology. Not a great place for unsuspecting Reflectors to be.

Your mileage may vary 😉

The Reflector

Your authority is not simply the emotional ‘there is no truth in now.’ For you, there is only truth after a cycle of the Moon. This is your key. And it’s only then that you can begin to experience the Reflector life, not muse on it, ponder it, but to experience it in all of its richness and depth. Follow your Strategy and Authority. Honor the Moon. Be a true Reflector, and in being a true Reflector find that surprise that you can transcend all of those forces that have dominated you forever, you can, and that you can fulfill your purpose. — Ra Uru Hu

“For what reason, I don’t know”

careful to not blame or claim things that are yours to reflection and amplification too easily, as many do, do

you emote, you feel, sense, you breathe, you laugh, you cry, etc 😉

all yours, even while among other people/auras

if you would have 0 activations, so no gates, then maybe yes, you might be all reflection, but you have up to 26 activations yourself, they (inter)act 😉

The Transits are like the weather, we do not become the rain, we get wet.

But more so, there is no Root in the Transits, only people and objects can have centers, but nothing actually gets defined, it is just a graphic representation of said energies, but there are no floating centers anywhere in space or something. So the root is not open, or ever defined, in the Transits. Only people that get born now or in 88-ish days get these transits as their imprints, defined (activated at least)

Also, effects is always 1+1, so you plus said energy/transit = perceived result/experience.

And then (yes there is more) even if born the exact same day and time, transit energies can have a very different effect on each individual, because we are, unique individuals.

Space/uni-bi-verse itself might have centers?

“There’s a moon tracker for reflectors that shows them how their design changes with the moon cycle.”

no one’s design changes by Transits, its all just external influence. It’s just wrong to word it like that. People, including Reflectors, believe the weirdest shit about their chart and HD.

Besides, the Reflectors sampling experience is about -all- 64 Gates, not only when on the surface of the map, this Transit connects to that activation and forms a -temporary conditioning channel-.

For instance, I don’t have Gate 30 activated, nor Gate 41, but it can have an incredibly deep affect on me. But when Gate 10 is in the Transits, forming a temporary conditioning channel to my 20, nothing, not a thing. Yet everyone is running wild about how it should, would, could affect me.

This is why journaling your factual experience and perception is key. Not staring at some colors on a piece of paper and pretending it is this, or that.

Path of the Sacred Clown

by Peggy Andreas / Written 1995

In my last article, I wrote of the Native American spiritual path of the Sacred Warrior. To Native Americans, the path of the Sacred Clown is ALSO considered a spiritual calling, essential to the smooth functioning of the tribe:

In the days before the invaders came. . .we had clowns. Not clowns like you see now, with round red noses and baggy costumes. Our clowns wore all kinds of stuff. Anythin’ they felt like, they wore. And they didn’t just come out once in a while to act silly and make people laugh, our clowns were with us all the time, as important to the village as the chief, or the shaman, or the dancers, or the poets.1

Most every tribe had their Clowns. The Oglala and Lakota called them Heyoka (“crazy”), the Arapaho called them Ha Hawkan (“holy idiot”), and both peoples considered them religious specialists. The Salish people honor the memory of a Clown who (not so long ago) challenged a missionary. The missionary was enticing people to come to his church by handing out little mirrors to them while urging them to cover their bodies with white folks’ clothes. It is told with a smile that the Clown (a woman!) walked into the church one Sunday wearing nothing but a hat and old shoes! Read the book to find out what happened!2

The Hopis protected their Sacred Clowns by incorporating them into their Katchina (“Cloud spirit”) ceremonies where the Clowns make a hilarious entrance from a roof, descending a rope ladder into the plaza where the Katchinas are dancing. “Look down there!” they exclaim, “Everything is bountiful and beautiful!” Their descent is very precarious, usually head-first, and causes much laughter as they tumble over each other and fall the last few feet. They do not see the Katchinas until they bump into them, and then they say “This is MINE!” or “This many are MINE!” They act silly, childish, greedy, selfish, and lewd. As they pretend to become aware of their surroundings, they mock tourists, anthropologists, neighboring Indians, even themselves! They beg for food. Their guessing games and balancing acts please the crowds. The dancing Clowns sometimes pretend they are invisible, heightening the joke.3

The survival of these ritual clowns gives us a clue as to how important a Clown was to the community-spirit of each Native American tribe. Nothing was sacred to a Sacred Clown. She was a social critic of the highest order. Her funny mimicry and joking exposed hypocrisy and arrogance. Her portrayals of ridiculous behavior showed the people (in a very humorous way) their own foolishness and blind-spots. “A clown was like a newspaper, or a magazine, or one of those people who write an article to tell you if a book or a movie is worth botherin’ with. They made comment on everythin’, every day, all the time. If a clown thought that what the tribal council was gettin’ ready to do was foolish, why the clown would just show up at the council and imitate every move every one of the leaders made. Only the clown would imitate it in such a way every little wart on that person would show, every hole in their idea would suddenly look real big.”
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Auras

Now, we have all kinds of speculation about the nature of the aura. In order for us to connect with the other, in order for us to be directly conditioned-in other words, you have a gate in a channel and it’s open and somebody has a gate in the same channel at the other end, the harmonic gate-in order for that definition to come into existence your auras have to make contact.

But they make contact in different ways. And different auras have different sizes. The first thing about the size of the aura, the size of the aura is not static. It breathes. If you’re an urbanite and you have to get on the subway you’re going to pull your aura in. And when I say you are going to pull, it’s not that you consciously do that. Your aura will pull in. In other words, the aura breathes. And it’s very important not to see it as something that is static. It’s not like you’re moving in a fixed shell, like you’re inside an egg or something. You really have to understand that this is something that is breathing.

More than that, that breathing fluctuation can go from being quite large-so for example, if you stand up and you place your arms up in the air away from you, spreading your arms as far as they can so you’ve got your full wingspan, if you double the length of that distance, twice an arm length on either side going all the way around you in every direction, that’s approximately the maximum potential. Now, if you think carefully about that, what that means is that if you’re living in an apartment building and your bedroom has a common wall with a neighbor next door, they’re always sleeping with you.

I don’t want to shock any of you, but I truly want you to understand that. If you’re living in one of these modern buildings that has a very low ceiling, then you’re in contact with those that are above you, and you’re in contact with those that are below you. Your aura will go through anything. It does go through walls. If you’re living beside a street and there is a room in your house or your flat that is very close to a pedestrian walkway everybody walking by walks through your house. It’s something to keep in mind.

So the aura is more than something that’s static. The aura is something that is breathing. But that’s not what I really want to talk to you about today. I want you to understand that each type has a unique aura. Now, that’s just logical. Each type is a very specific configuration genetically. They operate very differently from each other. Their strategies are different from each other. And it’s essential to see that it also is evident in their aura. So let me describe to you the four different auras of the four types.

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actually, the reflector is great –

On the interwebs I read:

(txt file copy here: 20230207.txt)

So I would have preferred to have this on a vlog, but will type instead.

This has taken months of looking at things from angles, literally. From determination, to cognition, environment, motivation, to view. From looking at things about the other, to seeing things that I had learned about myself through things I had seen through other people around. Through Ra audio, through things about Projector’s, invitations, being asked, through seeing the transits without looking them up through other people during the time I had visited in the Netherlands.

We can look at things for 20 years and still be wrong, I see people do this often, as if the length or depth of looking has any bearing on the results of the looking, or it qualifies as more better or something.

And from really looking at my thoughts, and also, what the body was like in the Netherlands, what Sjef was like, what the Reflector was like – how i felt there, and how things looked from the outside, when no longer being in the Netherlands. What i actually looked like, when no longer focused on the other.

We can only look at ourselves, and how -we perceive- the other, but we can never say how someone else ‘was like’. Cause we are not them, we can only interpret, so it is always far more nuanced.

What actually happened is my design received an invitation to a place in which i actually couldn’t experience any time in my own aura. I was told when going to the Netherlands, there would be two rooms. And there were/are two rooms in that apartment. But the apartment is so small, that there is no place in that apartment really, where people can be outside of the aura of another. The apartment is literally for one human.

Is that what ‘actually happened’? Or did you interpret it as such…?

Now, I can’t say for sure that Sjef actually knew that. Because Sjef explained how he actually had a girlfriend live in that apartment with him in the past.

twice

Here’s the thing, physical things like walls, aren’t capable of separating auras. Auras are roughly 5 feet all around the physical body, outward – in every direction.

I’d say it’s rather 10 feet or about 3 meters, ‘2 arms lengths on either side’ makes for double, easy. And of course (!) varying upon the person, the day, the mood, or whatever else aura size may influence (no one really knows), a quote:
“In other words, the aura breathes. And it’s very important not to see it as something that is static. It’s not like you’re moving in a fixed shell, like you’re inside an egg or something. You really have to understand that this is something that is breathing. More than that, that breathing fluctuation can go from being quite large-so for example, if you stand up and you place your arms up in the air away from you, spreading your arms as far as they can so you’ve got your full wingspan, if you double the length of that distance, twice an arm length on either side going all the way around you in every direction, that’s approximately the maximum potential.” – Ra Uru Hu
from http://humandesignsystem.blogspot.com/2005/07/auras.html

But I have shared my apartment plan, either like this

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it is absolutely impossible

“There are 60 million mothers of Reflectors on the planet, approximately, if they’re alive. That is, they’re 1% of our 6 billion population so there are about 60 million Reflector mothers that show up every once in a while. It’s not like they don’t exist. They do.

I want you to understand disappointment. The Projector arrives and it’s really annoyed. It wasn’t invited. It doesn’t know what this is all about. The Reflector arrives looking forward to the whole thing, only to be deeply disappointed from the very beginning. And it has to do with the nature of their aura. I don’t know how many of you were able to listen to my Daily View special on auras. If not, the transcribed version of that is available on the website.

The thing to recognize about Reflector auras is that their auras are made of Teflon. Reflectors have Teflon auras. And basically what that means is that they shimmy with you, but they don’t let you in. Everybody looks at a Reflector chart and they say oh, they’re so vulnerable and they’re so open. But that’s simply because you have the counterpoint.

It is impossible, if you have definition, it is absolutely impossible, I don’t care if you’re a single definition, mental Projector, it is absolutely impossible to understand what it is to be a Reflector. It is a totally different aura.

If you could see the aura of a Projector, it is like a fist breaking into a beanbag. This is a Projector’s aura. It goes whack like that, which is why Generators don’t like them, because the Generator aura is this kind of fuzzy warm swallow you. And it’s really kind of enveloping. And the Projector does whack.

So when you’re dealing with a reflector, you’re dealing with this Teflon aura. Here you are, momma Generator (swoosh sound). And you’ve got this baby that goes (sound), and the mother is already disappointed. “I don’t seem to have contact with my child.” It’s like: “We don’t really seem to connect.” And the child is going (swoosh sound).

This child doesn’t care that it has a mother. The Manifestors and Generators and Projectors, everything is dependent on the mother; everything. The mother ally is going to change their life. The Reflector—swoosh. It doesn’t make a difference who it is because they’re not interested in people. They didn’t come to this planet to look at other people. They came to look at the sky.

If you have a Reflector baby, you wrap it up really warm—two weeks old—you take it outside at night with a full moon like you’re baptizing a werewolf. Then it’s going to know why it’s on the planet. And it’s one of the most magical things to understand about Reflectors.

It’s what I teach them in terms of awakening. I teach them to understand the program. They’re not here to understand people. They’re not here to understand themselves. They don’t care. They don’t. Oh we teach them to care, which isn’t necessarily good for them. We condition them to all these other things. But they still have this Teflon aura. They’re never really going to connect with you, because that’s not what they’re here for.

We have two ways in which we are conditioned. We have the auras that are there between life forms. And then we have the neutrino ocean and its feed. The Reflector is the only type that is designed to ward off that human quality, diminish it, and reduce it in value. It’s not that it’s gone; but to reduce it in its value and power, and in doing so they become more receptive and more attuned to the program. And that’s what they’re here for.

So, the parent that has a Reflector child, it doesn’t matter what they do. It doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter what they are. It doesn’t matter what their configuration is. It doesn’t matter what the partnership is. The only thing that matters is that we hope that the child is well fed, that it’s got a decent environment.

But you really have to understand this about the Reflector; they’re very different. And this introduction to sky, we don’t do that anymore. It’s one of the first things I did when my son was born the countryside here on the north end of the island, in an old finca in the countryside, when he was about two weeks old. He’s not a Reflector. It’s just that I wanted him to see the sky. I took him outside. He’s lying there staring up at these incredible lights.

You can’t imagine how important that is for the Reflector baby, to have contact with this vastness. You give them this image of vastness; you take away all their disappointment. You take it all away. If you only show them these silly human beings that are all around them, they will be disappointed all of their lives, all of their lives.

It’s one of the deepest things that I can teach Reflectors. Forget about the importance of people; forget about all that. Forget about it. Don’t study people’s charts. Watch the program. That’s your job. That’s why you’re here. That’s what you’re here for.” -Ra Uru Hu

‘Cause we need a little, controversy

to all moralists, liars and other 5 centered idiots, Sjef says: “of the 12 women into HD that had sex with me, averaging not even one HD sex partner per year of being into HD

about 4 have I taught any HD before the sex, with well over 200 that is averaging less than 1 in 50

the other 8 I either never taught or it was after the sex.”

If you read some of my writings and sharing and happen to experience a drive to –not– connect, great. If you do experience a drive to connect, great, you are hereby invited, asked, informed and initiated to do so through the contact page.
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The one that breaks the rule, is normally closer to the truth.


 

This is the reflector. There’s only 1% of them. They’re not here to care about impact, they’re not here to respond to life or have an enveloping aura, they’re not here to be focused on anyone in particular. They’re here to understand the totality, because they’re the only ones who are not fixed on anything. They have a Teflon aura, you know, they sample, they sample. The theme of the reflector is disappointment, because when they start off as a child, you know everything new is different and then, you know, after a certain time you just start getting repetitions of everything. Somebody like your father or somebody like your mother, somebody like your uncle, somebody like your brother, somebody… There’s no surprise anymore. People are just normal. Everybody’s normal, you know, and because this type has a Teflon aura, you know, they do not necessarily go very deep with anyone. They do not necessarily come very close to anyone and of course if you don’t come close, you don’t start feeling the differences. So this is what this is all about for this type. They’re here to see who is different. Because you see, the one that is different, the one that breaks the rule, is normally closer to the truth.
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Let’s begin at the beginning.

Dharmen Swann-Herbert 1/3 Reflector, RAX of the Unexpected

“Reflectors are the only beings born with no definition, unlike everybody else. We have activations. What that means is that our auras are different, but not entirely so. Manifestors’ auras are closed and insulating. Generators’ auras are open and enveloping. Projectors’ auras are focused and absorbing. But Reflectors’ auras are sampling, which means these auras open and close, and our openness amplifies that experience. Reflectors will never experience definition, only conditioning, as that is our nature. This is where the Reflector begins life in the open vastness with no definition, and no hope of ever being defined. Always conditioned, always looking to be like everybody else; always seeking to be filled in. Until a Reflector finds their path, we are lost in the sea of conditioning. And here is the cosmic joke, every Reflector is different from every other Reflector, and yet all seeking the same thing– to find themselves.

Reflectors have the greatest ally– the Moon. But here’s another of those jokes — only the Personality Moon can show the Reflector our unique way. We’re open, there is not center energy guide for us, it’s the Moon that shows us our way, and in the only way it can– through our personality. Why, you might ask is this so? It’s really quite simple — our personality is what is conscious to us. When we as a Reflector accept the moon as our teacher, we are on the way to finding our path. Reflectors are the student of experience and experience comes to us amplified.

Conditioning is always amplified so that we can become intimate with experience. Experience reveals how energy gets experienced. Every 28.5 days shows the Reflector what energy feels like, looks like, smells like, tastes like, flows like. Every 28.5 days gives the Reflector a glimpse of what an experience is, and all based on what the Reflector has activated. This is mechanical. Not personal. But the stories are personal. The stories are the Reflectors greatest teacher, because the stories are amplified too.

You begin to see the beauty of design. The mind takes in all the conditioning and turns that conditioning into stories, and the Reflector is here to see all those stories in their openness. Every time the mind is saying something, it is telling you a story about what has happened, what is going to happen, or what may happen – based upon your conditioning. It does not tell stories about what is actually happening; what is actually happening is experienced only through direct observation. When we can see this phenomenon, we become the guides of observation.

This is our role, to see how all of the stories make experience personal; to become aware of how these stories are not our actual life. Our work is to become aware that the mind and its stories are not an actual experience; but what they do is provide us with an example of how experience is seen by the mind. Our life as a Reflector is a moment by moment experience of what comes and goes. This takes place when we sacrifice trying to be like everyone else, we gain the gift of understanding of how energy is experienced.

This is the wisdom the Reflector can bring when they find their path, and when they trust their openness. So for Reflectors, the thing to recognize, that there is no experience you are mechanically designed to hold onto, to have consistently; because experience is your life.”

Dharmen Swann-Herbert – thesecretofbeingyou.com

MoonBlog 51.2 withdrawal

Weirdos in the mail

weirdo: Calling all #Reflectors (according to Human Design)!!! ?
Are you a reflector and feeling all the feels? Could you use some relaxation and a deep energetic reset in a loving environment where people just get you?
Join me this Sunday, online, at 10am PST for an hour of group-supprted Reiki healing for your highest good. ✨
It’s going to be magical! ??
Leave any questions you have below!

Hi There! How are you doing today? I’m reaching out to let you know that I’m hosting a Reiki for Reflectors group call again this Sunday at 10am PST. Would love for you to join us!! Would you also be down to post to your page or story to get the word out to all the Reflectors in the world who could use this? Thank you so much!! ???

me: Hi, only see your message now (y)
No, not down to doing that.

Mind Candy for the Mentally Obese (and those that love them)

ISBN-13 : 978-1951694340

“The Human Design Reflector type is a rare and unique being. They have a very special role to play as wise observers of the world.”

Not necessarily, this is a fairytale homogenization. There are no fixed roles for anyone. Human Design is not for everyone, and Reflectors being 1.45% of 4% of 4% makes 9 Reflectors out 387.931 that ever meet HD will live accordingly. The Reflector chart is not a certificate, and most don’t study HD at all, let alone decondition.

“A Reflector’s uniqueness gives them a specific set of challenges they must navigate if they are to exist as strong, healthy, and happy individuals.”

Again, there is no such a must, this is pretending life is magical and the fairytale has a beginning, a middle and an end. And that we can have control over it by following some false dogma. Some Reflectors will live as ‘strong, healthy, and happy individuals’ without ever meeting HD. The teacher of this Reflector, Karen Curry Parker is a well known liar about what HD is and how to use it, and abuse not-self/external energies (Transits) for ones own self made up goals. This description reeks of just that, and making HD into some kind of religion even, by stating that there are musts.

“When they harness their unique strengths, they can serve as human barometers, reflecting back the current health of their community and forecasting what is energetically yet to come.”

This forecasting is false. Anyone with HD knowledge (Rave Cosmology) can do this. It is not limited to Reflectors and it is pretending -all- Reflectors can and will do this, if those ridiculous conditions ‘harness(ing) their unique strengths’ are met, first. Which is just more false belief, and gives enormous pressure to the unsuspecting Reflector asked to forecast. There are easily 1000’s of -different- Reflectors. Each with unique abilities and networks and conditioning and their mechanical imprint. Some are stronger in this field, than any other. To homogenize all Reflectors to fairy-tale like functions is simply incorrect.

“Reflectors flourish with support and guidance about how to live a fulfilling and sustainable life.”

A what now? ‘fulfilling and sustainable’ are subjective gibberish, and again make it sound as if the Reflector has to do all kinds of circus acts before becoming a good little Reflector. Total nonsense, see also: MoonBlog 58.4 Focusing and MoonBlog 46.5 Pacing, and who is supposed to give this support, let alone guidance?

“Without this, they can easily feel misunderstood and, at times, lost.”

Feelings are sensations, like hot, or cold. Misunderstanding is a thought. So we think misunderstood, we think (to be) lost. And mind is -never- the Inner Authority. And it is true we -are- misunderstood, but it’s not a feeling inside the Reflector, writing about HD correctly is not easy, see also: MoonBlog 46.3 Projection.

“A thriving Reflector is a beacon of objectivity and wisdom.”

Or not… Ah yes, duality… totally ignored by KCP…

“This book provides Reflectors and those who love them with a tangible guide that supports Reflectors in working with their unique design, equipping them with the tools they need to fulfil their specific life purpose.”

Yes the market is ‘those that love them’ and talk nonsense to them, and pretending there are such goals, if only you help them put their mind/effort into it. There is no such need. Much of this is just another form/version of undefined ego/heart proving and improving, the first responder of the not-self, which KCP and Amber Clements both have undefined.
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An issue for not-self Reflectors (don’t believe this hype)

“Are you a Reflector and you want to take your deconditioning seriously, then complete isolation for a month is the best thing you can do for yourself.”

This ends up in a proof/prove (undefined heart/ego) to yourself to do this drama, this does -not- apply to all Reflectors and is certainly not the way to take ‘living your design seriously’.

Yes, this was done by one person and another, and a few more Reflectors, but subsequently adopted as a homogeneous method by many including other Reflectors and Professionals and even Reflector Professionals.

Much that is written about the Reflector can be traced back to the desire to be able to interpret them, and preferably by something they should or should not have -to do-, see MoonBlog 58.4 Focussing.

There are Reflectors who blame themselves for not having done this yet, which is a strange development.
Let yourself be guided by your Strategy and Inner Authority, and not by a good sounding story from anyone else.

If (big if) Strategy and Authority leads you to a month of isolation: great. If not: great.

See for example the discussions about this online on facebook:
https://www.facebook.com/groups/38840257689/permalink/10151607242157690/ or, if this is offline click here
https://www.mcha.nl/wp-content/uploads/2019/04/ReflectorsOneMonthSolitudeNo.pdf

Moonblog 49.6 attraction

reflector sampling, or… not-self? 😉

I once bought a Digital Multi Meter. Hadn’t had one in a while and building guitar pedals, working on motorbikes and what not, they come in handy. So I buy a new one from a so-so brand for about 40 bucks I think. Conrad’s own Voltcraft VC175.

At one point it stops working, all I get are four dashes – – – – and not 0.035volts for instance.

So I try to find another one to replace it, second hand this time, and preferably a brand. I find one that looks a bit crummy but is super easy to use and has all the functions that I think I need and it’s a Fluke, 113 model. Stil twice the price of the other one new, but hey, its a Fluke.

Once home I clean the outside up a little with water and soap and use it, and it’s great. Until I need to do some tests and I get weird results. I even end up sending the pcb elsewhere for testing and finding out what is wrong. Turns out, all the tests run fine, my meter is off ! So seemingly fully functioning, but wrong values.

So I decide to scour the interwebs for advice for another one. Cause I’m not that enthusiastic about getting a ‘better’ 200 bucks Fluke this time, even if I love my gadgets and I like well known stuff, but let’s see what the experts have to say. There I find there are kinda 2 camps, the cheapos and the semi-professionals. The cheapos advice the Aneng AN8008 or AN8009 for about 20 bucks, new, incl shipping from China and the semi-professionals advice the Brymen BM235 which costs about 95 bucks brand new, excl shipping.

I realize one meter is no meter, you need to be able to check yours if anything is off. So I decide to buy them both, it’s only 20 bucks extra and the cheaper one is quite liked too, so why not? I see a funny GM328A meter gadget for 3 pin diodes and whatnot for 15 bucks and get that one too.

Realising also, that my electronic work and interest is growing and that maybe it is time for an oscilloscope too. Go into the deep end of measuring and the semi-professionals kinda agree on the Rigol DS1054Z as a great beginners scope, so that one is in the back of my mind/on the wannahave list. Meanwhile I also read up on calibrating Digital Multi Meters and find the ‘DMM Check Plus‘ which comes with a proper calibration report so you can always verify your meters and their measured results, or compare to each other how precise they are, mmm yum, I like that even better ! 🙂

Slowly slowly the meters arrive, and while I’m making a post about the different meters, I see a picture of the inside of the Voltcraft VC175

And I notice 2 fuses… so I open it up and with the new Brymen BM235 I check the fuses, and the 10A 5600V one is working, but the 0.5A 600V is broken. Would it.. could it be?

I order a few spare fuses and once they arrive I replace the broken one and voilà ! No more dashes and reading normal values….

So now having 4 Digital Multi Meters, of which 3 are working fine (fluke is still flakey), one gadgety one, an oscilloscope and a calibrated meter checker/tester, when all I needed was to replace one fuse? Was it?

Happy sampling ! 🙂
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MoonBlog 34.5 annihilation

“The (un)bearable lightness of being…”

“2 days of no transit definition. All 9 centres white. A rare opportunity for Reflectors to savour the complete absence of any kind of pressure from without and within. Difficult to find the right words to express the delight I am experiencing in this limitless space and time, the weightlessness of the body moving around as if floating. No definition, no structure, no mind interfering in this experience of “the (un)bearable lightness of just being there – in wonder…”

Reflectors around the globe – watch out for those days and find a way to be by yourself in those rare moments… you might be up for a surprise!”

and: “It happened again today… yes – it’s difficult to describe in words Isabel Moreira. I imagine that’s why some people use drugs to have that kind of experience. Maybe later on something pops up to share more with my Reflector kin… For now I am just savouring this cosmic bath… in silence… ?” – Nisarg B. Nikiel

What is this notion of a cosmic bath? Right now the Moon is in Gate 34 forming a temporary conditioned definition with my Gate 20. Besides we’re not here to live the Transits themselves, and even then, our individual experience will always be different, regardless of what the resulting chart looks like. The chart is not the life (!)

The other day (August 21st 2020), Earth was in Gate 30 line 5, which I do not have in my chart, nor do I have Gate 41, but I’ve never seriously felt more depressed and suicidal than ever before, when for instance I was in much more dire situations/outer circumstances. No I was just sitting there on my bed, watching tv, a comedy even, and I became deeply depressed and suicidal. This Gate 30 has always been a huge trigger for me. Nothing cosmic or bath-like for me, unless it was to drown myself in, to die.

There are no fairy tales in Human Design and certainly no homogenization, so when there are no channels formed by the Transits, it does not have to mean anything at all, and most certainly not for all Reflectors, no made up surprises, nothing the same for anyone/everyone else. Even when ‘no definition’ shows up. Nothing is fixed, not positive not negative.

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Here’s the thing

about the transits and conditioning – they are not you. They are an experience that is happening for you to observe, not to identify nor act upon. It can be an amplified experience, so that you begin to see it, and how it programs the mind to initiate actions based upon False Evidence Appearing Real – the mind’s survival defense mechanisms.

It is not about ignoring the mind, either. It is about noticing the stories that the mind makes up and tries to convince you that they are real. Those stories are fingers pointing towards what you are here to be wise about, those energies passing through your open gates, channels and centers.” – Leela Swann-Herbert

MoonBlog 20.6 Wisdom

weirdos in the mail

Weirdo: Sjef, I owe you an apology.

me: What for?

weirdo: I came at you pretty good one day, you punted me from your group and defriended me
no harm, no foul

me: well that is inaccurate, we discussed your non Human Design topics in the comments, as we work(ed) with 2 admins and 1 moderator, and per the group rules decided to delete the comments and remove you from the group.
but yeah, people who are into channeling and such I defriend, I have no capacity to filter all that crap (too).
And, duality man: yes harm, yes foul!

weirdo: I don’t always agree with you, and I will not get into that. Not my purpose here. I am a classic 3/5 and I am not shy about it. I also have a RAX Rulership 3 as well…..quite a mix.
However….I want to be clear that I respect you.

me: so you keep saying…

weirdo: your lunar tracking sheet from your page, I did that something like 2 years ago and it brought massive relief. and People kept asking and asking me to translate it and do the work for them. Fuck that…..I kept trying to encourage and show….and lead….and get them to do what I did. And many are lazy and lack the will to go do it themselves, spoon fed.

me: so you make an individual tool of personal empowerment into a shitty version of itself to spoon feed them automated?

weirdo: So this past June I quit a $140K a year job, and have gone all in with Karen Parker and am doing her training. Probably not in alignment with you….and that’s cool. It is for me.
I am going all in on coaching and doing my own thing way off the map…but associated with them. I now have an LLC and a FB page called Quantum Reflections…website launching soon and I am going slow.
I ended up reaching out to John at Genetic Matrix about a month ago and worked with him and that spreadsheet inspired by yours. He ended up creating this, and it was released today for Pro level subscriptions.

me: yes I got 2 messages about that before you emailed me. So who/what initiated you to do so, per your S&A?
My disclaimer page says: “people can use ‘my’ material from this website freely, any and all” which does not say, ‘companies can’.
Besides that, there already is this Transit Tool provided by myBodyGraph which I reviewed here: MoonBlog 54.6 Selectivity which as an online automated tool is far superior.
there also already is The Path of the Moon – A Human Design Experiential Workbook a culmination of the Path of the Moon workshop/courses Dharmen and Leela gave for many years and I joined/enjoyed 3 times.

weirdo: I have posted this in a few places and when people toss credit at me, I am quick to say, “hey, I didn’t create this….it was Sjef that showed me how to do this from his website reflector sessions.

me: what is this, some kind of repenting?

weirdo: Anyway, I may not agree with you but I do respect the hell out of you.

me: so you keep saying…

weirdo: I also am very heavy into Dispenza’s work and I feel that is for the passenger consciousness. A compliment to HD and they are in synergy for me.
I believe that we are all beings of light in these shells we walk around in here in 3D reality. I am into quantum theory, dispenza, Human design, and a lady named Allison Armstrong who does human insticnts. for me personally, they all fit into a synthesis…and it is unique and my spin on life.
While I may not agree with everything, your adherence to S/A was a touchstone for me to keep on my HD work.
I do feel we are in a great awakening worldwide.
I would point to the transits and the utter fucking chaos from the unconscious masses. The Schumann response and the heightened photonic activity…..the energy this year is insane. Do look into the schumann, I would invite some attention there as a data point. and yes….I have been to the very top of the Q thing and it is in fact real and it is growing.
However…..I have chosen to fully embrace and live my design and go all in as a reflector. I like Karen…I don’t agree with everything she says…but she knows her shit and is building something new. Evolution….like Rudd did.

me: that is the marketing in the window, yes, evolution, it rings nice, and it caught you in its webs, like so many other wannabees/newbies. When it is just more ego/mind horseshit, and the fact you need to use -their words- to explain why you are doing it, means you’re operating from a convinced believing mind. A wonderful signpost of the not-self, mind. You don’t know what correctness is, what it looks like. You keep coming with mental arguments why this, why that, and those are never true. It’s hard to wake up to the fact you are a believer, and are a slave to your minds convictions, especially when Gate 47 is activated, or as in our case, our Personality Sun even. It thinks it’s so goddamn smart, it believes it’s own lies. A tough trip, I know, been there, done that, no t-shirt.

weirdo: I feel that very soon people like us are going to be in high demand and very valued.
I do my own thing as I observe you do.

me: that is not a feeling but a thought, it trips up so many people not understanding this difference, but also another nice signpost of following the convictions of the mind by calling it a feeling. Another reason so many of us call thoughts a feeling, is so that it won’t get challenged, as they hide behind this falsely named feeling. We are not our mind, we are not our thoughts, and mind is -never- the Inner Authority. And you, are an idiot.

weirdo: But be clear that I do RESPECT you.

me: so you keep saying…

weirdo: If you ever want to chat or pull a video call, I would welcome that. I am in Arizona in the US
that is MY chart…. Green are defined channels in my design for lunar activations. Yellow are lunar Transits Orange are foundational
You inspired this…..and it is going to help a lot of people understand their design.

me: you took something that was mine, not yours, and now it is made into a commercial product with copyright even, but most importantly, it misses the 5-6 points explanation , how or even why to use it, but then again, they can always keep coming to me for their ‘Individual personalized and extended lunar & other transits cycle chart to discover and work with your own lunar cycle in a profound way, for Reflectors and other types.’ which is handmade and comes with their own private one hour session too.
That write up by Victoria Bagnell is not it, it is shallow, and it is wrong on multiple counts.
So people are left with just another piece of mind candy and not a tool for liberation. You yourself never even had a Lunar Cycle session or Lunar workshop.
You took the info and worked with it, as best you could, and sure you had results/effects, but you still do not understand what is actually used for.
But have (ego) sold as if you do. You are a one eyed king in the land of the blind, and an idiot.

weirdo: Powerful stuff for newbies…..and handy for me to import into my phone and set notifications.
I am hoping to work with him to automate that aspect.

me: it is going to be yet another powerful distraction for newbies, and John Yuill keeps offering more and more homogenized mind candy, so the unintended result, is that people sign up for countless HD lists, follow countless instagram influencers, read all the quotes from Ra somewhere, and get the most shiniest of subscriptions of online HD tools, but not one decision is ever made any different. not once does anyone ever actually get into the experiment of using and applying their Strategy first, to find out their Inner Authority second and then follow through on that then found Inner Authority. Getting stuck in all the wonderfully colored animations and quotes, but made not one actual change in their lives not controlled by their minds. Because yes, of course knowing about HD has an effect, but knowing does not an Inner Authority make. But talking about that will never help, because this is not a ‘convince the mind’ show with better or other arguments. The only way HD ever works, is if -you do the work- if you apply it. The rest is just window dressing, and most get caught up by window shopping, with the nice decorations, but nothing deeper content and sustenance than the shallow portal.

And you did not enhance my tool, or ‘evolved it’, you watered it down, is my observation.
Others tel me: “where is your cheque, or life time subscription?” or “They should pay you.” or “Who is this tool!?”
But I have no need for any of those. And you, are an idiot.
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MoonBlog 30.5 Irony

When people think it’s about the shininess of the content of the bargain they propose
but it’s all about the initiation, which is irrelevant to you or the contents themselves.

It is simply correct, or, not correct.

Not because of the shiny things you offer, or the results you propose.
Correctness does not care about the this & that of it.

add-on/edit: unless the bargain is sex… I guess, then yes, promised shiny results are key 😉

But when you try to bargain something that is not sex, aahh well
get ready to be surprised 😀
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MoonBlog 28.1 preparation

I’m about to throw in the towel, leave all these FB HD groups. Again 😉

The influx of newbies who are drawn in by people like Jenna Zoe selling people ‘Reflector muffins’ and ‘dieting by Type’, combined with the groups admin/moderators too uninterested in keeping the contents about HD.

I really enjoy sharing experience and knowledge with others about HD, in individual sessions, classes and in those groups.

But it seems it is just not my network anymore, when other Certified or semi Professionals also use such groups for shooting from the hip and just blabber from their minds.

I don’t care about the newbie doing so, it is what we are here for, to help guide the way, shine the light, give proper info.

But when the trained, or even certified start doing so, I know it is no longer ‘safe’ for me anymore. When some caretakers take a break themselves, and the groups instantly become much much worse.

Now I know it is in part the Transits cause every single year around this time, this notion happens. I know it is the 4th line overwhelm and sense of abdication.
Is it my Kiron Return of last May? Is it the caving in of the structure of the Cross of Planning too?

I just don’t feel available anymore to the masses, the lurkers, the silent readers, and the network seems depleted, or at least shrinking.

Anyways, maybe see you again elsewhere
(For now, I left a couple of badly moderated groups, and blocked a few more idiots, maybe it helps)
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MoonBlog 54.6 Selectivity

MoonBlog 54.6 exalted in ‘Three Activations’ View

As someone who is in the experiment well over 11 years, and providing my own Transit/Lunar Cycle service, I find the Transit Tool provided by myBodyGraph very advanced, very elaborate too. Maybe even too advanced for beginners.

However, there is so much functionality in it, some obvious by just clicking here and there, some perhaps not so obvious.

So is it for beginners? Yes and no, for some it will be an online honey pot and resource of incredible information, for others it might be a nerd fest of overwhelm.

At the same time, the information that is provided, like all Retrograde Planets, and when they start or end doing so, and other statistics, the live view is fascinating.

Over time one will use a few key functions I presume, you may gravitate towards some different ones than I would, and because it is so elaborate and vast this is all possible.

When having access to Steps 2 and 3 on just one chart, but then not having that same access in the Transit Tool is unfortunate and only overcome by buying the unlimited access.

My Transit Cycle Sequence in full

And sometimes I end up in another information layer I need to remind myself to click the exit cross on the right and come back to the big overview of menus again, where I can then play again with which information to show:
Themes, keynotes and Lines under Planetary Activations
Keynotes, Not-Self Keynotes, Not-Self Questions under Centers
Keynotes under Channels
Elaborate Ordering options under Gates
The many, many ‘hover mouse over’ information baloons

And once activating some of the many options in the ‘show’ menu under the Moon Cycle, another vast bank of info opens up to play with, which I enjoy very much, which I can imagine any beginner struggling with, but starting out with selecting and deselecting which options to show, may help there indeed.

The Ephemeris part did not phase me that much, but can imagine other people have a field day looking forwards or back to certain events, although limited to the years 1900 – 2060. Ok I tried actually and got from December 31st 1899 until May 30st of 2061 😉

Add on: What is odd to me and may confuse others, is the use of the blue and green color. In the MMI, when making a Transit Chart, what is Resonant or you, becomes Green and what forms a Channel (Harmonic) is Blue. In this tool it is the other way around. Luckily there is also the Three Activations view, where the Red & Black of your own chart remain intact and Transits are Green, as seen in the picture top right.

Do check out the descriptions and screenshots here: https://www.mybodygraph.com/shop/product/transit-tool before buying, to see if it tickles you funny, or perhaps not.

A big thanks to Pontus Erik Karlsson (5/1 Reflector) from https://www.thekeytoyourself.com for being paramount in the idea, development and implementation of this online resource.
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MoonBlog 61.5 Influence

So I noticed quite a few of the questions and experiences of some Reflectors here (Human Design Reflectors FaceBook group), stem from feeling/perceiving to be off kilter, unhinged even, unbalanced mostly.

I’d like to give my view on how and why that is, and yes there is a how to this 😉

So, when we, as Reflectors, follow our Strategy & Authority, meaning when we -apply- it, when we use it for our decision making, the results are something else. When I first met Human Design 11 years ago (last Monday), I simply could never have imagined such a way of going about things. I’m someone who needs to be told, and then I can play with it, and can dive quite deep in experimenting. But before I’m told/explained, I have no clue and wonder around like an idiot, lost, deeply lost.

I met Human Design roughly 18 months before I ever saw my chart, and so it did not make sense, I could not ‘use’ it, I didn’t even know there were charts, so it was just another blabla story to me. And this guy with the funny hat did not appeal either. But when I was given my chart, at age 38, now I had some kind of framework to jump off from, explore with, I kinda had a baseline.

So, apply, apply, apply, rinse and repeat. Making a stink of it, doing really bad, not following it, telling myself all kinds of stories about what HD was and wasn’t and of course my overgrown identifications with what/who I thought I was and had become and my abilities.

But that was just the first part of it, and something I realized again last night as I contemplated some of this groups topics and comments.

But first, another part of becoming more self, and truly whatever this self is, whether it is a this kind or that kind, more like this or more like so, becoming and being you depends on understanding and having experimented, experienced your individual Lunar Cycle and thus how you sample life, differently. Which can be a bit of a leap to get into, but after a while it is like a fish swimming in water, since it is all about the observation. Not the interpretation, not even the (limits of our) perception, it’s observation, and we get better and better at it once we start, go there, get experienced with it. And we already are quite perceptive as Reflectors, so, focusing on that, really helps to get a better sense of this illusive, non consistent self.

And through it, again, more relaxation, in ourselves, and in life. And maybe even feeling empowered (a word I hardly ever use). Not in control mind you.

But, and this is, to me at least, a mix of mechanics and its results of using them correctly, the frequency between the Design Crystal in us, and our Magnetic Monopole is unstable, most of the time. And this is where PHS and Environment come in. Because through the application of correct Digestion, and physically being in the right frequency of my correct Environment, we stabilize that frequency.

We can not stabilize the frequency between the Personality Crystal and the Magnetic Monopole and so we’ll always see-saw between our Motivation and our Transference, between our View and our Distraction, but we can stabilize the frequency of the Design, of the body. And through that stable frequency, the Magnetic Monopole can then hook us up to our correct Trajectory through life.

In about a week, I’m at the mid point of my Kiron Return, coming off the Roof as a 4/6, and so stuff is noticeably changing, except what the change itself is, but I do notice a change of frequency field, for me, to me, with me. I slowly begin to perceive to be called, called out, outside, to the floor, off the roof, and so yesterday I had a lovely chat with someone about many things Human Design and when I came home it dawned on me, I needed to apply my PHS, it is my baseline, it is my go to. Not for the atoms of the food that I eat, not for the actual taste or aroma of those atoms that I digest. But for stabilizing that frequency !! It was after my lovely dinner (which is quite fixed to what I can and can not eat) but also my late night snack, which also is repetitive, according to my PHS, it came to me:

My stability in this life as I perceive and you can too, is because of the stability of that frequency between my Design Crystal and my Magnetic Monopole. And it’s like a game of dominoes. If one is off, all could be off. I become unbalanced, unhinged even, insecure, a mess, emotionally, mentally, spiritually, physically.

To realize how subtle yet profound the implications are, and how relatively easy it is to simply go there, and do, apply.

And this is without any Transits consideration even. Those can really add to my experience, for good or bad. And so my perception of life becomes distorted when I don’t, my ‘vulnerability’ for lack of a better word, to life becomes greater when I don’t Digest correctly, when I’m in the wrong Environment, in the wrong frequencies, digesting the wrong people, the wrong words, food, energies.

So I felt like sharing that with this group, because it is simple yet profound. Live your Design, step by step, slowly slowly. Becoming stable in our openness.

Add-on: One of the things I did yesterday, was I went quite the length to get one of my fav foods. Even though I was a bit tired and I had to go to the other side of the city center (I live on the North East side of it) and then 1 other neighborhood, which is quite the journey with all the one way streets and traffic lights and rush hour too. But in that doing, it became more than simple atomic sustenance for the body, it became spirit food.

MoonBlog 61.5
Gate 61 Mystery, inner truth. The awareness of universal underlying principles
Gate 61 Line 5 Influence
Exalted: The enlightened Father figure whose recognized wisdom and powerful assertion can mold a generation by its influence. The pressure to know that may result in influence and wisdom.
Detriment: A tendency in power to want to enforce compliance to ensure lasting influence. The pressure in knowing to resent challenges and demand acceptance.
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The great disappointment…

…for Reflectors is when they put their faith in the other. This is the great disappointment that awaits all Reflectors because sooner or later that is something that’s going to hurt them.

They are here to embrace what is a larger force in their life. It’s just what they’re here for. And of course, the moment that they are on that mundane plane that’s when the disappointment arises. The moment that the conditioning of the people around them is stronger than the conditioning of the program that’s the moment that truly the Reflector becomes lost.

They’re not here to reflect you and me. They only sample it. And what they’re really sampling is to see how much of the program you’ve taken in; because, after all, it’s not good for you. What’s good for them is not good for you. They can carry it inside them and it’s perfect. You carry it inside you and you’re lost in the not-self.”

– Ra Uru Hu

The one thing…

… that an energy type likes about a non-energy type – The Projector – is that the Projector is interested in them. That’s true; this is the Projector. They’re interested in the other.

So when an energy type meets a Reflector they’re surprised; they’re often upset. “They’re not interested in me.” They expect that interest to be there; it is not there. The Reflector aura samples, it takes just a touch of the other. No more. It isn’t to say that when you see a Reflector with somebody else and you’re doing a composite chart, because I can hear the question coming, that they don’t activate it. Yes, of course, they do. This is just simple basic mechanics. But it’s very important to understand something. It has a very, very minimal effect and in terms of conditioning. It is nowhere as powerful as the same activations coming from the planets. And this is the difference.

The Reflector has no way to protect itself from the daily program. So, in fact, more than any other creature on this planet they are designed to be deeply impacted by the program—Sun worshipers, actually. It may be that the Reflector cycle is ruled by the Moon, but they are focused on the neutrino field. It is what they’re here to take in. They’re here to take in the primary programming information.”

– Ra Uru Hu

The Genetic Hierarchy

In the image above, you can see the three other Types that we have looked at arranged in a triangular structure, with the Reflector in the middle. In terms of the genetic hierarchy, the Reflector has a unique view and role. The Manifestor, Generator and Projector are all solar Types, which means that they operate in a generalised imprinting program rooted in the neutrino stream coming from the sun. The Reflector is the only Type that can be described as ‘lunar’ since it operates in an imprinting program that is reflected through the movement of the moon as it passes through the solar neutrino stream.

ROLE IN HISTORY
In history, the Reflectors, like Projectors have been generally ignored, since the energy Types have ruled throughout our history. The future lies in a new direction however, with the unfolding of the natural genetic hierarchy. The Reflector’s place in this new order will be as an embodiment of the ultimate form of social and global justice, since their potential is to reflect everything around them with perfect equanimity.

GIFT AND HANDICAP
Because Reflectors have no fixed definition in their design, there can be a quick assumption that they are somehow more vulnerable than the other three Types. This is not strictly true. We have already seen that the undefined centres are not necessarily a handicap if they are operating correctly. In fact, we have shown throughout this manual that it is the undefined centres that can be the deepest windows on wisdom. It is true that Reflectors are indeed vulnerable, but if they know their design clearly, they are absolutely protected from identifying with anything at all. Because the Reflector’s chemistry magnifies everything and everyone, they have the potential to see everything that is really happening in a way that no one else can. They are a key to a global consciousness, because they participate through their openness in filtering the general consciousness field.

The role of the Reflector is to be one with the totality. They are extremely important to us because their unique perspective is much closer to our future emerging consciousness than for example, the perspective of a Manifestor, which is deeply selfish in comparison.

Their greatest ability is to read others. Added to this, Reflectors have a deep kinship to the moon, and thus they have an opportunity for a mystical life that most of us cannot know.

They can know a deep connection to a celestial body in an ongoing and profound way. In a certain sense, Reflectors represent the moon on earth.

The greatest handicap of a Reflector is their greatest gift; their openness and vulnerability. If they do not know how they function, and if they identify with what they are mirroring, they will easily get lost and confused. Because of their impressionability, they can become very dependent on those around them and therefore they have to be very careful about who they allow into the inner circle of their lives. Reflectors come into the world full of wonder, but so often, having met the not-self of the world, they suffer from a deep disappointment.” – Richard Rudd, Living Your Design – A New Manual for Awakening (2004)

MoonBlog 2.5 Intelligent application

The Reflector Lunar Cycle is not a ritual to obey and follow, that when you don’t, someting bad happens.

It is not about ticking off all the boxes of pre-requisites, and then live happily ever after either.

It’s about becoming such a calm silent observer, for the incredible subtleties of what is already going on, outside (transits, people) and inside (perceptions, experiences) self and not-self, that you can live in awareness of where life takes you, what your Trajectory is, and to relax into how choice-less we all are.

To surrender to that, and see, observe and witness, what that is like.

While dancing the jitterbug, riding your bicycle, making out, cooking dinner or anything else.

MoonBlog 2.5
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And they all lived happily ever after

A Story For All The Children In This World

Once upon a time there were a queen and a king, and they were very happy together. They lived in a beautiful castle surrounded by the lush forests and meadows of their extensive kingdom, but their greatest joy were their four children.
Each child was something special, and since they were so different in their own ways, the royal couple had four towers built for them and styled entirely to their individual wishes and needs.

The eldest son was a Reflector, and his name was Raphael. His tower was covered with ivy and surrounded by old trees, which housed a lot of different animals. The birds and the squirrels and the deer and the bunnies came to greet Raphael each morning, and in some special nights the little Reflector even slept outside under the stars and the moon. He loved to watch the moon making it’s way across the sky, and he felt very connected to it and just as changeable and different each day and night.
When Raphael spent time with other children or grownups, he could sense what they feel, and that surprised him each time. He actually felt like a mirror: “Depending on who I am with, I see myself in a different way. Only when I’m alone I’m truly myself again”, he thought.
Despite his youth, Raphael was a precious advisor to his parents, because he could also sense the needs and moods of the entire population in his parent’s kingdom.
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MoonBlog 39.4 Temperance

The last part on the Reflector is nonsensical homogenization, and fantasy wishful thinking writing based on a theoretic understanding of Reflectors.

“Having clear boundaries and conscious awareness of what’s really going on during the game will help him not be overwhelmed by others or feel disappointed in the way the game is going but rather feel a sense of surprise and wonder at the excitement and flow of it all.”

Those pre-requisites of ‘having clear boundaries and conscious awareness’ are unattainable for any/all Reflectors and can not be used as a tool to counter such influences, this is just pretending to have any such control over the influence of the experience, first, and for all Reflectors, second. 7 centered Make-ability syndrome all over again.

Also as if being overwhelmed is something to avoid, first, and or bad, second, but most of all as if one actually can avoid any of the experience in such a way. But then also, as if ‘feeling a sense of’ [anything] is the goal! And then particularly or specifically “surprise and wonder at the excitement and flow of it all” as if Reflectors are toddlers or something, what the actual…?

Reflectors/Evaluators (still waiting for any proof that Ra himself ever called Reflectors Evaluators) do sample, do experience, but this way of writings suggests one only is one if one feels this sense of surprise and even wonder, first, but for the flow of it all? There is no room for things not flowing (say an accident happens with a player breaking a leg infield and needs medical attention, or a fight among players from opposing teams, or opposing fans), no room for unexcitement, which happens much MUCH more often than not and is just as valid an experience, especially when IT IS the actual experience of this, or that Reflector.

But also, as if 3 Reflectors, or 300 would experience all the same in the same situation, first, and only if they have clear boundaries and conscious awareness (can we measure this, is that in kilograms, or other units?) second.

Ah man… this is truly fantasy blabla-land.

Edit/add-on: it seems in BG5 there is no deconditioning and therefor something external must bring forth the peace, satisfaction, success and surprise (and wonder at the excitement and flow of it all), when living your design it is not brought (in/out?) by external factors, it is a result of you Living Your Design.

I can understand if one teaches things in certain ways, this is the conclusion people arrive at. And therefor surprise and awe/wonder happens because of this (positive thing only), or because of that (any other positive outer circumstance) because the teaching itself omits how it does work, so it does not sound too googoogaga, when in fact that is the -only- realm it does functions in: dark matter and dark energy.

And therefor has become yet another way of misrepresenting Reflectors and what they are and how they do work/function, when HD is probably the only tool available to explain Reflectors well, they seem to fucking miss the mark on each occasion.
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MoonBlog 12.3 Confession

Question: “How do reflectors approach each other if we are supposed to be initiated?”
One answer: “Where do such distortions come from? What does it mean to be initiated?”

Why call it a distortion when you’re not sure yet what it is?
Doubt versus inquiry.

Anyways. This is a nice example of being initiated but needing to process, and I wrote about it 6 years ago here:
https://www.mcha.nl/2012/10/29/initiate-me/

But I’ll add: to me, it is the perception of kick-starting my processing. Just like both your question/answer has. I felt, perceived, noticed I was initiated to answer this one, so I started processing it to answer, and in the mean time saw this question a few times during, but still nothing came to me to answer, while still perceiving, noticing to be initiated by it.

So someone comes along and does something, it could be towards you (a hug, a shout, a question, a smile) and you notice a shift by it, through it. It could also be a TV-ad, a picture you see online.

Nothing magical, nothing really special or something, just this perception, that yes, this is for me -to process- to maybe/perhaps engage with. When or how, is something else, but to notice this, first, is important. To perceive to be, initiated. No distortion here.

And sometimes, someone comes, asks, tells, does whatever, and I clearly notice -not- to be initiated. That it is not for me to process, which is a lot of the time. Much more than when I actually am (or perceive to be) initiated. No distortion here either.

So also, it is clear it is not the other persons doing, that they purposefully initiate me, with their agenda. Sure they could, and many do. But it is about me feeling that this, yes, has initiated me to process.

And then I do.

And then I wait, until the processing has finished and I know, yes, or no. Now I can do this, or interact with this someone on their question/journey, whatever it was they asked of me. Or no, I can not.

So when something is for me and me alone, no one else needs to initiate me. Like eating, or playing guitar.

When someone else is involved I need to be initiated, going out to dinner, or play in a band. This could be done by another person, but not necessarily. You can find out for yourself how it works for yourself, each Reflector for themselves.

There is talk that between people of the same Type, there is no Strategy; so Manifestors don’t need to inform each others, Generators not wait to respond, but I’m not sure if that is true. And I have seen examples of this not always working, so…

To answer the initial question: “How do reflectors approach each other if we are supposed to be initiated?” is, you experiment. Try it out by initiating yourself. Or, notice if you are already initiated by something to contact this Reflector. And if you notice, no, this feels off, I do not perceive to be initiated, even though my mind keeps annoying me with the subject, then see that, notice that, and move on. Sometimes we already are long time initiated and processing/operating accordingly without us being consciously aware, and sometimes we are not initiated but our minds heckle and harass us about it as if we should be.

What I learned through my journey in Human Design, is that before HD I thought life was really rough, and tough, and clear and black and white, that the way people interacted was always clear-cut and ‘manifested’ (for lack of a better word). This is this, and that is that. And I came to find it is incredibly subtle really, and nuanced, very delicate at times. And I was completely blind and unaware that these fine and even minute principles did run me, triggered me, initiated me already, loooong before I or my mind noticed any of it. HD helped me see these finer details of when, why and how I am triggered by external things, that kick-start my processing.

And that having this incredibly rough perception made me incredibly blind. To me being me, myself.
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